22 Chapter 22

Xavier's point of view

Thirty three days, four hours, two minutes and thirty six seconds. That is how long she has been missing.

' FASTER, WORK FASTER! I WANT RESULTS! I WANT SOMETHING OTHER THAN NOTHING!!' I bellowed at my elite squad of trackers.

The whimpered and hung their heads not only because their Alpha king had shouted at them but because they themselves were embarrassed that they could not find any solid leads as to where their Queen Luna was.

I may have not introduced Victoria publicly yet but my entire household knew we were mates and that we marked each other so they knew who she was to them and so did their wolves.

At the thought of her I demanded everyone leave my office, I needed to just breath. When everyone shuffled out eager to continue their tasks I gave them, I rested my head in my hands.

I could not stop thinking about her. I could not sleep, I could not eat, I could not even stop for one second and just do something else that was unrelated to finding her.

I had to find her! When our bond went dark I was almost at Jennifer's but then the shock of not feeling her made me lose control of my car and it flipped. I remember not giving a damn about my injuries or the cars ruined state and just thinking about her and if she was hurt or in danger.

I remember climbing out of the drivers side and shifting. I ran and ran until I reached Jennifer's but she was gone and my heart had stopped.

I could not smell her, I could not sense her I could not mind link her and I howled and howled at the agony of losing her.

It hurts even now, it hurts even more to think I still haven't found my mate. I have failed to protect her and keep her out of harms way.

I cannot even bare to imagine the horrors she must be facing. The first night that she was taken I was searching the woods and I remember feeling almost an echo of pain, it almost felt as if my insides were warming up, in an extremely uncomfortable way, I cannot even explain it but in that moment I knew she was being hurt and I saw red.

I still see red, when I find who ever it is that has her I will make them suffer. If they have hurt her in anyway possible I will make them feel her pain tenfold.

There was a loud "crunch" sound and I looked down and saw I had taken a piece of my mahogany desk out.

I retracted my claws and uncurled my fists around the desk. Pushing my chair back I stood looking down at it furiously for some reason. I was simmering with rage , I shouted out in anger and swiped the contents of my desk onto the floor.

What have I missed? I have searched everywhere, every single wolf in my household and from Victoria's pack has been searching for her. I realised that I never got around to asking Victoria why she hated her pack and I knew it was something that affected her greatly and yet I never got around to it, how pathetic of me, once again I failed her.

I questioned every wolf she was in contact with, the number one suspect that filthy human boy she was with last. But when my wolves disguised at policemen went to question him he said he left her outside of Jennifer's because she practically insisted he did and that Ginger was right around the corner. My wolves said he looked genuinely worried and sincere and that they were positive he wasn't lying. I had wanted to punch something upon hearing that because I had been certain that he had something to do with her disappearance. From the moment I saw him I had a bad feeling about him, Victoria would probably say it was just my jealousy talking but I knew it wasn't just that entirely.

Ginger could barely look at me these days and I knew she had held me to her promise of protecting Victoria which she should have but I let her and Chris down. They hadn't stopped searching for her either.

I had ruled every other threat out and was left with one; spell casters and most importantly Cadmer. He was the only one left who was a likeable suspect and one I felt strongly for. It made me feel even more furious to think the murderer of my parents had my mate in his clutches so I kept telling myself it could be some other enemy of mine or the throne but I knew it was all in vain.

Breathing heavily I walked out of my office and passed the scared looking guards and into the woods were I shifted into my wolf, Demetrius and he took off.

Both of us felt the same, we were hurt, angry, worried for our mate beyond reason, disgusted by ourselves for not finding and protecting what was ours and filled with rage.

We did not know where to start nor how to find her and it drove us insane every single day that she was gone.

I kept thinking back to the moments where she made me feel so angry and annoyed and yet now when I think about them all I feel is sadness.

Each day feels like a lifetime and I don't think I could even get through another day without her here.

I don't care if she hits me or shouts at me or we end up fighting I just want her back. I'd fight with her any day just to have her here with me.

We ran to our favourite lake in this property and went to the lakes edge. Demetrius licked at the water then decided to lay down which I refused but he did it anyway and drifted into sleep.

I was running through the woods in human form, searching for the voice that called out my name over and over agin.

I couldn't shift for some reason so I continued to pump my legs faster and faster forcing myself to run harder. I had to get to that voice, I had to!

Branches were cutting into my arms my bare feet were bleeding as we continued to sprint ahead, stopping for nothing and no one. My priority solely to get to that voice.

" Xavier!" It whined in agony.

My eyes dashed around my surroundings trying to pin point the exact location the voice cried out from.

We turned left and continued to run, we ran even faster as the voice grew even more desperate.

"Xavier!"

I'm coming! I'm coming! I wanted to shout but I couldn't form the words, I could hear my heartbeat thudding furiously in my ears and I ignored it.

" Xavier!" It was getting closer, we were close.

Almost there, just a little while longer, I'm coming, I promise, I'm sorry. I was crying for some reason, everything was turning into a blur around me, my heart was beating out of my chest and then, and then everything went silent as we rushed into a clearing where a figure lay huddled on the ground.

"Xavier," it whispered now it's back still towards me. I walked towards the figure and realised it was a woman. She was nothing but skin and bones her clothes mere rags and her body shook with sobs.

Her face was covered by her hands and her body remained huddled into herself. I knelt in front of her and gently pried her hands away from her face.

I gasped out in shock and horror as I looked into the hollow eyes of my mate. Tears flowed freely never seeming to end down her bruised cheeks. I could feel my body shake at the sight of her and I tasted my own tears as they ran down my cheeks.

With shaking hands she reached for me and cried out,

" Help me Xavier, help me please I beg you!"

I jolted awake.

I noticed I was in human form and must have shifted during that awful nightmare.

I sat up and wiped away the tears that stained my cheeks and tried desperately to stop my body from shaking.

That nightmare was the most terrifying thing, no the sight of the shell of my mate was the most terrifying thing I have ever seen. I didn't know if that nightmare was the universe trying to send me a message or just my subconscious torturing me with my deepest fears. Whatever it was it has left me feeling terrified for my mate.

I didn't care what it took or who I had to get through but I was going to find her and bring her home no matter what.

I'm coming, I'm coming for you Victoria, I promise.