chapter 33

Camryn's POV

I felt like I was stabbed in the heart a thousand times upon seeing him walk out of the room. It wrenched my heart to know that he had left me after knowing what had happened to me.

'How dare he invade my brain and you just let him in!' I angrily said to my wolf 'And look what he did? I told you he wouldn't want us to be his mate! You shouldn't expect anything from him now that he knows everything about us..'

Even though I felt angry towards my wolf, I feel sorry for her. She was really expecting and believed that our mate would accept us.

She curled inside my heart never saying anything. She just kept silent and hauled herself inside.

And now, I felt really alone. Alone and hurt. I didn't know that it hurts more to know that my mate don't want me after knowing all that I've been through. That he had just easily walked out on me, leaving me here crying. It's as if I had never been here, he had just left me quickly after knowing that his mate had been abused and brutally used over and over. And now that he knows, he will surely regret all that he had said to me. He now maybe regretting that he had let himself kiss me. That he had let himself touch a filthy and unworthy she-wolf.

My tears pour heavily and it blurs my visions. I rub my chest to ease the pain and I was nearly choking for crying heavily.

'I need to get out of here' I mumbled to myself.

I look down at my body and saw that there were some connections of wire on my chest connected to the beeping machine beside me. Without hesitation, I removed them one by one. Next, I slide my legs down the bed, and before standing up I breathe heavily. My legs felt numb but I force myself to get up from the bed. Upon standing up, I nearly fall but my hands quickly hold onto the machine that was now silent. I was sweating hard forcing myself to stand up and walk out of the room. With shaky unstable legs, I continue to get out of the room even though I don't know which way to go. I was thankful that it was already nighttime, no one is surely out here to see me. I continue to walk for several minutes passing through corridors after corridors. I was getting tired now, I'm getting weaker and weaker, and still, I hadn't found my way out of this big house.

What kind of place is this? There were so many rooms and hallways. How I will get out of this place?

With no other choice, I continue to search my way out of this big house. Slowly and silently I walk through the hallways until I found a long grand staircase. I shakily hold on to the railings and slowly step down the stairs. My feet are already soar and were now aching from how long I have been walking trying to find my way out. I hold on tight afraid that I might stumble for I was already tired now and exhausted. My body feels really weak and I haven't eaten anything. But I have to get away from here quickly so I push myself more to walk down the staircase. One more step down and finally I had reached the end of the stairs and I stopped for a while to catch my breath. Once I had calmed down my breathing, I continue my search for the door that will lead me out of this place.

As I was walking a few steps away from the staircase, in the corner of my eye something had caught my attention. I slowly walk my way to it. One of the walls just a few steps away from the stairs hangs a big portrait. It was a bit dim and so I step closer to it.

My heart thumps louder and shock courses through me. I covered my mouth with my hands to stop myself from crying.

There he was, on the big portrait with a crown on his head. Dress in royal and with all his glory. He looks so handsome yet so dangerous. My eyes darted down to the lower part of the portrait and a name was written on it:

Alexander Gabriel Gray

The Alpha King of Werewolves

I slowly read it, again and again, to make sure my eyes are not deceiving me. My breath hitched in my throat upon realization hit me.

'He is the King..'

Releasing a shaky breath I was dumbfounded at what I had seen.

He was the Alpha King! My mate is the Alpha King of werewolves? But why? Why it had to be him?

It means I'm in his castle! That's why this place was so big and had so many rooms everywhere.

I had to get away from here now! I had to go away from him! There is no way that I am his mate! I have more reasons now to stay away from him.

I will just be a burden to him and worst I'll just make him ashamed of me. I am not worthy of him!

My wolf suddenly howled inside my head. Begging me to go back. She wants her mate. She wanted to go and find her mate but I will not abide by what she wants.

'Please, wolf. Can't you see? He is the Alpha King! We can't be his mate and put him to shame because of us! He deserves way better and more worthy she-wolf and that's not us.."

Hurriedly, I turn my back on his portrait. I don't even have the right to even look at it. I am just nothing compared to him.

If his the Alpha King then it means I am the Luna Queen.

'I don't belong here..' I shakily back away from the portrait.

'I can't be his Queen. I can't be the Luna Queen of the werewolves.' My heart and mind were shattering at what was suddenly happening to my life.

'Do I have what it takes to be the Queen? Why me? Why it had to be me?'

I want to shout and scream at the Moon Goddess! Why does she have to put me into this?

I will just put the entire kingdom of werewolves into humiliation because of the horrible things that happened to me and risk his reputation as the King of werewolves just to be his mate. I can't let that happen!

I walk away from that corner and desperately find my way out.

Then out of nowhere someone grabbed me from behind and covered my mouth. I thrashed and jerked from its hold but I was still weak I still tried to fight to free myself from its grasp. But then I quickly got tired trying to free myself and then it dragged me until were outside.

I was a bit relieved that I was now outside but was devastated knowing that someone is trying to hurt me again and I don't even know who it is.

My wolf perk up inside me and was worried about what was happening but I don't have enough strength right now to free her and shift into my wolf form.

My mysterious capturer kept dragging me away from the castle and brought me into the forest. It kept dragging me to the dim part of the forest where there were more trees and tall grasses everywhere.

Until we stopped.

My heart was beating louder and I was scared. Feared that I would be hurt again.

"I will make you pay!" The mysterious capturer whispered to me.

My eyes widen at the voice. It is a she-wolf!

Then she grabbed my hands and tied them to my back. Once she was done, she turn my body to face her.

Upon facing her, she slapped me and shoved me hard that I fell with a thud. My butt aches from hitting the hard ground. And once again, I felt pain.

I look up in front of me to see who is this she-wolf that's trying to harm me.

"You!" She angrily growled, "You are the reason why he is dead now!"

I look at the she-wolf in front of me whose face I don't recognize.

"Who are you? Why do you have to do this to me?"

Then she laughs. She just let out a bark of laughter at me but then her look turns into a dangerous one. She took a step towards me with a sinister look on her face. Though feeling weak, I scrambled backward trying to get away from her. With my hands tied at my back, I tried to crawl like a worm using my hands to lift my body and move.

"What do you want?"

"I want you dead!" Then she strode towards me and grabbed my neck lifting me and hurled me against the tree. My body slammed on the tree and once again I landed hard on the dirt knocking the air out of me. I was still struggling upon the hit but then she grabbed me again by my neck and lift me against the tree. My feet dangling above the ground.

"Now you will die just like what he did to my mate!"

She tightened her grasp on my neck, choking me. Bit by bit I was struggling hard to breathe. I tried to squirm under her hold but I was too weak to even move.

"I-I don't know what you're saying" I weakly said to her "Please let me go!"

She just gave me a deep rumbling laugh. Tilting her head back while laughing.

"Please. I-I don't even know you! Why do you have to do this to me?" Still, I tried to talk to her to let me go.

Then she stopped laughing and look at me. Her face turn into a serious one, a look that had me fearing for my dear life.

Why do I always find myself in a situation like this? My life is always hanging by a thread! If I'm going to die, then just let me die! I had endured enough! I had suffered enough! Endured and struggled with different kinds of pain!

But then a part of me was telling me to submit and welcome death. Embrace it even. After knowing that my mate was the Alpha King, this darkest part of me wanted us to just let this she-wolf end our life.

'She's even doing you a favor! Let her end our sufferings! Besides, you are useless! Your mate doesn't want you! He will reject you and everyone would know all about it!'

This part of me is right! Everything it said was right! And I couldn't bear it if everyone and every werewolf in the kingdom would know all that had happened to me! I will not take or bear all that they will say against me! They will just accuse me and judged me! Mock me and they might even torture me more! And if that happens I will have to endure more pain and suffering!

So, why not just die? Then I will be free from all of this!

Death means no more pain.

No more suffering!

No more judgment!

No more tortured beatings!

This part of me was cheering for me to grab and hold on to death!

Then my wolf roared angrily. Pulling me out in the darkness.

"Camryn! Don't you ever think like that!" My wolf rumbled inside me, shaking off the darkness that slowly swirling inside my mind.

'I am so tired now, wolf! I don't want to live like this anymore!' I was broken inside and out. 'You know all that we have been through! And now, I'm giving up. I don't want this anymore! I want to leave this cruel world!'

Her hold getting tighter and tighter on my throat and I was losing air bit by bit.

I glance down at the she-wolf and she had a menacing smile across her face.

"Die!" She roared and she tightens more of her grip until I felt my lungs constricting, my body slowly weakening. And I am giving up.

I am ready to die at the hands of this stranger killer of mine.

Finally, all of my sufferings will come to an end.