10 Chapter 10: Uttermost Desire

She finally let go of my hand as she was filled with rage.

"See what I told you, she's not feeling any pain", another wolf Added.

I sheepishly turned around and just conclude that all the wolves here were talking.

''Maybe her kind are immune to fire,'

''Oh, I see. I'll have to find a better way to kill you, huh?'

I shrugged nonchalantly.

'She isn't even afraid to die.'

Raising my head high, I kept my face blank, showing them all that I wasn't afraid of a thing.

After a few punches and kicks here and there, I was carried back to my room, bleeding but alive.

Day 6; not the prettiest day. I was outside with Giselle, raking the ground. Rina was assigned window washing duty. I was wondering where Kale was. According to Rina, he left the pack immediately after he returned from killing my people.

No one knew where he ran to, but the beta who was always busy was in charge.

I asked after Riley and her children and I was told that she wasn't around. Her baby was having serious issues so she, the chief warrior – who is her husband – and her children travelled to meet a great healer at Kale's command.

Do you see? All my hope were away.

Somewhere deep inside of me, I was very much convinced that Kale wouldn't hurt me, that no matter what happened, he would spare me. I wanted to see him, I wanted him to see what his wolves had done to my face and body. I wanted him to see how gruesome his kind was.

The desire to be in the comfort of his arms was killing me both emotionally, mentally, and physically. I didn't understand why I was feeling so attached and drawn to him, but I was feeling it. At night I went to sleep in tears, thinking about my dead family and wishing that Kale was there to comfort me.

" But wait, come to think of it, how can I get myself attached to someone that slaughtered my kind and took away my mother".

The image of him killing my mother was still there, taunting me every morning before I opened my eyes, but I was still fighting the hate. A strong reasonable part of me wanted to despise him, wanted him dead and ninety feet below the ground. But the other unreasonable side wanted him close, wanted his nose in my hair as those powerful muscles he called arms stayed around my waist. It wanted my head on his hard chest, my fingers trailing the wonder of his abs, exploring through every corner. I had shamed my people and myself with such immoral thoughts, especially of he who wiped their existence.

We are helpless… That voice again. You can't do anything but love him.

" Don't you ever mention that word! I will never love the man that slew my mother before my very eyes!… I shouted mentally.

Good thing he is not a man but a werewolf then.

I snarled at the ridiculous thought. Loving someone after seeing him just once? That's impossible!

Vanessa can never bow before a male, she is a woman for herself, and that's her rule number five.

' Vanessa,' Giselle called. I looked at her. 'Are you alright? You look angry.'

'I'm fine Giselle, just thinking about my mother.'

'Oh,' she mouthed. 'I'm sure you hate them all for killing your people,'

'Not all, just Alpha Kale.'

'Why? Because he led the attack?'

'Because he killed the only person that understood me, he killed my mother.' My grip around the rake tighten.

'I'm so sorry,'

'I don't blame anyone but my people, for starting it all. I however feel bitter about my mother's death. She never ate a wolf, neither did I. She shouldn't have died… No, I shouldn't have saved Riley.' I said regretfully.

'Don't be like that, you saved her and her unborn child, well, she has the baby now but the same thing.'

'If I didn't save them, these wolves wouldn't have found our island yet.'

'Yet?'

'They would have found it a year from now,' I said sadly. 'Mother and I would have been gone by then.

Neither of us deserves what was and is still being served. I can fight but I choose not to because I know they too have suffered because of us. I can't hate them but accept my punishment.'

'You are too good 'Vanessa' it would get you killed.' She said pitifully.

'Don't pity me, I wish to die. Now, tell me more about Alpha Kale, the one you know.'

''What is there? Alpha Kale became the Alpha at such a young age, his alpha command was as powerful as a normal grown-up alpha then. He singlehandedly took care of the pack, provided for them, protected them. He spent his entire life training in anger, bitterness and hatred; determination to kill your people. That was one of his goals, the highest one on the list.

Alpha Kale was the only alpha that formed a battle team, warriors specially trained to protect all were creatures from your kind and others who would hurt them. The organization was a hit, with different types of werecreatures in it and branches at every forest, jungle, cities. Alpha Kale is a hero to all.

He also has large animal and crop farms, to help with endless supplies of food. That was pretty smart. He has the farms scattered all over the nation, including human towns. Most were used for sales and products for other wolves and humans, to earn the money he needed to care for his massive pack.

He also has a wood supply company. He supplies different kinds of woods to humans, they aren't aware of his breed. He has three of this company; one here in USE, one in the USA, one in Australia and one in Asia…wait, that's four then. His farms also provide a dairy product, one of the best products to humans and finally, he owns some kind of greenhouse where he supplies rare plants, fetch them and also write about all kinds of plants humans aren't aware of.

So you see? He has a lot of money.'

'Yeah,' I didn't understand a word she said. 'What about that mate of his?'

'That one,' she snorted. 'Not the Luna yet.'

'Who has the highest authority here? Aside from Kale?'

'The beta male and female, the female is somehow related to Alpha Kale and that is why he treasures her. Somehow. The next is the gamma who is very clingy to Rina and the Delta who happens to be the chief warrior's wife, the one you saved.'

'There's delta?'

''In this pack and few, yes. They are mostly females.'

'Okay, and Keisha?'

'One of the oldest she-wolf here and the governess; second governess.'

'Do they eat human flesh? Some ate my people.' I said shakily, images of a mother getting devoured coming back.

'Only hounds and rogues, all worked together that day to attack.'

'Okay, where do you think Kale ran to?' She shrugged. I sighed and dropped the rake, I was done. 'What if Kale finds his mate now, what would happen to the Luna wannabe?'

'Kimberly would be discarded, she's useless to him anyway. According to what some of the older wolves are saying,' she suddenly whispered. 'The moon goddess will harden the heart of Kale's mate and make her reject him for insulting her by performing the choice mate ritual.'

'Isn't it selfish to keep the alpha waiting?'

'The ritual is only permitted to wolves above a hundred years without a mate, not just in their late twenties or was it early thirties? Whatever, I pray he gets rejected so he would suffer until the day he dies.'….