1 If that's what you want

The struggle of waking up is real. Especially when your motivation to get up is suppose to be school.

Oh! and the abusive sister but that's a minor detail. She isn't home right now so I don't care today.

All I care about now is going to school and meeting up with my boyfriend.

We met last year and got along pretty quickly. He is into anime and he loves music. He asked me out the start of this year even though I'm not attracted to him physically I said yes.

He was sweet and maybe one day I will fall for him. It also gives me something to look forward to.

Speaking of which I should probably get dressed. I put on my uniform that we are required to wear everyday.

It may be a public school but they are so strict on what clothes your allowed to wear. I get why but I still hate it.

The uniform is so expensive so I kinda of have to wear uniform that my sister had. Its a hand down. It is a bit baggy but I like it like that.

I looked in the mirror and looked at the dark blue shirt with yellow strips up the side and light grey shorts. I started thinking about how the year started.

This year especially, is important to some of the girls, there is constant gossip, it being the last year of school for some of us. I try to stay out of it as best as I can so I just don't like talking much at school.

I'm totally different outside of school and Jake knows that.

We try to go on dates at least once a week. We both agree with the fact that no one goes on dates anymore and it should be brought back.

I walk out of my room and proceeded to go towards the bathroom to do my business. i usually go to the bathroom, do my hair, put on shoes then I grab my bag and phone from my bedroom.

I continue to go to the kitchen get my lunch then leave.

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I take a step out the door, and realised it was pretty windy. The door shut and I wasn't able to get back inside to get a jumper.

Oh well, I will just steal Jake's jumper when I get to school. I proceeded to walk to school, it was about a 15 minute walk which isn't bad but it's a little cold.

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I'm here pretty early. it's about 7:30 now and school starts at 9. Ill just go to my usual spot. I have a little corner Jake and I sit at, at lunch. I get along with most of his friends because they are so nice.

I was one right turn away from our spot when I heard talking.

"I don't know what to do!" someone said.

I stopped before the corner and took out my phone. I didn't want to interupt their conversation, hopefully they will leave.

"i know you have liked ava since primary school but doesn't mean you can just break up with her like that" another person said.

I'm going to assume that jake is the one talking. He has known ava for a long time, they are neighbours after all. This caught my attention.

I think malaki (mal-a-k-eye) was there as well.

"yes, I wasn't expecting ava to tell me she likes me, I feel so bad. how should do I break it off with her?" jake said making me feel a little sad.

"calling is probably your best bet. tell her straight away. Plus some girls freak out we don't know how she will react."

"true... calling her now." he sighed.

I had my phone on silent so I looked at my phone, I walked away so I could answer, so I went to the bathroom which wasn't far from where I was standing.

I looked at my phone and braced myself when I saw him calling me.

I had a few tears in my eyes but I looked up and just took a breath.

I pressed answer after 2 seconds of breathing.

"h.h..hello jake" I answered with a shaky voice but I coughed it off.

"Hey babe, are you okay" he still has the nerve to call me babe.

"I'm all good what's up?" I held onto the sink. with one hand to let out a little bit of anger.

"I've had a lot of fun with yo..." sniff came out. "what was that?"

"What nothing continue" I put on a smile to help me talk, I don't want to do this.

"Oh.. okay. well we have had a lot of fun together but I really think you would be better off without me"

There it is.

"okay so you think we should split" I said flat out. My mood changed completely. He deserves to be happy. I can't hold him back when he has found someone he really likes.

"To put it shortly yes. I really did like you but I'm not the guy for you, I'm so sorry" he stated.

"okay, well I hope ava treats you well" oh crap. that wasn't suppose to come out.

I hung up quickly before he could say anything. oh well. It's too late, the damage has been done.

It's now 7:40. I have about an hour and 15 minutes until i need to get to class.

I feel a little trapped. I need to escape from this place. I need some time to myself.

I left the bathroom with red eyes, I walked towards the doors and left the school grounds. on my way out I noticed a couple of jakes friends enter the school in a group together.

"Hey addy, is jake here yet?" one of the guys waved and smiled at me.

I smiled and waved back. "yeah he is at the normal spot"

"where are you going?" He asked curious.

"I dropped something on the way to school and I need to go and get it" I lie a lot and I think this was one of the best on the spot lies.

"Do you need help finding it at all?" He is so nice and caring.