2. i wanna have more!

i avoided the pervert today, cause i stood with my teacher. i saw that the man was disapointed, i smirked at him and turned my head back to my teacher. "why are u smiling?" "cause i stand here with u" "uhu....." he gave me a short smile and looked into his phone again. "no naughty bone today?" i whispered and winked at him. he didnt look even up and shook his head. "not today" "oh..." now i was disapointed and sighed annoyed.

he never gave in into my antics, my tries to seduce him. i got pissed. what was his problem? i knew he could get it up, he already fucked me. was that all? did i fell into the trap, i normaly played out for others? was that a one-time thing?

i waited after school, walked into his class, saw him still on his table, looking through some homework. i built myself upfront him and crossed my arms. he looked up after a while and rubbed his eyes under his glasses.

"what?!" "was i just a one-time thing, or what?!" he tilted his head. "i was busy" "but...." i sighed nervous and rubbed my hands on my jeans. "but, what? u horny?" he gave me a look. "that....yeah" my voice was very low on the last word, addmiting my stupid hornyness. "i am sorry... i saw that u were tired and .... i am sellfish" i smiled sheepishly at him. hoped he wouldnt be pissed.

he gave me a chuckle and patted his thigh. "c'mere." i sat on his lap. "we cant do anything. the janitor and some teachers are still in the building" i sighed out and nuzzled my face into his neck. "hmm...true....we should go upstairs" "toilets?" "no, art class. its cosier there"

"sat down on the table" he ordered me immidiatly we walked into the room. "okay. what now?" "just sit still"

he pulled my zipper down, plopped the button open, shoved his hand into my briefs and gave me a wet kiss. "i ll help u with your naughty naughty friend here, but it must be enough for the rest of the week. until weekend, okay?" "whats on the weekend?" "there i will fuck u so hard, that u cant walk on monday" i looked baffled at him. "huh?!" he chuckled and pulled my dick out.

he sucked me a long time. sucked me good. sucked everything out of me. i layed there on that table and panted for air. enjoyed the echo of my high and thought about what he was going to do to me in a few days....

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me set on a date after fridays schoolhours. i got home fastly, changed my clothes and drove to the meeting point. i was somehow nervous. this was the first time i would actually had a date with someone, someone i liked. that was new.

i looked for the 50th time onto my watch and felt a tapp on my shoulder. "hey there. did u wait long for me?" i turned and was baffled. he looked so diffrent. normally he had these boring, "old" man clothes, but now.... i was surprised. u could think he was my age. a young guy, going out with a friend to have a great night.

"u look.....wow" he laughed. "i thought i shouldnt get outed by other students on our date" "clever" "and i didnt want to look like an old pervert fuck, hustling for younger prey" i laughed hard. he was funny. not so sturdy anymore!

we walked through the food market, ate until we had the wish to vomit, laughed, had a few beer, soju and sightwalked the stores. it was so much fun. i could talk about everything with him. he gave me advice on some things i had trouble. he listened to everything i said. he told me a lot of himself. his life before he came to my school. the hardships he had to endure, to fullfill his futureplans and wishes for his life to be. i admired that. he had an early plan, i still havent had a clue about my future.

as my parents were mostly away thanks to their company, i had the chance to do what i wanted most days. like this weekend. nobody would miss me, if i wasnt at home. so i packed a back with some clothes and stuff, i was sure, that i would stay at his place.

we ended at his place and i fell onto his sofa and whined due to the amount of food i stuffed myself. tae, he allowed me to call him like that, laughed and opened a wine bottle.

we sat there in silence for a while, enjoyed the deep red and thought about today.

"shower?!" he asked, i nodded and he pulled me up. we giggled like children and went to the bathroom, undressed and stept into the shower. the water was wonderfull, the right tempreture and i felt him behind me. he backhugged me and pressed his mouth against my shoulder. we stayed like this for a while.

weird how things turned out. he was just a flirt, someone i can play with it, had great sex and now? i was surprised that i had feelings for him. that i had butterflies, everytime i saw or heard him, goosebumps when he slightly touched my skin, longing for his scent, body and embrace, like now. i needed him. it was weird. i never had that before. i never wanted it before. now i got impatient, when i didnt see or heard him every hour.

i pressed my body back into his, enjoyed our showertime and imagined how it would be, if we would live together. it would be so awesome!

he kissed my neck, took some shower gel and washed my backside.

"would u be dissapointed, if we wont have sex tonight? i am tired and just want to cuddle with u" "no problems. it wouldbe nice, right?"

so we layed down and cuddled, talked for a long time and fell asleep into each others arms. it was heaven. i never slept so good and never felt so safe as there in his arms. i wanted it never to end.

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my body reacted before my brain. i was still in deep slumber, but my "friend" was awake and ready. taes fingers grabbed "him" and played with, my body arched and i let out some moans, which woke me up. the first second i was embarrassed from the sounds i made, but i threw that out of the window, cause it was tae and his hands.

i relaxed and enjoyed him, while the sun came up, painted rosé golden rays on the walls and on the bed. tae freed me from my boxers and smiled. "are u awake now?" he whispered with a chuckle. i whined and heaved myself up on my ellbows.

"i am not the one, who molests a sleeping man" i husked out, what made him laugh out. "molest u...huh?! shall i stop?" he threatened me. "NO?" he laught more and kissed my underbelly. i heaved my hips more up to get him kissing me again, but he only smirked at me. "what?" "kiss me again" "why?" "why not?!" i glared at him and pouted.

he snickered. "u want my kisses?" i nodded. "what else?" "all of u" "all of me? my body?" i nodded again and sighed. "and the rest!" he looked intensly at me, after i said it. "all of me.... thats a nice thought" "not a thought. i WANT all of u" "jungkook.... do u have feelings for me?" he sat up and left my poor "friend". that was torture!

so i sat up too. "didnt u noticed it by now?" i whispered. i wasnt so confident anymore. did i read him wrong? did i imagined things? .... wasnt i enough to be his boyfriend or a potential candidate for it? wasnt i equal in his eyes? anxiety hit me hard, i pulled my legs to my body and burried my face into my knees. shit! i made a fucking huge mistake! i am such an idiot!

"hey" i heard his soft voice, his hand on my head and glanced up. he had a small smile on his face and he wasnt angry. i felt tears in my eyes....WHAT THE FUCK WAS GOING ON WITH ME????

"are u in love with me?" i nodded. "i figured it out this week...sorry" "dont be.... i have feelings for u, be sure of that..." "but u dont love me" i stated. he gave me an apologatic smile and shook his head. i needed suddenly a lot of air.

"....are....u just playing with me?....just some fucking and thats it?" i choked out, shamefull tears ran down my cheeks. he licked his lips, sucked his lip in and just looked at me.

"first ...yes. just some fucks, nothing serious.... but, be honest! u thought that too" i nodded and burried my face again. "listen, kook.... i like u....a lot...its not i will take advantage of your feelings and hurt u. i just need more time, to figure it out. i am your teacher non the less and ...." "so u will....can...love me?!" he smiled again. i am such a child!

he pulled me closer, layed on me, took my face into his wonderfull hands and looked serious. "yeah, if i allowe myself to have deeper feelings for u, i will love u. but if i do that, kook?" "hm?" "u wont get away from me. u will be mine until the day we die"

i looked shocked and happy. "obsessiv we are?!" he grinned. "very. so think about that. u need to be sure, that u want that too. that u can live with it. otherwise it will suffocate u and with it our love. i dont want that" i nodded in agreement. "i will think about it" "good..... now.... shall we focus on your problem?!" "havent we just focused on it the last minutes?!" "no i mean that problem" he pointed and i rolled my eyes.

"this was kinda a turn down.... dont think he is into it now" "ooohhh, i think he still is"

but i wasnt having it. i pushed him from me gently and sat up.

"no.... i cant.... i...." "okay, than lets have breakfast" he shrugged and stood up. "c'mon"

something happened. something wasnt right. something ... i didnt like.

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we didnt talked about it, but it was glooming over us, hoovering, lurking, waiting. it was just like the second before a storm overran everything.

i was walking on eggs, was carefull with my words, was anxious of the crash.

tae noticed my behaviour and tried to push it out of my system, but i couldnt get that strange feeling out. it was hooked. and thanks to my fucking mind problem, i couldnt get "him" up. CAN U BELIVE THAT?! I COULDNT GET HARD!!!! I AM IN BED WITH THE MOST FUCKING SEXY GUY EVER AND MY FUCKING DICK WASNT PLAYING ALONG!!!!! WHAT THE HELL?!

and tae with his "doesnt matter, all good, can happed, bla bla bla" wasnt helping at all.

i was pissed at myself, pissed at tae and pissed at the world.

on sunday i flipped out. i was yelling at him, at myself. i dont know what the reason was anymore, i just snapped suddenly. tae tackled me on the floor, held me down and waited for me to calm down again.

i was disolved into tears and panted hard. everything in my body was high wired and sensitive as fuck. i went through emotions i never knew i had.

he waited.

"are u calm?" i nodded. "what was that?!" i asked him with hickups. "hormons....teenager..." "pfff....seriously?!" "yeah" he shook his head. "what now?! yes or no?" "yes" he grinned. "i am embarressed as heck" i stated. taes smile went wider. "its normal, your body and brain are growing...." "dont give me that shit.... i know that! i am sorry, really! seriously so so sorry" "as i said, its okay. are u feeling better?" "i ruined our weekend" "we will have more weekends" "oh yeah... thank u for ... u know..." i looked ashamed.

he kissed me. like desperate. didnt let go, until i relaxed and shut down my asshole of a brain. i enjoyed his lips again, without any dark thoughts, without that stupid anxiety.

he softly nibbled and kissed me, let me enjoy it for a while, but gradually intesyfied his doing. he made me forget everything. i was so thankfull for that.

his hand made me hard, his lips made me want more, his body was hot and i felt myself again. i was relived, that my "friend" was good again. and i was falling more and more in love with him, but i tried everything not to fall in that trap again.