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I just got my account back... for years! Should I continue writing this? I started working on this so I could put my imagination and free time to work, but I received an offer to work so I left this work of mine. I don't even know if there are still readers interested in this book. I also lost my touch and my English vocabulary decreased since I didn't have to use them in my previous work (It's not like my vocabulary is good either).

I bought myself a drawing tablet. the cheap one, from 10moons for the price of 10$ or 500 pesos (I bought a pre-loved one). I want to draw a comic myself. Maybe I can put my imagination into creating comics much better.

I'm still teaching myself how to draw by watching YouTube tutorials. Since I'm currently jobless and doing nothing, maybe I could produce a simple but interesting comic. I can also work on raising my audience, make a small fortune, and buy proper tools.

No... Maybe I'm being too optimistic. The thing is, I've been jobless for a while now. I feel like a worthless scum living under the same roof as my parents and eating food they bought with their hard-earned money. Although they say it's fine, for me, it's not. I love my parents and respect them. To see them work themselves to feed a scum like me feel terrible.

I want to find a job but I am not able to find one. I'm currently using my free time to do the house choirs instead. Waking up early to prepare Lunchboxes and make breakfast, do the laundry, and clean the house. My younger siblings and parents leave the house at 6 am and return between 4PM to 10PM. Most of the time I do the laundry and dishes then prepare dinner at night.

A few days ago, my father caught chickenpox. Chickenpox is a bitch! I can't sleep for a few days until he looks better. While I was daydreaming, I suddenly remembered how I wrote a novel and bragged about it being displayed on recommendations and told my parents that I'll be signing a proper contract sooner or later.

That's when I tried to look for this account. Maybe I can still write. I spent some time to recover the email I used to create this account and almost gave up and made a newer one. Thank god I managed to recover it!

I forgot this novel's plot, And I feel like continuing this won't be worth it. What should I do? Do I have to create a new, fresh account, to start over? Create comics instead? Or do I have to continue using this account? I can't decide. I'm really bad at using words to describe a scene or emotion, and it's not like I'm good at drawing either but I know I can put more details on drawing than a novel.

Well, It's not like someone will see this... I'm just typing what comes to my mind... God help this poor soul... I'm desperate...