THE HANGMAN

Well, what can I say that has not already been said about fat people, that we do not take care of ourselves because we are lazy, yes, but in me it was already depression, hello I'm Matías and 30 years old and today I'm going to tell you my story, let's start.

I have an unpleasant job and my coworkers make fun of me a lot, I weigh 110 kilos and I am 1.70 meters tall, Yesss, I eat so much, but the truth is that I have no intention or desire to exercise, I live alone in the capital, my parents are from the village, I came to live here thinking it would be the best, at least I have a house of my own with a lot of effort, but I don't know, I feel like I'm missing something, I am a very kind person I never like to confront someone or assault someone and here I am perched on a chair about to hang myself in front of my living room windows with the curtains open so they can see me quickly and my body won't be in that state for too long, It's a good thing no one lives in the house next door, But that's what I thought, just as I was putting the noose around my neck, a family appeared through my window as I was already in the chair, It was a very large family, a single woman with 3 children and a girl, they came to my house to introduce themselves and say hello, I immediately got off, maybe because I was afraid of not wanting the children to go through a trauma, I opened the door fearfully praying that they had not seen me, but thank heaven they did not, they just gave me an apple pie and gave me the good news that they were going to live next door, they are very friendly people and their children are polite, they greeted me and everything and I liked their way of being.

Then time went by and I tried again, but the kids knocked on my door wanting to play because they liked me the first time, I didn't want to, but as I told them, I am not a bad person, I spent a lot of time with those kids, their mom for some reason trusted me, it's hard to believe being in a very dangerous society, but she had nothing to worry about, since she was right, I had no bad intentions, those kids distracted me, from my misery.

Time went by and we have been neighbors for about 2 years now,I get along well with the children and I am fond of the woman, but I don't have enough confidence to tell him anything, I endured for a long time thanks to them, they made me feel happy, the desire to hang myself little by little disappeared with the help of those children, Then the worst happened and my life took a 180 degree turn; one day the woman visited me with her children as usual and we talked a lot and played when the worst happened, I was going to the kitchen to get a soda to invite and it happened, I think because of my overweight I would say, I had a cardiac arrest, it is ironic to leave this world like that I wanted to die and now I am dying, but I feel that I did not want to leave now, I fell like a stone to the ground, before fainting I saw how the children and the woman saw me scared and how the woman grabbed a phone calling emergency when I was already closing my eyes.

I woke up already on the stretcher half disoriented, when I opened my eyes the first thing I saw was the woman was sad, she looked at me and cried, she hugged me, I did not know what to say she leaned in and told me that she was very happy that I woke up, I looked at her and told her please don't lie to me because no one has ever looked at me with love, that I was not man enough for anyone, but she looked at me and hugged me and told me that I was not to blame for anything, I am could not take it anymore, I cried like a child hugging her and telling her thank you for being by my side.

After a while I left the hospital, arriving home I was greeted by the children and they hugged me, I had really missed them a lot, then I told them some news that made them very happy, that I was going to be their new dad they looked at me and smiled and hugged me, we celebrated a lot that day, I left them in my living room and went up to my room to pick up some things and there was the rope hanging from my ceiling, I had forgotten that I had left it there, I looked at it seriously and grabbed it, I went out carefully to my backyard I put it on my grill and set it on fire, when suddenly my new girlfriend came out and hugged me and asked me if we were going to have a barbecue? I looked at her and hugged her and told her that I was not only cold, I am was burying my past and harvesting my new future.

Now I am 37 years old, I have lost weight and I have a new life, I did not know that this would come into my life and I am very happy, now I am married my wife is called Ana and I love her very much, she took me out of this miserable life I had and much more the children made me see that I have something more to live, life always gives you surprises as that song says, sometimes bad sometimes good, well some day you are up sometimes down, just don't give up remember it because sometimes what you expect is just around the corner, This has been my life, thanks for listening to me survivor and good luck.