Confession

I squirted out of his grasp and started to yell angrily at him, "Jason!" He again put his hand over my mouth to stop me from shouting.

"Calm down, you are going to wake up everyone, or at least you are going to summon devils here."

I stopped for a moment when realization hit me. But I again started whisper yelling at him. "What the hell?" I turned to face him.

"What are you doing here at this time?" I asked him, a little calm now.

He rubbed his neck, and started looking anywhere but me. "Umm," he started.

"Yeah," I pressed on with a bored expression on my face. But he didn't respond me. "Alright, I guess you have nothing to say. I should get going." I said turning away from him towards the dorm.

He hurriedly pulled me back with his hand. Shocked by sudden intrusion I felt my back hitting his chest. I froze again for the hundredth time in the same evening.

"Why are you ignoring me?" He asked me softly. "I, I am not " I responded back shaking my face. He turned me around and looked at me with confusion filled eyes and said, "then why you did not pick up my calls?" I looked down shrugging.

"You know I have been trying to catch your attention for 5 days, but you seem to run away whenever I try to talk to you." he said putting his thumb under my chin and making my look at him.

I found myself wobbling in his greyish eyes again. I was again at a very small distance from him where I could see small flecks of green in his eyes. I recalled the same scenario when he kissed me for the first time. I was going to zone out in his eyes. But I recalled, how he was kissing Marie, only after one night he had kissed me.

Realization, Hurt, Anger all hit me at once.

  I suddenly moved away from him and cleared my throat awkwardly.

"I-uh, I have been busy," I said shortly. "Alright," he said nodding his head awkwardly.

"But you sure there is nothing else?" he again asked me.

"Umm, sure there is not." I uttered hastily. He looked suspiciously at me. But nodded anyways.

"Since I'm already here, would that be a bother if I talked to you for awhile?" He asked me hopefully. I looked at his hopeful face and nodded reluctantly.

"So, well" he said walking to the bench in the garden on the other side of dorm building. "What were you busy doing in past few days besides ignoring me?"

I looked at him angrily. I have been trying to keep my calm. But no, he had to put blame on me again like everyone likes to do. " Oh, You know my usual tasks. At least I was not busy kissing people around." At this he immediately turned to look at me. I'm surprised myself he didn't break his neck with this sudden turn.

"Excuse me?" He said again. I sat on the other side of the bench focusing my complete attention on the flower blossoming in front of me .

"Alice," he said slowly once again, but I turned away from his voice. "Hey, Alice, tell me whatever it is that's bothering you. Believe me I would do anything to make it right. I miss having you around me."

I only shook my head, "there is nothing that you can make right." I said thoughtfully. He could not make my mom recover. He could not make dad come back to us. He could not take back all the sorrowful nights when I cried myself to sleep, he could not take back the pain he caused me while kissing Marie, even unknowingly. He just could not make anything right.

"Alice," he again started but I stopped him this time, "why?" he stopped at this and confusedly stared at me for saying something. "Why are you here now? I already have enough of people causing me pain. I really am not that strong. Please just leave me. " I pleaded.

"I'm not here to cause any pain to you Alice, actually I want to be with you in all these troubles and make them easy for you." He said in a loving voice, but the irony caused me to laugh painfully, "you say that to everyone?" I felt myself getting annoyed now so I carried on, " you don't want to cause me pain?", I asked him at which he nodded. "Of course, you don't want to do that. But you know what you already have caused me enough. I don't want have power to bear more. Please." I whispered yelled at him.

"How?, how Alice ?" he asked, "as long as I remember I did nothing to cause you this pain."

"Don't we all  just always think we did nothing wrong?" I asked him "when we all are doing stuff to make others suffer even knowingly or unknowingly." I said laughing at our stupidity again.

"Alice seriously I don't know what I did wrong but I'm sorry," he said genuinely I could see that plea in his eyes, but I was not in my own senses at that moment. "Umm, let's see, may I recall it for you?" I inquired sarcastically, but didn't wait for his reply when I carried on, "You said to me you had no girlfriend?" I looked at a confused Jason in front of me. "You kissed me twice and then you said YOU WERE GOING TO BE BY MY SIDE! and the very next day you neglected me clearly as if I were never in your life to begin with. You kissed Marie right in front of my eyes." I yelled at him.

He opened his mouth to say something, but I cut him off saying, "I'm so sorry Jason it has nothing to do with me, but I really felt pained at that time and I don't wanna be hurt more."

I sat there collecting my breath. No one spoke a word for a long time. I felt the silence suffocating me, so I started to move but his voice stopped me, "Marie, really is not my girlfriend. She is heir of 'Sanders and co.' And my father has a huge collaboration with them. He does not want me to do something that infuriates her , so that Mr. Sander can keep his shares in our company." I turned towards him to find him already looking at me. "Is that all?" I pressed on.

"Alice she has been pestering me if I did something to push her away, she would make her father to stop investing in our company. I really had no other option. I'm sorry if it caused you pain. I really didn't mean it." I nodded at him. "It's alright Jason I just over-reacted I should not have. It's hard on you as well. I understand." I said with a weak smile.

"Are we Clear now?" He asked. "Crystal." I replied and turned away from him towards the dorm as the time was ticking off hastily. I said it was okay. But that did not mean I will forget it, forgiving is something different, but forgetting is hard, it's real hard to forget when the footage keeps on playing in front of your eyes everyday. But guess what's the real problem? you can't say anything, because it's your own problem, you have to solve it yourself. Other's already have bundles of their own to solve. 

"I hope to see you, with your usual beautiful smile tomorrow." He said after me.

I only smiled at this and moved into the dorm.