Chapter1:Paying the price.

I finally accepted my deeds,my doing.I killed him.My husband.I did not mean to.It was all in the name self defense but society calls it a taboo.How was I supposed to react when he kept strangling my neck.Forcing me to go to bed with him.He was drunk,doesn't the society care about women.Life since then has been full of darkness.I live in a six by six room with a door that is only opened once a month.A window I cannot access.Is this my life now?The kind that I don't know when Monday or Tuesday is or when it's morning or night.Nobody visits me anymore.Tell me till when do I have to suffer?The dreams of that night haunting me like I did something wrong.Never giving me peace anymore.When will I see sunrise again,when?

Finally the door opened which means,it was a new month,the first Saturday.I was on duty to water the flowers and do the prison laundry.After hours of laundry I was finally done.Although I was happy to get out,this work was tiresome.It gave me ache in the joints and muscles.It made me thin and look inferior.

As I was about to get to the garden,I heard someone call me."Suzin!Suzin!you are finally out.Can we finish what we started:).Oh no!I had forgotten about Milly.The strongest prison bully.She was fat and had two small ladies following her.I think these days or back then they called then antarage.She held me by the scruff of my neck pushing be to the wall.The two of her so called disciples we on the look out incase the guards turned up.She held me up and gave me several blows and kicks.I regretted ever calling her fat but it's the truth.She was fat or she didn't see it.

In a moment the memories flooded my mind once again,reminding me of how my husband held me.Reminding me how I used the fruit knife to end his life.This time in prison I had the flower cutter.I could have used it but my hands had already got blood.Yes!Blood.How disgusting of me.From a ceo to a murder.I kept squirming thinking she would stop but she was choking me.Denying me air.She was pushing me to doing that again.No! I can't give in.Soon my vision blurred and I started coughing.I have to do it.My inner voice pushed me.Just as I lifted the flower cutter,the guards arrived.I had never been happier seeing them till today.

The three of them were on there knees as I fought for my heart to breathe again.They were cuffed and taken back as I was rushed to the doctor.All I could think of was,"will I make it alive or is this the way it all ends?When will I see sunrise again?"