- Diary Entry 4 -

️⚠️ Mentions Panic attacks

⚠️ Mentions anxiety

: Callisto's Diary Entry 4 :

01/10/2021

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Anxiety, that's a pain in the ass.

Here I am supposed to be in class but I can't concentrate as whatever the teacher is saying is just passing over my head.

The only thought in my head right now the words "just keep breathing" or "take in deep breaths and don't make a scene", how weird is that? I've developed kind of an anxiety tic.

Whenever I'm super anxious I have these weird shudders pass through my body making me flinch or twitch for no reason and trying to suppress them hurts sometimes.

Another thing I do when I'm anxious or having a full blown Anxiety attack is that I crack my knuckles.

By doing do I've sprained my fingers on many occasions which takes about a week to heal.

I've forgotten what it feels like just being normal and calm, I'm constantly anxious it's almost like a daily routine to get an attack or two.

Sometimes I trick my body into thinking I'm having an asthma attack instead of an anxiety attack.

My inhaler helps sometimes but on the bad days my whole body just shuts down and I have to ride through the attack like nothings wrong.

I just want to be free why is it me all the time.

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Love,

C🦋