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Still Standing Axel's Story

Axel Graves is retired army mechanic now sheriff, in a small town where everyone knew everyone for the most part. With his friend group being small and his reigning title as the towns asshole. His best friend is his brother who's his parents golden child and he the disappointment. Being stuck in love with Jessenia Alderman who is his and his brothers best friend who he shares a God child with him. Can he finally confess his love to Jessie, while saving the town from the new drugs spreading in from an unknown source in the city. Go through the journey of Axel a lifetime of life trying to knock him down, but always find himself still standing.

lilmama881106 · Urban
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Chapter 5: Apologies, Truth, & Confessions

~Axel~

"You're telling me your little sweetheart figured all this out by staring at it for twenty minutes and you've been doing this for weeks." Sheriff Dalton laughed out hitting his knee. The old man was the one who was really in charge of the town like mayor in a way normally the head sheriff runs the town. He was the only the one who was above him in rank at the station. "Laugh it up ol' man. You know damn well she was always the smarter one don't go acting all shocked now." Axel kicked at nothing sitting on the rocking chair on Walter Daltons front porch.

"You really ought to send her something that's a big break there." Running his hands down the face. "Who the hell would be making this shit up in town? This would make all other date rape drugs look like a boring cigarette. I mean it's perfect get someone loaded on the damn thing tell them to break into a place and bring you the money from the registers and they will think ok sure. Until the drug leaves your body about a day later and you realize what you've done. Perfect crime man. The person won't even remember the face of the stranger.

"We can't have this in town man college kids and high school assholes will have a field day I the city with this crap. The officers from the city are also asking us for advice on it, maybe anything we can do to help them make it leave the system faster besides pumping the stomach. It seems some of the people who have taken it have died. Allergic reactions, over dosing, and even body responding poorly like effecting some important organs just like any other drug would." Axel added scratching the back of his neck. "You said Jessenia got in touch with some of her special lab friends right?"

"Yeah they will send her some notes and research, and her own notes. She'll get back to us." "Well hopefully we can find out what's actually in the damn thing. Anything else I should know?" "Going to start baseball practice for few days to get ready to get ready for the fire department in a couple of weeks. We got enough time and they got a new man on the department." "Sounds good. Anything else?" "I may have told Natalie flat out to go kick some bricks." "Really, oh I'm sure your parents will so happy to hear that. Mr. Jones has been trying his damned hardest to get to them to get to you for his 'little girl'. I wish I was a fly on that wall for their conversation. You're dad's going to have to choke back his laughter. Your mother so gun-ho on it. That is until she sees Jessie around you." Dalton wiggles his eyebrows playfully.

"Swear the whole world is against me." "Where is the little one tonight." "On a double date with her friend and her crush." "Damn that's rough." Yeah ironically same guy she got a date with this Saturday." "That's really rough. What's your game plan now stud?" "Don't have one. Honestly I don't think I need one. I'll get there in my own time. Besides there's no way in hell that tool stands a chance to really be with her. He's not her type." "Oh I forgot you know everything about her. Little friendly advice there boy, people are ever changing. That sounds familiar."

"Y'all say I'm the asshole." Axel scoffed. "It's alright boy everything else sounds fine don't worry I have you guys off Wednesday and Thursday you asked for Bells birthday. You guys still going to down to the cabins?" "Yeah we are. Sunday is going to be Maddie's party so the guys will be there then the Wednesday and Thursday we will be gone. I'll catch you later ol' man." "See you then I'll send over Maddie's gift to Killian love that kid. Drive safe." Dalton waved off and went into the house.

Friday zoomed right on by Jessie has ignored Dimitri's texts the whole day. Walking into the car and sitting down with her friends. After getting some drinks going all the way around and the meals they finished up. Isabella looked down at her phone she was texting a lot tonight because her new crush and his whole crew were on tonight and he was bored at the station. "Jessie why are avoided Dimitri?" Bella asked her in concern. "I'm not avoiding him. I'm just trying to enjoy my night out with my friends instead of being present and texting on my phone all night." Jessie added.

"Yeah I don't get to see you guys all week and you ignore the people in front of you for your phone. What the hell man?" Chloe whined with the guys who all whined to. "Yeah we were here a lot longer than some guy. We going to be here after too." Killian said as he leaned on Jessie with sad puppy eyes. "OK fine. No more phone, let me send one text so he doesn't think I'm pulling a Jessenia." "Hey." She whined. "Let's dance!" Elias called out as the DJ kept things going strong and so did the group. Axel and Jessie and the whole ganged danced for a good two hours before stopping for more drinks.

"I think we need to work on getting Elias a woman now." Sienna chuckled sitting on Hunter. "Naw Elias is good." Elias said with a smirk. "Let's start with Axel instead." He added. "Axel is good." Axel mimicked Elias making everyone laughed. "How about we work on Jessenia first." Chloe chimed in a little buzzed. "She's good." Killian and Axel said at the same time clinging each other's beers in victory with a smile. "Yeah besides I think Jessie's good on the romance front anyway." Bella's said with a smirk. "What does that mean? Ryder asked in a curious tone pulling Aria on his lap.

"Well I mean as much as she's hitting things off with Dimitri. I don't see her being single much longer." Bella chirped. "Really?" Hunter asked getting a little mad none of them cared for Dimitri at all the males at least. "We aren't hitting things off per say. We're friends who are just trying something one time. Stop reading too much into it Bells." Jessie warned. "Oh come on I was there last night the man looks at you like you hung the damn moon, and you were into him I can tell. You can't hide that from me." She added.

"I don't know what you think you saw but I honestly just had a good time and good food with three friends. You're reading way too much into it Bells. Look I'm glad you like Leo so much and I'm honestly happy for you but can you just accept the fact that it may not happen the way you want with Dimitri? I mean nothing's happened. I' don't think I want it to either. It ever occur to you I may want someone or something else?" Jessie asked getting a little angry. "Yeah Bells beside there's no way a tool like that has a shot with her. Not a guy like that with a girl like her." Axel said with too much attitude then he should have all the guys closed their eyes knowing another fight going to go down. It's too classic, especially when he is jealous.

"What do you mean a guy like him and a girl like me. Dimitri is a great guy you saying a great guy like that couldn't keep interest in a girl like me? What exactly is a girl like me Ax?" Jessie argued in a snappy tone. "I'm just saying he may seem great on paper doesn't make him great where it counts. He doesn't know the first thing about you Jessenia for someone who's been sch great friends for so long. Doesn't that raise any type of red flags for you. You know all about him because you're a good person. If there was a time when he listened more then he talked maybe he could have gotten somewhere with you but the dude is way too vanilla for you. You need someone to actually do something for you and I doubt very seriously it's going to be that douche. If you guys ever did get together I give you maybe a few months to a year tops before things go to shit because you get bored and resent him or he falls into the arms of some desperate blonde bimbo like Amber who's so damn thirsty for his dick she drools over him on her lunch break." Axel told her with a shrug.

"Well I am so damn happy for you Axel I had no idea you were a fucking psychic. How about you take your damn visions and shove them straight up your ass." Jessie said getting up and leaving into the empty stock room. "I'll go." Killian said moving to her. "No I will." Axel said in more of a challenge no one dared to say anything else. "They going to be awhile let's go back to the dance floor." Hunter sighed. Walking back to the door and locking it behind him.

"You know what Axel I'm not really in the fucking mood for your little fucking temper tantrum again on someone you can't stand what the hell is it with him and you Axel? What is your problem is happiness in dick size which is why you don't have any?!" "Look you can be mad at me all you want but I'm just trying to warn you about idiots like that because I fucking care about you. I mean damn Jessie the guy knows more about your fat ass and your breast more than he does about after all these fucking years that should fucking tip you off. Standing in front of each other almost nose to nose so much anger rolling off both of them.

Grabbing his hand putting it on her ass in a challenge. "Does this really feel too fat?" Meeting her challenge he grabbed her hand to put on his semi bulge. "Does that really feel to small?" He growled back to her staring intently in each other's eyes. He finally decided to go for it, no turning back now. Pulling her close and smashing his lips down to hers. Jessie didn't miss a beat before kissing him back with the same energy. After a few minutes they pulled away to stare at each other in the eyes catching their breath. Taking his hand and putting it on her lower jaw and some of her cheek and the other holder her waist tighter he connected their lips again. Feeling her tongue in his mouth didn't do anything to help the raging hard on he was trying not to rub on her holding her so close, as he breast hardened on his chest.

He could feel the hairs rising up in her neck and arms. Loving the effect he knew he was having on her. Finally achieving his dream of making this happen. It caught him off guard when she pulled away. Getting out of his hold she looked at him. "Jes." He started she held out her hand to stop him. "I just. I." "Look I know but Jes." Shaking her head she turned and left the room not being able to run after her with his boner that hard. "JESSIE!" He called out for her but it was too late she was too far gone. What would he really tell her right now anyway? He knew she needed time to let it sink in. He was going to give it to her but not too long. Not this time. Not after finally getting a taste of her there was no way in hell he was going to keep his distance off her now.

Walking out of the room and outside after he calmed himself down. Walking outside to look around for her. "She took an uber dude what the fuck did you do to her!" Killian growled to him. "Now is not the time Kills. Let's just say she's probably going to need a day to calm herself down." "WHAT the hell did you say to her. AXEL you are my brother and I love you more than life itself but that is my little sister and I swear I will deball you, if you ever make her that fucking upset again she couldn't even look at me Ax. I'M HER BEST FRIEND!! She couldn't even look me in the eye. How do you think I felt seeing her look that disheveled because of you what the hell did you say or do so I know how to help her. What the hell happened I mean look at you, you're a fucking mess."

Looking at his brother he knew he should feel ashamed but he just couldn't bring himself to be since he didn't regret it. "You want to know what happened? You want to know what I did to your little sister? Alright big bro I kissed her right after she made me cup her ass and her had grabbed around cupping my dick. We made out for about twenty minutes hot and heavy. Until she ran out on me. How you feeling about your little siblings now bubba?" Axel asked him sarcastically running his hands up and down his face.

Killian looked at him mouth hung slightly opened. "I think I would have been expecting something more along the lines of an Alien or shapeshifter came and tried to claim her as human sacrifice then what you just said. Well we aren't going to tell anybody." Killian whispered. Axel nodding along. "I'm not letting this go Killian I can't. Not now. I can't Kills." Axel said a little hurt. "I know Axel and you shouldn't. Let's just worry about Maddison's party and then we'll see what we can do about it then. Everyone's already gone home and I got a drunk wife past out in my truck. Get home take a shower and go to bed."

"Alright drive safe Killian. Thanks. Killian you're really lucky you know." "Yeah I'm blessed with a great family. That includes you too you dumbass. You'll get there sooner than you think Ax, give her time. She's been different for a few days. When I ask her about it she just told me she's been having crazy dreams. Give her time she's not herself." Killian said walking away from his little brother. "Don't forget party is at 12. We're not going to church but people from church will be there." Axel just nodded along as he knew he would be running errands with Killian all day tomorrow to get ready for Sunday.

~Sean.~

Saturday morning Maddison was still at her grandparents' house. Looking at all her daddy's trophies on the wall and the medals, pictures of the teams. It looked like she was looking for something specific. "Maddie girl what are you looking for love bug?" Sean asked her with a smile. "Well daddy says he and Uncle Axy were on the same sports teams a lot of the time. He says Uncle Axy was the best in state and wontons of trophies for it, but I can't find them these are all daddy's? Grandpa why do you not have anything of uncle Axy up in the house?" Maddison asked in a sad voice. "Well that's not true we have them up in their team pictures and I'm sure we have some of his awards somewhere." Sean said as he started to look around he never noticed what Dana hung in the house he just assumed she hung both kids' stuff up. He knew how much achievements Axel actually had hell he could name every single one both boys ever received. He just never could make any of Axels ceremonies there were too many. He started to think about it Dana always reminded him of Killian though. He knew he didn't spend as much time as he should have with Axel but there had to be some trace of him somewhere in the house. Looking around he was starting to look around from the attic and basement. Axel's old room was turned into a room for Maddison yet Killian's room remained untouched. How could he never notice this before.

"Sean what the hell are you doing besides making a mess out of my house." Dana snapped at him. "Maddie asked me why we don't have anything of Axel anywhere in the house and now I'm wondering the same thing where are his awards Dana and why don't we have any hanging up like we do Killian." "I gave them to Axel when he left, we didn't have any room on the shelves anyway. Besides he's in the pictures downstairs." "Dana there's not one picture where he's by himself and we have walls of pictures of literally everyone else." "He's in the pictures hanging up there is not room on the walls for anything else." She pointed out being a fact. "Why isn't Killian's room turned into Maddie's room it's like a damn shrine, there's not a piece of evidence in the house that showed Axel ever lived here Dana. "Axel doesn't ever come here Sean. Killian comes a lot and so does Chloe and Maddie they need a place to go." She pointed out. That was true, but why?

"When's the last time you invited him out here? Besides trying to pimp off to the Jones kid." "Sean you know how busy I am when is the last time you picked up your phone and talked to your son? If you're having guilty issues on being a father to your kids then that's on you I need to get dinner going and you are foin got make sure everything is put back. "Crazy ass man, making a mess in my house. I think the fuck not." Dana rambled up the stairs. He knew they were harder on Axel then Killian but surely they couldn't have treated them that different could they? Taking out his phone and the call logs he started to go through when was the last time he called Killian. Nothing but a good forty just to Killian in two weeks. Hmm. When was the last time I even talked to him longer than five minutes from church. Shit he thought to himself that boy must resent him so bad as he slowly started to remember everything from their childhood. No wonder Axel always seemed the way he did. No one ever saw him.

Axel always stood on the side and let everyone else shined because no one was ever there to encourage just him except Killian, the Alderman's and Jessie thank God for them. "Grandpa?" "Hey baby girl." "I think I hurt Uncle Axels feelings a while back." She said in a sad voice. "I doubt that honey bee. Why would you say that?" "He told me not to say to you. He said everything is fine but his eyes were sad even though he smiled." "Well you can tell Grandpa it'll be our secret plus if you tell me I bet I can help you make him feel better." "I don't think you can but Jessie or daddy might." She said getting excited. "And just why can't I help?" He said tickling her. "I asked uncle Axy why you and grandma didn't like him since you never have anything in the house and he never comes here and no one here ever asks about my Axy. He said the house looks just fine the way it is and not to say anything to you because it wasn't a big deal and it's not nice to tell someone how they decorate their home. I don't think you can help me make him feel better because I don't think you know him well enough to help me start." "When did you tell him all this?" Sean asked hurtfully. "On his birthday you know the day after daddy's. Auntie Jessie takes me to his house since the day I was born to celebrate just us three. He said that's the only thing he wishes for ever year, and to watch me grow like a beautiful little weed. He's so silly." Maddison got up and ran up to her grandma who was calling her to be fed.

Holding his hands in his head. I can't believe we've skipped out on so many birthdays and other special things with him. How do you make up for a lifetime of disappointing parents. Killian was always trying to brag about Axel growing up making him smile at the table but then we would beam on Killian and tell Axel why he couldn't have tried harder. Hell I don't think we even sent one letter to him when he went away to the army for so long. Yet we sent them to Killian every year. Shit what if he gets kids, will he even let us see them? How could I have fucked so bad, been so cold to my own baby. It's a miracle he's even here in the first place. Dana was so let down when he came out a boy. Being born so early being so small it's a miracle he's even still breathing. Remembering praying so hard over his little incubator to keep those lungs going to any higher power who would listen to let his boy grow big and strong. He did, and he did it without us. Sean teared up a little bit. I can't help Maddie because I don't know my own son. I need to fix this. Getting up and grabbing his jacket and getting on his bike. He took off.

~Axel~

I'm outside trying my best not to think about that ass hat being with my angel right now. How it's taking everything in me not to go over where ever they are right now and drag her ass back to my bed and keep her there. I know she needs to see this through. I need her to see that there's nothing there with him. I know she feels it but in this small ass town she needs to show it to him too that she doesn't feel it. She's not as cold as I am like I was to Natalie. Fuck maybe I needed to apologize to Nat too. AGHH yeah I need to apologize to her to. It sucks having a mouth that likes to stay so brutally honest and has no filter to hold my ass back. Who the hell is that? Standing up he saw the bike park out in front of his home. That can't be right. He didn't even get up just looked over from his little step he was sitting on cleaning and fixing some things on his bike.

"Hey kiddo." Sean said taking his helmet off. "What are you doing here? Is Maddie ok?" He asked getting nervous. "Calm down baby girl is fine she's with your mom. I just thought I swing by and see you for a bit." "Why? How did you even find me out here?" "Well I called Caleb and he told me how to get up here got lost about four times. You like your privacy son, you a little too much like your ol man. Tighten that one up more and you need to bleed that part out a little more." He pointed out to his son about the parts on his bike. Axel only nodded knowing he was right. I just been doing some thinking and thought I'd come up and check on you." "Really? I've lived here for few years. You guys never had a clue. Hell I bet you or mom don't even have my number in your phones and you just on a whim got up and drove out to see how I'm doing? Come on dad let's get real you guys don't even ask me that after church when we see each other every Sunday. So why you really here? You need help with Killian or something. I already told you guys I'm not dating that rich bitch Natalie Jones." Axel said still working not even looking at his dad.

His dad couldn't even get mad at the way his son was talking to him because honestly he has it coming. He's earned every hateful word he was saying. "I don't want you with Natalie and I've already explained it to your mother. I told her to stop trying so damn hard when you're clearly wrapped around Jessenia's Alderman finger and have been since she moved next door when she was four." Axels head popped up shocked his dad noticed that. "Look Axel I was a shitty father to you and it wasn't right. I know nothing I say can and will make up for anything I haven't done or have done or did say or didn't say. I know it won't make up for all the times we let you down when we should have been with you by your side encouraging you. I know it won't make up for the heart ache we must have put you through growing up. I don't have a reason or an excuse I can use other then I was just a dumbass. I don't want to be that guy. I want a relationship with both my kids. I want to be able to see all my grandkids and be close to my family not just half of it. I want to be there for you Axel, and I'm just so sorry I waited until you were twenty-eight to tell you that. I'm so sorry I waited this long to open my eyes and let you know I see you kid, and I'm proud of you and everything you have become. Its hurtful to know you did it without us because we were shitty parents. We honestly could probably go the rest of our lives and never deserve you Axel. If it's not too late. If I didn't fuck up too much do you think we can work on this; or do you want me to just go out the way I came. I don't expect you to ever forgive us son. I just need you to know how sorry I am and that I really do love you kid." Sean said eyes filled with tears but none were being allowed to fall.

"Are you dying or drunk?" Axel asked him scratching the back of his head. "No you damn twat. I'm just coming around to what a piece of crap I've been. You definitely my kid. Got my attitude all over you." Sean said shaking his head moving his foot on the ground. He was right he got a lot of features from his dad even the dark skin, the hair, ell the eyes. His shitty attitude was just cherry on top. "What'd you say kid. Am I too late to make things right?" Sean asked being sincere Axel could see the pain and truth behind his dads eyes. Looking at him deeper. "You talked to Maddie." Axel said looking down again shaking his head down.

"You didn't need to make the trip up here dad because you felt guilty. I'll talk to Maddie again don't worry no one else will know or hear of this. You." "I didn't come all the way up here just because I felt guilty damn it Axel. I deserve to feel guilty I was a complete shit father too you and you deserve an apology and no matter how many times I'm goin got say it to your face it's never going to be enough I want to be in your life. I just need to know if there's any room in it for me." Sean said defeated. Axel reading his dad never seeing be this way was weird. Sean Graves was always this strong man, who never kneeled to anyone but here he was trying to make it an effort. An actual effort out of his own free will, and actually apologized for his crappy childhood and then some.

Never thought I lived to see this day. "I've never pushed you guys away dad. That wasn't me. I never held back from you guys that wasn't me. If you want to try to mend whatever this is, then I'm willing to give it a shot. I aint one to hold a grudge over petty shit. Going to warn you know it's going to be weird for me I aint good at this touchy feeling bullshit especially with you. Guess we'll ugh just figure it out as we go, though right? Look you don't have to beat yourself up too much I had a great father figure growing up. Caleb taught me and even Killian everything we should know. I don't feel like I missed out on anything I'm ok. I'm really ok."

"I know that son. I know I owe that man a lot. I know you don't feel like you missed out on a lot but I do. I did, and it was my fault. That needs to change though son. I want you to be able to be able to come to come to me too." He said grabbing Axel's phone texting himself from it to save his kid's phone number in it. "You got a great place here." "Yeah hey how did you know about Jessie?" "I was a shitty dad son but I wasn't fucking blind. You want to tell me what's got you so worked up you had to come out and work on your bike to try to avoid whatever it is you're trying to avoid. Taking a deep breath he sighed looked at his dad. He always wanted this with his dad, he needed to be the bigger man and just take the plunge and in the that moment he put his bike back together and told his dad everything from being kids to college spending the weeks of leave hidden in her dorm, to now.

~Jessenia~

Meanwhile across the small downtown. "I could have picked you up you know?" Dimitri told her with a chuckle as he pulled out her chair. "Thanks no really I'm fine. So how was your day you must be so tired. Adjusting to the new schedule." "No it's alright it's not like we don't get to sleep at the station just because their twenty-four hour shifts they still have their perks. Plus it's nice to get a whole day off haven't had that in years. I feel like I can start having a life now." He chuckled to her. "Have you put any more thought into opening your practice out of the hospital?"

"I have and I did. I bought it this morning. It will take a couple of weeks to get everything set up and things so I will stay at the hospital until it is finished and the board will still let me have full access and surgeries there, as long as I am open to be used as still being a part of them and their reputation." "Wow I'm so proud of you Jessie look at you finally away from those old fogie kiss ass board members and their wet behind the ears doctors." Dimitri said shaking his head. The conversation flowed great and she was finding herself having a good time. It was like being with a great friend and that was the problem no matter what angle she looked at him through or way she tried to see him, that's all she was seeing him as.

Walking her out to her car. "You know I had the best night with you Jessie. I always have a great time when I'm with you though." He told her blushing a little. "Do you think we can do this again?" Dimitri asked her rubbing the back of his neck. "Dimitri I enjoy our time together. It's so easy being around you. You are a sexy, good-looking man. I just. My feeling for you aren't getting past that friend level though and I don't think they will. I mean we have been friends for so long wouldn't I have caught them by now if this was meant to be more?" She asked him in an awkward tone. "Are you sure you can't see anything in this?" He asked a little let down and hurt and he knew how hard this must be for her to say.

"I mean maybe you can't see it because it's never proposed as an option?" "I have been thinking about this since I agreed to the date just so I can have my feelings sorted and it always leads back to it coming back to friends. I am not feeling romantic connection here." She said looking down. Dimitri couldn't believe he messed up his chance with her. Wondering what he can do to change her mind. Not being able to grip the fact this is the end before they even got started. He took both his hands and grabbed her face smashing his lips on her pushing her against the car while holding her tight to him. Feeling like he was finally in heaven his heart racing so fast he feared she could feel it along with some other excited things on his body. The kiss was so passionate so Hollywood guy finally gets the girl climax kiss. It is every girls dream why didn't she feel that way though.

Pushing him away looking at him shocked. "I'm not going to apologize for that because I'm not sorry Jessenia. I had to do that at least just once. I also think you're wrong about us. I think there is something great here. I think your just letting certain people's words or even opinions get in the way. I think if you really thought us through without certain influences on us you would see it too." "What are trying to say Dimitri?" "I don't get along with Axel and Killian because they hate me for some reason and have no problem expressing that when I'm around. Yet when it's just us it's great like tonight and every other time were chilling together. I think you listen to much to your friends dislike for me and using it against us having a relationship because you don't want to put a wedge or drive between you and them and them not liking your boyfriend. Which newsflash for ya Jess they will never like whatever guy that may be because you are their little sister and no one will ever be good enough for them for you. Even I can agree with them on that part. I will never be able to compete with the relationship you have with them and I would never try but that doesn't mean I won't stop trying at a fair shot with you Jess." Dimitri told her while walking away.

"Wait just one damn minute Moretti! You honestly think I would let the opinions of my best friends cloud my emotions or judgement over someone I may or may not want to be with? You could not be more wrong if you tried buddy and if you really knew me Dimitri you would know that. What you and the Grave boys have going on is your own damn issue it's between you and them. That has no bearings on my relationship with you guys separately. I told you exactly how I felt and exactly how things were between us. Maybe you just can't handle rejection well and needed to come up with your justifiable reason in that brain of your as to why I'm not like all the other girls who get around you and want to jump your bones. I hate to tell you Dimitri but I don't have those types of feelings for you. Those are my real feelings they weren't coached on by anyone else then whatever goes on between us. Now if you can't handle being just friends then it's a shame but that's all I can give you Dimitri." She roared to him.

"Are you honestly saying you're a little jealous of the girls who look at me and want to 'jump my bones in your words'? You said that a little to defensively. Jessie I will always be your friend but there will be a day when you will look at me and see me in a different light. I'll be ready and waiting. It's just a matter of time before you're begging me to push you back up that car again. I'll respect your wishes for now and later." He told her with a wink. Walking away. What a little fucking freak she thought to herself. Pulling up to her house before walking into the door she stopped herself. Nope this isn't going to do. Calling for an uber she got in the car and went to the only place she felt she needed to go. Luckily it didn't take long to get there and get lost in her own emotions.

~Axel~

I was just cleaning up the pizza and drinks from when dad left about thirty minutes ago. When he looked down at his ringing phone. Weird he thought looking down at the number. 'Graves.' He answered in a plain deep voice. 'Hey Axel, it's Chris. Look man I got something that belongs to you. You might want to come get.' Sighing heavily. This wasn't the first time he had to come collect her or her collect him from the bar. Everyone in town knew how close they were, but it seemed every male in town knew why he was close to her Chris being no exception. 'Thanks for calling Chris I'm coming just keep her busy. Give her coffee shots and tell her it's Kahlua or something until I get there.' 'Yeah man alright way ahead of you bro.' Chris laughed off. Getting into his truck he headed over to the bar to gather his angel wondering what kind of date she must have had to end up there and many ways he would rip that dickless twat waffle apart if he hurt her.

Walking in the door he could have spotted her miles away in her deep blue sundress that made her eyes pop, her hair down now and flowing down past her back and shoulder she was beautiful. Walking over to her and taking the seat next to her. He could see she was still tipsy but not as bad as she could have been. "Hey angel." He told her in the voice she never noticed she always loved. It was deep raspy and gentle yet commanding. It was like music on her ears. "Youu." She slurred a little bit. "You ruined something that could have been great. I mean it's what girls dream of and with a down on paper perfect guy. OR maybe you didn't I don't know maybe I ruined everything." She said mumbling to no one. "You're going to have to walk me through that thought process in the truck angel I'm going to take you home. Alright?" He asked her putting her stray hair behind her ear. "Fine." She told him grabbing onto his arm.

After getting her into the truck. "Now do you want to tell me what all that was back there?" Axel asked in a caring and calm voice. "I had a really nice date. I had a good time with Dimitri but I just can't see us the way he does. So I told him I can only offer him friendship. You know I tried. I tried really hard because it's easy to be around him. I want someone to want me to love me to want to be with me you know. It just wasn't working. He then pushed me up against my car and was kissed me. I couldn't kiss him back. I shoved him off and told him it just wasn't going to work. Then you know what that little ass clown said to me Killian?"

"Killian?" "Yeah Killian do you know what that douche bag said to me?" Wow she was more tipsy then he thought. Shaking his head. "It's me Axel angel but what did the Douche canoe tell you." "He told me that he doesn't believe me that I don't like him because I let you and your sexy ass brother low opinion of him get in my way so I don't cause a rift between us so I don't have to worry about my brothers not liking my boyfriend what a bitch." She was venting not once looking at Axel maybe that's why she kept calling him Killian.

"I told him if he knew me as well as he should by now he would know how stupid and wrong he is. He gave me the most romantic, Hollywood set kiss every girl should dream of but it just felt wrong and dirty. SO I told him excuse me for not being like all the rest of the bimbos who want to choke on his damn shlong. Then he took that as me being jealous were still friends but he's convinced to show me how me how much better we could be. I think Axel did ruin it for me though or it could have just been me I can't help I'm not physically attracted to him I mean sure Dimitri is a handsome man who has a nice body but it does nothing for my body there is no heart boner twitch or however you sexy dumb ass brother phrased it."

"How would Axle have ruined that for you angel?" Axel asked confused. "I have been having some personal dreams last few weeks where Axel and I have been how do you say having some very more than friendly relations. It has been putting me through some very deep-thinking thoughts that maybe I may have deeper feelings for that sexy little bastard. Then I think I hated Dimitri's kiss so much because it was nothing compared to Axel's." She told him in along sigh looking out the window looking at her house walking out the door stepping up to the door. Axel behind her shocked at what he was hearing yet hopeful.

"Axel when did you get here?" She asked happily. "I drove you home angel. Let me help you get to bed." Axel told her unlocking her door helping her in. Going straight into her fridge and getting a bottle of water drink this first and I'll get you some clothes what do you want to wear. In my underwear drawer there is a shirt that is my favorite thing to sleep in especially last few nights be careful though it still smells like him and I don't want hat to go away." She said as she chugged the bottle of water.

Grabbing another bottle and the aspirin bottle to put next to her bed along with a just in case waste basket. He fetched the shirt trying to avoid all the sexy damn underwear and the thoughts of her in them. Getting the shirt out he couldn't contain his smile it was his and it did still smell like him. From the last time he slept over for a movie night with Maddie. It wasn't very often he could feel his heart smile but his angel always found a way to do that. Giving her the shirt she made her way to the bathroom and came back out only wearing the shirt that went down to her knees.

"Axel when did you get here?" She asked him again smiling to him. "You know Axel I think Killian was right I think I finally opened my eyes to see everything I never knew I always wanted right in front of me. I just was always too stupid to try to reach out and grab it. Dimitri kind of killed it for me though. I mean what if he is right and they guy my heart is beating for only sees me as his little sister. His friend. What if he only got caught up in the moment and regrets ever placing his lips on mine. I think I really fucked up. You think he'll ever forgive me?" "Do you regret kissing him?"

"I regret Dimitri kissing me. I'll never regret my Axel though. I just. How do I face him now with his arrogant ass being right about everything that happened tonight but how do I see him and not feel him on me again. It was so safe, caring. So." She cut her self-off by passing out on er bed. Yeah she's never going to remember this in the morning. Leaving the stuff by her bed. Covering her up and kissing her forehead, the softly on her lips. "Soon baby. This will be fixed soon." Locking up behind him where he went home and started to drift off to sleep happier then he's been for years at his angel confession. That little fucking tool wants to play dirty. Fine by me game on bitch."