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- VANESSA -

Emotions are clashing in my chest, including the knowledge that Dom is being sincere about his feelings for me and that I am probably being immature and irrational with how upset I have suddenly become. It was Ivan who gave me the information about Dominik, after all. Why would I let him get to me and mess with my head? But it also feels like there is little I can do to help it. 

I have to choke back tears passing Angelique as we make our way into the club when I think of her successfully "persuading" Dominik to sleep with her more than once. The memory of him on the couch at the man castle with another woman floods back into my thoughts, too, coupled with the raw betrayal and sorrow I felt in that moment that had me rushing out onto the mountainside. 

Why did I so quickly forget that instance when it only just happened? I was so upset—so angry—despite the fact that I had no real reason to be. But maybe I did have a reason.