46 Spider Lady Beats her Inner Demons
"Xiao Xue'er you know that she is in Heavenly Dou City. Is this why you are here?" Qian Daoliu asked his granddaughter.
"...I… I am not strong enough yet to face her." The blonde angel girl said that with not so sure tone.
"Hmm, this is quite the development. Normally you would get angry when I mention her."
"There is no reason for me to be angry. She has her reasons. And I wish to change them. For me to make her listen to me I need to be strong." She explained with a plain tone. There was no anger or irritation on her part. The girl simply told what is going to happen in future. But not now.
"... That's quite mature of you. Though… you left her with your future husband." The old angel said with a slight deadpan look. This was something he didn't quite approve of…
"I asked him if I can go! I didn't just leave him!" She quick explained herself to him.
"Fair enough. Though you do realise that he has quite the curiosity towards unique martial spirits and Bibi Dong is that example. As twin Martial Spirits she is simply a gold mine for Long'er."
This made Qian Renxue's eyes widen. She realised that Bibi Dong could make him join her in some sort of alliance against her!
'What if she tell him all sort of bad things about me!? Or some embarrassing stories!? No-no-no this is not good at all!'
Though Qian Renxue has misunderstood her grandfather… what he wanted to say is that Bibi Dong can become extremely powerful which could lead to a far longer period of training for his Granddaughter.
But what the blonde girl thought it would be some sort of scheme to make her life harder…
~~~~~~Martial Field of Imperial Academy~~~~~~
Without any sort of ceremony Bibi Dong collapsed on the dirty ground on her back. She has been trying to break through this mental barrier!
Xue Long didn't pay attention to the woman's looks. He was in his teacher mode which the Spider woman likes quite a bit.
She knows she will like it even more when he gets older by a few years. But that's for the future.
"The way you doing is wrong. You don't break them with force. You need to accept them. And make your peace with it." The Crown Prince said from the side as he observed her.
"...But… do I truly have to do it? Can't I overpower it?" She said that while biting her lower lip.
"No. To put it in layman's terms is what you doing is even out the ground. Not making craters in it. To even out you need to deal with those inner demons and those inner demons are the uneven surface."
Even though she heard that she didn't like this one bit… there are two major things which are getting in her way! It's Her biological daughter and the event which caused the birth of this said daughter.
"...I understand…but what about…traumatic events?"
*Sigh*
"This is the thing. Each action has a counter-reaction. Those traumatic events created the biggest obstacles in your life. You coped with them in your way. In my understanding is that you reached rank 99 faster than anyone else.
But, this…isn't what it means to face it. To face one's trauma is the greatest courage of all of them. It's not the Great Beasts of Star Dou Forest or Godlings which exist somewhere… it's one's trauma or one's inner fear.
I never had true traumatic events. However, I had fears before. Like fear of heights or losing myself to my power.
This is why… to fight my fear of heights I walked in high places. Few more steps each day and the fear to lose myself to my Martial Spirit? I fought against those urges every day. Until I got over them." As he talked about himself he walked over to her and crouched down since she was still laying on the ground.
His right-hand finger went to her forehead. Golden light glowed for a bit.
Bibi Dong who was listening to his words and processing them, felt warm and smooth energy entering her. Calming her stormy heart quite a bit.
"The hardest battles are against yourself, if you can face them and beat them then you are top class, Spirit Master."
"...How fast did you pass stage two?"
"...You want to know?"
"Yes. I need to know!" She asked that with quite a firm voice.
"I passed the first, second and third stage in a single night." He didn't lied he practised these Meditations way before coming to Spirit Land and when he tried to cultivate them here it was an immediate difference to it.
Her mouth opened wide when she heard it! This…
"I learned martial arts before practising these meditations."
"...even so…even so… you passed the second stage in single night…" Bibi Dong just realized…that there is a sky beyond another sky!
"The difference is that I was already conditioned for this and you are not."
"B-B-But… how did you accept that you going to die one day?" She asked him with a baffled look. One of the reasons why she wants to become a Goddess is to have the strength and ascend beyond concepts like death and be beyond the touch of fate.
"Hmm… I will tell you something like this. It has multiple meanings; 'only when you accept that you going to die only then you going to live forever'."
His words have confused the hell out of her.
"Well, you can decipher this at your leisure." After saying his bit he got up on his feet and walked back to his position and returned to his meditation.
Bibi Dong's eyes followed him. Once she saw him get back to his meditation, she started to think about what these words meant.
Honestly, with all her talent and capacities as Rank 99, she could not grasp these contradictory words!
'Unless, unless… it doesn't have direct meaning to it?'
She shook her head before deciding to face her traumatic events! Just like he said true courage is to face her demons, not Great Beasts…
Now that she thought about…
Her eyes went to the side and she saw another purple-haired woman. This was the Great Beast which could give her a good fight.
Yet… now this Dragoness doesn't look that dangerous now that she thinks about it.
~~~
Eventually… somehow… the Supreme Pontiff did it. To some degree, Xue Long thought that she is going to fail. The way he thought this way was because of her one-track mind. It's like if you hate, this means you will always going to hate.
This kind of mentality helped her to reach that Rank 99 in a record time. However, it doesn't make you flexible. So, it's quite surprising to see a golden aura surround her.
'This IS quite surprising. And she did it in just a few days. This means Xue'er is more stubborn than she is… or my shitty pep talk helped?'
"It appears your two, that you're for cultivation is coming to end. The Supreme Pontiff has finished stage two." The Crown Prince said that to the pair of Titled Douluos who were greedily cultivating in Martial Field.
**Sigh**
"I thought we will stay longer. I almost had a breakthrough." Yue Guan, the Chrysanthemum Douluo said with a sigh.
"I don't mind." Bibi Dong said that, as she heard what he said. The purple-haired woman slowly opened her eyes as there was a small smile on her lips.
She slowly stood up and then walked over to the trio.
"I still want to learn the other two meditations." She said that with some confidence. Now that she 'defeated' her inner demons she was at peace. Well, not true peace. But, much better than she was ever before.
"Well, that could take time. I don't think you can be away for that long from your duties?" Xue Long asked with a frown.
"Oh, you should not worry about that. I have people who can take care of those things for me." The spider woman slowly waved her hand in not caring fashion. She can take a few more days off. After all, she has been working hard day and night for Spirit Hall. She can relax from time to time.
"You two breakthrough to Rank 96. Until then I will be studying under Prince Xue Long." Once more her words have double to triple meaning. Her bodyguards thought that she wants those techniques. She does but the true meaning is to get close and to learn more. She didn't think that he could help her get past her true traumas. He didn't even ask about them. He simply helped her to get over it.
This is why she now likes him even more!
That man could only give 'obvious' advice but that was when she was naive and couldn't grasp things herself. She felt for his guiding persona. Now, however, she is getting real guidance!
""Understood.""
Once the pair nodded. Bibi Dong looked at Xue Long. There was a certain glint in her eyes.
"Well, I suppose, we could start with Arthan's Meditation." The Crown Prince said with a sigh. He could feel how her Yandere tendencies are growing stronger…
"That would be wonderful…"
"Maybe teach some basics on martial arts?"
"I don't mind. I accept anything you want me to teach~"
For a second the Prince realised how suggestive that sounded. Though… she wasn't thinking in that direction…
No, she has a thing for being a student who wants her Teacher to teach. No wonder she didn't see through Qian Xunji. The woman becomes blind when it comes to her teachers…
~~~~~~Later~~~~~~
A few more days passed and Xue Long was able to teach her the Basics for Arthan's meditation but not the Heaven and Earth.
Though reaction of the Spider Woman was still happy even if she didn't learn the last meditation method. This means she can return to him and continue her training…
But, the time was ticking and her two bodyguards finally broke through to Rank 96! One could say they got the most out of this trip!
"I am extremely thankful for all you did for me. Know that Supreme Pontiff and Spirit Hall are behind you. If you need help or help from any of the elders we are more than happy to assist." Bibi Dong said that with a small smile on her lips.
After learning all that. She now is feeling quite a bit of a need to repay him.
"Yes. As Supreme Pontiff has said, my prince, if you need a bodyguard then I am more than willing to be one." Ghost Douluo said that with a cheeky tone.
Both, The purple-haired woman and the Chrysanthemum Douluo looked at him with an eye roll.
"Old Ghost…"
"What? It's one in a lifetime opportunity to learn from the best! Even our Supreme Pontiff came here to learn from him!" The Ghost Douluo said that with crossed arms.
*Sigh*
"Forget this. I will consider this if Prince Xue Long wants." Bibi Dong said that while massaging her forehead. Even HER bodyguards want to abandon her. Well, she can let this slide since it's Xue Long which they want to serve…
"I don't mind. Though I would like to invite Supreme Pontiff to the event I will be organising. A tournament for all of the main academies of Heavenly Dou Empire."
"Oh? Are you planning to show off your hard work?" She asked him with a sly smile. The has some sense of how the mind of this Prince work.
"Indeed. I want to centralise. With my academy being at the forefront."
"...Very well. I will be there. I expect a good show." She said with a smile before leaving the pair of her bodyguards. They were fast but Xue Long could see them move.
It appears they decided not to use the carriage… because one way or another, they were still under a schedule and they were way behind it because they stayed far too long at his place.
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