5 Chapter 5: Lost Everything

I heard desperate screams from outside the train car.

I'm scared, very scared. Even though I have died once, I am still afraid to die.

This is so sad, I who want to live with pride Instead of fear of death.

I am very weak, very very weak. I can't even walk properly.

I want to help, I want to fight, I want to fight. But I can't, even now I'm just a burden to be protected by my parents.

Although I can't do anything about it. What to do? What can a baby like me do in a fight? I'm just a burden to protect.

In my heart, I could only vow to become stronger and take care of the people who are precious to me.

I have to be strong, no matter what I have to do, no matter how difficult the obstacles are. I will go through all that and become strong, I must be able to protect the people who are precious to me.

It has to be, this is my new family. Things I didn't have in the previous world, things I always wanted. There's no way I'd let it just disappear.

This is my resolve, to be strong and protect my family.

But right now the most important thing is the situation outside, right now my mother is fighting the spirit beasts with the bodyguard team.

My mother's cultivation level was only level 27, far behind the escort team which was at least level 30. But she still fought, that was her bravery.

"Don't worry, your mother is a strong person. She must be fine, she can definitely protect us."

It might be embarrassing if a boy is protected by a girl but there's nothing my father can do.

My father's martial spirit is not for fighting.

Even if he really was determined to become strong, even if it was paper it could still be used in battle.

One thing I understood from my previous world is, anything around you can become a weapon. Depends on how you use it.

Even if it's paper, if we stack it it can become a shield. If you look at the edge of the paper, it can also be sharp, enough to scratch human skin.

Even if it was just paper, it could definitely still be useful in battle if properly trained.

I can't turn on my father because it doesn't increase power. This was not his fault as he was also born from the countryside and paper martial spirits were simply looked upon as trivial and useless.

Maybe that's why my father didn't choose to become a spirit master and chose to become a merchant despite having a bit of spirit power.

My father was just an ordinary person who didn't know how to fight, nor did he definitely know that anything around him could become a weapon.

No matter what my martial spirit will be like, I will definitely use it to get stronger.

As I was deep in my thoughts, suddenly someone shouted loudly.

"No?! Why are there silver fangs wolves here too!!!!"

"There's no way that herd leader is 10,000 years old!!! There's no way we can beat him!!!"

A 10,000 year old spirit beast, it is impossible to defeat with just a few spirit elders.

To deal with a 10,000 year old spirit beast, at least a spirit emperor is needed.

I was really afraid, everyone would be killed if the spirit beasts attacked.

No! I don't want to lose my family. We must escape.

I grabbed my dad by the collar and pointed out the carriage.

"That's right! I have to go to Ning'er, it's already impossible to fight a 10,000 year old silver fangs wolf let alone a herd. We have to escape."

Kai'er, you stay here and don't move, ok? I'm going out to call Ning'er."

Then my dad covered me with a blanket so I wouldn't be seen and went outside to call mom.

"Ning'er! Ning'er! Where are you!"

From inside the train, I heard my father's screams trying to call my mother.

But there was no answer... Only the screams of despair from random people.

I'm scared, I don't want to lose my family... But why doesn't my mom answer my dad's calls? Is he hurt? Is he...

No! No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no!!!!!!!!

Don't leave me alone, I want to live, with my family.

But, as if dashing my hopes, I heard a sorrowful cry from my father....

"No!!! Ning'er, hang on! Hang on, I'll save you!!! So please hold on!!!"

But my mother remained silent, there was no answer and instead I heard my father screaming and crying very loudly.

Just from the sound, I could guess what was going on outside.

Ah... why? Why should I lose my family. This is the family I really want, a loving family.

It's not fair, why should I lose everything?

All I could do was cry silently, maybe I just lost my mom. And maybe my dad will too...

All sorts of voices started to sound clear, they must have reflected various emotions of crying, sorrow, despair.

But I ignored it, like it wasn't there, like I didn't hear it.

More precisely I deliberately ignored and pretended not to hear. Because I wish this was a dream, this was an illusion, this wasn't real.

Correct! Now I'm just having a bad dream, that's all. When I wake up later I will surely see my family safe and sound. I will love them more, therefore. God please grant my request. It's all just a dream...

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Moments later, as I was trying to escape reality. All the screaming and crying disappeared.

As if it had never existed, now all that could be heard was the howls of animals, or rather wolves.

W-am I going to wake up from this dream soon? Is this dream over?

But all hope was dashed after I waited a while and I didn't wake up either.