A Real Man

I should have known! I should have been aware! I should have been more on edge! I should have been on the edge the whole time!!

When! Exactly when did I start to suspect that this world wasn't for me?! When did I become aware that in this world, I was born for the sake of ordeals?! When did I start to understand that in this world?! I am just among many others born never to be happy?!

I... I am tired!!!

Happiness was within reach of me! I had just gotten my hands on it! I believed that just like the rest of them, I too could end up happy!

Was it wrong of me to dream of a world where I will be filled with happiness?! A world where I am nothing but surrounded by people who care for me?! Is that so wrong to want?!...