A better person.

It was around 6 am when I was woken up by the noise made by our neighbor's dog. I wanted to sleep more as always but I had things to do.

I got out of bed to freshen up a bit and started doing my daily workout routine. After a while I took a break and lost in thoughts again. This daily workout routine was one of those several "little things" I started doing for "him". He always seemed "perfect" to me. Everything about him was perfect. His smile, his eyes, his voice.. the way he speaks, the way he cares about me.. and also his childish behavior at times. Every one of it was precious to me.

But I was not. And I was always worried that I might not be enough for him so I wanted to do all that I can to become a well, perfection is kinda impossible so I at least wanted to become a better person for him. He was never a distraction, he was my motivation in life. And I can confidently say that I have become a better person than the old me from 4 years ago.

"Ah. Again about him.. why do I always end up thinking about you!?", I hated myself.

"Okay let's do this!", I said myself and got ready to go out.

As I was heading out Mom asked,"so did you prepare everything for tomorrow?"

"Yeah mom. Just need to do a few more things and I might leave today itself"

"What? But you were going to leave tomorrow weren't you?"

"Yeah I know I said that but I got ready earlier than I thought I guess"

"Alright it's your call. Just remember not to go hard on yourself"

"Yes Mom I will!", I smiled and gave her a hug.

She pressed her lips on my forehead, looked me in the eye and said,"When did you grow up this much? You have a job already! You were my little girl!"

"Haha I am mom! Your little girl forever!"

"What's going on between mother and daughter?", Dad asked as he came in.

"Nothing much. We're just having our moment!", Mom replied

"And she's leaving today.", She added.

"What? That's so soon.",Dad said in a worried tone.

"Yeah.. just felt like leaving today. I'm ready Dad."

"Alright honey. Just let me know when I should drop you off."

"Okay Dad!"

Finally I got out. First I went to a mobile accessories shop and bought a new SIM card.

And then I went to the parlour.

"Welcome mam how can we help you?",asked the hairdresser.

"umm I want a haircut", I said with a bright smile.

It was around 3 PM when I reached home after I finished my shopping. When I entered mom and dad were at the living room and the both were like, "What have you done?" When they saw me.

"I just needed a change."

"Dad I have booked the train ticket. I'll get ready in 30 and then you can drop me off.", I said and went to my room without waiting for reply.

Maybe they sensed that I was going through a phase so they didn't bother me much.

It took me 15 minutes to get ready. I took out my mobile and turned it on. "51 missed calls and 337 unread messages from 10 chats",it displayed. I deleted my WhattsApp account and all the contacts except three of my close friends' and my family's. I changed the old SIM card with the new one I had bought.

I stood in front of mirror and looked at my chin length Bob hairstyle which used to be a mid back length hairstyle.

"That's better now."

I took a picture of myself and posted it on my Funstagram captioned,"Adios!"

And then I logged out of that account.

"Shawn liked my hair long.", I took a deep breath.