First boyfriend part three.

He's might be cute and look mature but sometimes, he's very childish and jealous of my instructor. we kissed a lot and its also make Ada jealous of him.

(well, she has to lot of boyfriend but not satisfied)

Not long after 3 months of dating, James went without any story and he's not on school either and when I asked his brother, he said " mommy took him away. don't worry sister, he's would be back "

Then I asked Ada how she can have 20 boyfriends at the same time and still can move on if her boyfriend left. When I thinking about it back now, I'm regretting it.

She said that it's easier to forget if u have a new boyfriend. So, I met some people, and then I met one senior. Two years older. He's chatting with me and we exchange pictures.

Then he said would go to school for a graduation certificate and see me. I brought Ada and her new boyfriend Rizal. Rizal seems nice but also fucking boy. They made love on the stairs of school. Then, that senior came. Damn it, he's more than 200 cm ( might be 230? )

and me at that time around 144 cm.

Ada said that when I was standing with him? I was on under his stomach. " haha like father and daughter. u look super small!" Ada said.

He's such a jerk..he kisses me and forced me to make love. "damn it".

It's feeling so disgusting and more worst? Ada just watches him trying to rape me. That's not what I want. I want a new boyfriend, not a giant and scary boyfriend.

I kept refusing him and then he got mad or excited?

he slapped my face, lift me. to the wall, and kiss me hard and then he ...

He shows me his giant bird or more like a very big snake. it was long and thick like my thigh.

I screaming for help, he slapped me and choke my neck and then lick my face. It's so disgusting that it still makes me wanna vomit until now.

Then, someone came. That was one of the security guards at school. He's saving me and then that guy just throws me away and run. That Ada? fuck her. she's very enjoying it that she's said:" so big that I go to a hotel with Rizal after that".

Since then, never trust any suggestion. Even Clifford ( older one year ) or any handsome senior. I may be friendly but not for Love.

I don't meet people but only using Moko ( old apps ) to interact with people. It teaches me a lot about the personality of online people. I met Aril in that app and dating him. But he also two times me and Wing ( a sister ). that jerk.. no feeling anymore after that.

Only with James (not yet,), I felt excitement. others? just no feeling. Or might be I'm just asexual after that?

Or I'm just abnormal?