15| silent

Melinoe

"You hurt me once, & you've hurt me twice. But I'm not upset," -Jahmiel, Kiss my love goodbye.

***

I felt like I was hallucinating. My heart was beating out my chest and I wondered if he could hear it.  I stared into those piercing blue eyes and I instantly knew I was under a spell.

I couldn't look away. But even If I could, I don't think I'd ever take that chance. I wanted to stay like this forever but I knew I had to build up the courage. I wasn't sure if what I was doing was right and maybe it's because I wasn't thinking, maybe it was out of spite? maybe It was because I didn't care at this moment, maybe it's because I just wanted to feel something, but whatever it was, two words were begging to be said out loud.

"Kiss me," I whispered and I almost regretted it but then I realized that I wasn't the only one who had said it. Damon said it too. He too seemed taken back by my words and he searched for something in my eyes. "Are you sure?" He whispered and I nodded which caused him to groan. "I need you to say it,"

"I'm sure Damon," And just a second later his lips crashed into mine like he had been waiting for me to say it since forever. My heart was still beating out of my chest and I couldn't believe what I was doing.

I was doing it again.

Once again, I was doing it.

His lips were soft and he explored my mouth. My hand moved from his jawline to his soft hair. I used this as support to deepen the kiss and kissed him like my heart depended on it. The kiss turned into something that was slow, to something that was hungrier and I bit his bottom lip causing him to groan as his grip on my waist tightened.

He broke the kiss and began kissing my sweet spot. My heart beat then calmed down.

He gripped the back of neck tighter and he hooked one of my legs on his waist and I immediately hooked the other over. His large hands cupped my ass and I let out a soft moan when his hands squeezed my ass. We began moving inside the hotel with my  arms resting on his neck for support as he continued to nibble on my neck.

I hissed in pleasure when he began sucking on my sweet spot and I felt my skin in between his teeth and I knew that it would leave a mark. His lips traveled to my jawline and all the way back to my lips. His lips were on mine once again as he asked for permission to which I gave. Our tongues were exploring each other and I felt his bare hands playing with the hem of my top before he took it off completely.

I then locked my legs tighter around his waist and pulled him closer. I lifted the black t- shirt and caressed his torso. I then used my knees to feel his area which was hard to the core. He groaned as he tried pulling me away but I grabbed him by the shirt and hungrily kissed him. I was about to unzip his jeans but then he paused.

He broke off the kiss and his blue eyes were boring into mine. His pink plumped lips were swollen and I'm sure mine were the same. "I think it's better if I leave,"

My heart dropped at his words. "W-what?" I hated myself for stuttering but right now I was baffled. "Are you bring serious?" He never answered but just zipped his jeans and fixed his t- shirt.

"D-"

"This shouldn't have happened." I swallowed as I watched him. I didn't know why it hurt so much but it did. It hurt. I shouldn't have been this naive to actually think they Damon Garcia would- would what actually? I didn't even know. Realization hit me when I remembered this was my future brother in law. The kiss meant nothing, the words meant nothing, our last meant nothing. "You're right, this was a mistake. And it meant nothing."

But I still didn't know why it hurt so much.

Why did I suddenly feel like the past was crawling in once more? Why?

Why was there something that I felt like I had forgotten?

***

[Flashback; Melinoe & Damon]

"One more, just one more dr- " she gasped as she realized she had spilt wine on Damon's shirt. "Oh shoot," her mouth was in a shape of an 'O'

"Damon look what I did," her eyes widen. "Its okay Eli,"

"You know I adore that nickname right? But I'd never admit that if I was sober. But anyways, take off this dirty sweat shirt," she said helping him take off the white shirt. With every move, her eyes never missed on how his muscles flexed. She then caught a tattoo the was on his wrist.  She read the person's name out loud. 'AMELIA' the tattoo read.

Melinoe decided not to question it at that moment but took the shirt that was in Damon's hands. "Okay I'm going to keep this in the washing basket and by tomorrow, after this hungover it'll be- oomph-"

"Sorry," she giggled as she realized she had bumped into him. And then she did one thing that both of them least expected. She kissed him and he responded back. The kiss they shared was unexpectedly a soft and a very slow one. For someone who was tipsy that is what was least expected.

"I've always wanted to do that," she smiled and pecked his lips once again.

***

I jolted back up from my bed and I was breathing heavily.

Something didn't feel right.

Something just felt like that dream wasn't just a dream.

Because I remembered getting drunk and it was a day before new years eve.  I had spilt that drink on him. But I everything else was fuzzy.

But then I remembered... this wasn't a dream. This was a memory

And after a few minutes of putting the pieces together... everything else made sense.

And it was right in front of me all this time.