Loneliness

Its already passed, time already passed there is no single day when I don't miss you, I remember you each and every day how easily you left me and went to another world leaving me in this difficult situation to survive, You were my breath and it already lost when I heard the news of your death, There is always a hope that a sound will come from back of your calling me i am dying to hear your voice but my ears became deprived listening to your voice which I know i can never hear from you, From day one I started getting involved with you in my imaginary world, laughing like an insane girl, arguing with you as if you are in real it feels me like you are here right here but for others I am mad lady whose lost and need a concern but I don't I am strong there is nothing left to make me feel insecure or broken because I left those things at that time only. I am lost lost in my imagination. There are a lot things still to tell and share with you but you are not with me so I talk with you in your pictures, spend time with you everyday so that you don't blame me that I am not giving you time when you always used to complain me, look dear I took out the time for you. My heart belongs to you and that place is only only for you, no other person can full fill that place, only memory which keeps me alive is your pictures our memories nothing else. I lost myself in that day when you left me and still finding myself but it's hard to find, it feels like I am present physically but lost and died a lot years back only when you left me. Never thought that first love can be so hard to survive. I have my supporters who all support me encourage me to fit in this world but for me it seems impossible as you gone, my parents, your parents keep encouraging me to find someone with whom I can start a new life but my interest is gone I am not who i was before, life seems tasteless, worthless and charmless without you, I have no one to share my thoughts, Our untold story lies between us, I wish if I could be with you at that time when you were taking your last breath, if I can come with you to your world but life was not expecting us together, life planned something else and with this bitter truth I have live. My broken heart cannot be heal with any person entry.