1 [Chapter 1] Closed eyes

Everyday and every night I think about my life. Am i wasting my life away? i feel like a snail that has been trapped on a dinner plate waiting to be eaten by somebody. Dont have the strength to fight for him self. In the day time I dont think about stressful mundane problems but when I try to go to bed. I get these restless thought and regrets. Where can I find peace and salvation? is there any crack in reality that I can pass through to find new place that I can live in . All alone in tranquility. Away from the hustle and bustle, Sometimes I'll close my eyes and imagine my mind being dragged somewhere else. As I think about many things I can see the sun rising. This means another day full of maneuver will begin. As I got up I realized I didnt get enough sleep. But I had to get ready for the day ahead of me . Someone anyone please give me strength to endure this obstacle in life.