day five : Jaycee's favorite diner

I took him out to dinner. Of course I asked his mom's permission but she was so glad she almost pushed us out of the house. 

"Go, just call me if something comes up." She gave us each a peck on the cheek and waved us out. 

 What happened earlier was no longer discussed. I kissed him. Not because I learned the truth, it's because I wanted to. Time is my enemy here. Until when can I spend time with Ivan? How long do I have..

I held his hand, not caring who's looking. Maybe if I held his hand and henot let go, he would not slip away from my grasp. Maybe his cancer would not spread. Maybe he'd still live . I smile at him despite my heart breaking everytime I remember the reason behind the pale skin and fragile body. But I don't want to show him the pain, I want him to feel happy. That's the least I could do for him.

"I'm hungry, I want ramen." I pulled him to a Japanese restaurant I frequent. 

"The music is weird." Ivan laughed the moment we sat down. 

I was glad I saw him smile, a real smile without hiding anything. I clutched my chest, I want to keep this moment. I pulled out my phone and snapped a photo of his smiling face, and tears just streamed out of my eyes. I told myself I didn't want him to see but I can't, I just cant. 

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." I mumbled.

He stared at me, his eyes full of concern. He reached out to me and placed a hand on my cheek "please don't cry. What I want to remember are my happy memories before I die."

He sat beside me and gave me a hug. He kissed the top of my head. The sweet scent of cinnamon I first noticed about him filled my nose. I buried my face in his neck, taking in all his scent so I won't forget.

"That's how I want you to remember me too." He continued. " Let's make happy memories." 

"Y-yeah, we will."

The food arrived and I savored the smell of my favorite ramen. I watched Ivan as he happily snapped the chopsticks in two and dived in.

"Itadakimasu" he happily cheered. 

I let out a chuckle and followed after him.

After dinner, we walked to the park hand in hand. I really feel that if I only have a few moments to be with Ivan, I might as well live everyday by the minute, not thinking of what would happen next, that all I would think of is the now. No laters. 

We sat at a bench where the moon and the stars can be seen lighting up the sky. Ivan rested his head on my shoulders. 

"I'm tired" he whispered.

I kissed his forehead. "Wanna go home?"

He sat up straight and stood up, pulling my hand. "Yeah."

We walked back to the car silently. I kept on giving Ivan side glances just to be sure he's ok. Like usual, he's pale even when he blush, he'd still look white. But I was glad I could see a smile spread on his face. 

When we get to his house, we sat at the car thinking of what we'd do tomorrow. 

"It's date six, any place you want to go to?" I asked him.

"Enchanted kingdom." He smiled and I raised a brow at him. "I haven't been there so I want to. " He pouted. 

I kissed him swiftly because I couldn't resist that pout. "Okay, we'll go, I'll pick you up tomorrow at 9." I gave Ivan a goodnight kiss before he got out of the car. I watched his back as he entered the house.