No lies, no love

Wednesday 27th April

Ever since he touched Sumire during their trip, many things have changed between them. For one the girl is more comfortable with public displays of affection.

'How can I win her love?' While he is satisfied with their current situation. He couldn't help but think, how would it feel touching her if she was in love with him? It would be different wouldn't it?

Toh turned around to see Sumire standing in the doorway, half asleep with only his shirt on. Her gorgeous long legs still exposed.

"Morning beautiful."

Sumire nodded and sat down on the chair, as he placed some dishes down.

Toh kissed her.

"Toh, mmm. Good morning."

It was supposed to be a simple kiss. But, taking one look at her wearing his shirt did something to him. He grunted. "Stick your tongue out more."

"Mmmm...the food--" Sumire protested.

"I'll heat up if it gets cold."

He just wants to kiss her right now. Toh changes their positions. Now he was sitting down with Sumire on his lap.

Toh brought his lips to her ear and gently bit it. "You really are a distraction."

Sumire looked at him horrified and Toh laughed. "I never thought I'd be seduced by beauty."

"So, do you only like me because of my appearance?"

"I like you because your cute, silly and a cheerful person."

"Wait, what do you mean by silly?" Sumire exclaimed.

Toh rolled his eyes and kissed her again. "Your talking a lot today." He nibbled on her lips.

"Mmmn. Your avoiding my question--"

Toh lifted her shirt slightly and ran his hands on her soft skin. "Toh." Sumire moaned. "Your hands-"

"This is all I'll do, so relax."

When he felt her body relax, Toh continued. Only to hear the sound of something ringing in the background.

"Ah, that's my phone-" Sumire reached over to pick it up."Hello Ru?"

Hearing it was only Tsueno, Toh carried on his advances. They spoke about this before. She has a certain image to maintain in front of her subordinates, and Aki. So, if it's any of those who calls. He has to stop touching her.

Such strict rules, and while he knew the girl didn't truly care to maintain appearances. Right now she cannot afford to lose her standing in the underworld. It's probably for the best. Sumire has far too many enemies. If they find a single weak spot, they won't hesitate to exploit it.

While he will protect her with his life. Toh knew that realistically he couldn't always be with her. She needs her weapons to defend herself. He won't destroy everything she has worked hard for and built for herself, even if he still believes that the underworld isn't good for her.

He was in such deep thought, he lost track of what he was doing to Sumire. It was only when he realized Sumire stopped her call, and was squirming in his arms and stammering.

"Toh--le--let me go." Sumire stammered.

"Too much?" Toh asked.

Sumire shyly nodded and he chuckled as he gently kissed her. "That was good, thank you-" He paused. "Your heart beat is very loud."

"Maybe you shouldn't listen?"

"A bit difficult not too when your so close to me beautiful." Toh said casually. But, his thoughts drifted to that warning Arata gave him. He said he would find out. However, a lot has happened recently and he hasn't had the chance.

Moreover nothing has happened since that time. So, perhaps he has been too relaxed.

"Then I'll-" Sumire started.

He brushed his forehead against hers. Toh immediately "Do you have a fever?"

"A little."

Toh frowned and picked her up. He brought her to the couch, and placed a blanket on her lap as he adjusted the headrest so she could lean back.

"I'll bring a tray over."

Sumire nodded and he quickly went over to the kitchen, and started placing some dishes onto the tray. He walked back over and placed the tray on her lap, careful not to spill anything onto her clothes before sitting beside her.

"Toh, I liked the previous position." Sumire pouted.

Toh's lips curve to a smile. "If I have you on my lap again, I'll be very tempted to be inappropriate."

Actually just seeing her in his clothes, makes him hard.

"I think you'd do that anyway." Sumire sighed as she started eating.

"You're getting better at kissing." Toh commented.

"Well when you're kissed everyday, of course you'd get better."

"Didn't he kiss you often?"

He didn't really want to bring up that jerk again. But, this is part of her healing.

"He did, I suppose, when we could meet. But as you know with our age difference we had to hide our relationship. If I went to his place too often, somebody would be bound to notice." Sumire paused. "-in the alleyways, when he would pick me up from school. Occasionally, we would kiss there."

At those words he frowned. 'Wasn't it bad enough that he cheated on her? The very least that jerk could have done was romanced her properly.'

"Physically, how far did it actually go?" Toh knew they already spoke about this during the trip. But her traumatic experiences aside, she didn't specifically explain what they did.

"We did a lot of kissing, I suppose we saw each other naked too."

Toh frowned at the second part. So Nagawa saw her like that, and yet held back? The only thing that's stopping him from completely destroying that man is that.

He held back.

He didn't have to, but he did.

This is also the reason why when they returned from their trip why he didn't march up to the hospital and destroy Nagawa.

"When are you going to school?"

"After lunch since I'm only taking makeup exams."

"Then, this morning?"

"I stay here with you?"

His lips curved to a smile. "Good decision."

"Toh, when can we go on our next date?" Sumire suddenly asked.

Toh looked up. An apologetic expression appeared on his face. "I'm sorry. I hope you don't think our relationship is solely physical now."

"I don't think--" Sumire paused. "Maybe it did cross my mind."

"You should have told me." He proceeded to get off from her but Sumire tugged on his arm.

"I do, want this."

'As a distraction?' Toh almost said but kept those thoughts to himself. He still sees how she reacts whenever she sees Terashima on TV. How her gaze linger on the CDs and posters all over town.

His gaze dimmed recalling how she cried when he found her during their trip. In the end, he never asked her why she cried and she hasn't tried to approach the topic either.

'I should have known what I was getting myself into when I fell in love with a woman, who has somebody else in her heart.'

From the moment they met, Sumire made it clear that she was in love with someone else. This was the key reason why he insisted that he only found her interesting. Even when he became attached to her, he insisted that it wouldn't go any further.

How wrong he was. He fell so deeply in love with her, that his conviction seemed like a joke.

"Toh?" Sumire said worriedly.

"Let's stop."

Sumire looked disappointed and Toh laid down next to her and pulled her into his arms. "When I touch you, what do you feel?"

"Loved, wanted..and desire?"

His lips curve to a smile. "I like that order."

He's relieved that she feels love first. Relieved that she can sense his feelings, even if he can't have her heart. At the very least, he wants her to know that he is serious about her.

"Toh, thank you so much."

"For?"

"Everything." Sumire mumbled. "I really am glad I met you."

"So am I beautiful."

"Can we..kiss again?" Sumire suddenly asked.

Toh paused and looked at her.

Face flushed red.

Gorgeous.

"This is what you want?" Toh repeated to make sure.

"Yes."

There is no lies in those words. Sumire genuinely wants him to kiss her, and yet there is no love there.

Before he could press his lips on hers, the girls phone rings again. This time the name on the screen read Aki. Sumire exhaled deeply as she murmured an apology, and left his hold.

"I'm going to school today, so you better not give me work."

Toh ran his hands through his hair as he watched her, making sure she didn't get worked up. Sumire always ends up in a bad mood after speaking with Aki. It's not good for her- his thoughts break off when he sees his phone screen light up. Seeing the one message beside Lucifer's name. He exhaled deeply, so much for relaxing with her this morning.

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