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Business office.

She was sitting there, listening to what the director was saying. Her heartbeats accelerated whenever she heard the word 'end', it was one among the worst words in her vocabulary, it was what she didn't want to accept. The room was so steamy for her and the AC was not helping. The director, on the other hand was as helpless as always, repeating the same words he always told her in their countless meetings

"I always tell you this and I'm going to say it again, postpone your studies until you find a way to pay your debt, there is nothing we can do for you now", it sounded normal to him but to Fania it sounded like he was sick and tired of her already, and she understood why

"I know my face is the last thing you want to see in this school, I obviously know, but the last time I spoke to you, you promised to do something if I get good grades, luckily I got excellent grades, 3.9 GPA aint a joke", she said, trying to defend herself

"You're not the only one who got excellent grades last semester",

"But I'm the only one who didn't receive the academic award! This is so surprising, sir, especially when the business office knows how I'm struggling financially, I just wonder why you skipped me",

"It's not that we skipped you, even if we gave you the award nothing would've changed, the award is $2000 and your debt is $31000, it's just like adding a drop in the ocean, pointless!",

"Pointless to you! To me little things matter, you don't know how that $2000 would've made me and my family feel",

"I know about your family and how your mother is struggling, but it's impossible for you to continue studying here while you have a lot of debt accumulated, go home, find a cheaper college and go there, that is my advice t_",

"Thank you for your time", she had to stop him there. She picked up her bag and quickly left the room. She didn't want to stay and listen to anymore painful advices from him. She had to protect the tiny peace she had left in her.

She took out her phone to check the time, luckily, she had 10 minutes to class. Below the time, she saw a text from her mother saying, 'Call me when you're free', and just like that she knew something was up, and that weakened the tiny peace she had. She put her phone back in the bag and hurried to class.


She couldn't help but wonder why she was still in class, learning, while she was supposed to leave anyway. Her seat being the second row from the back she had a chance to look at everyone in the room. Everyone looked stress-free, like they had all the luxuries she lacked in life. She was so lost in her own world of stress that she couldn't hear the professor calling her twice, it was the third time that she heard her, and that was because everyone was now staring at her

"Are you alright, Fania?", asked the professor, concerned by the way she was silent and blank, she was always the active type

"No", she gave an honest answer, her face coated by a weak smile, what was the point of hiding what was already crystal clear

"I noticed, you're excused, go get some rest",

"No, it's okay, I want to be here_",

"Alright then",

The professor went back to teaching, and almost everyone turned their heads front, but she still felt eyes all over her. Taking a look at who was staring at her, it was two men and her roommate, Borah. She didn't mind the other guys talking about her, it was her roommate. She wanted to know what they were talking about and why they were looking at her as if she did something embarrassing, and why Borah, who was like a friend to her suddenly became her anti.




It was just her in the room, Borah was not back yet.

She hanged her bag on the chair and threw herself on the bed, the best place in the whole school. She had to take a deep breath and exhale all the things she went through that day. Nothing was going on her way, and whenever she felt like that, she remembered her parents and couldn't help but realize they're going through a tougher time than her. A thought of them made her remember the text her mother sent her earlier, she took out her phone and dialed her number

"Fany?", said her mother as soon as she picked up the phone

"Wow, it's like you were waiting for me to call, what's up mom?",

"Uh-are you okay? Are you somewhere private?",

"Yeah, I'm alone in my room, what's going on? Is dad okay? Are you okay?",

"Yeah, we are, your dad is actually here with me right now, we want to talk to you about something",

"Oh, okay, hi dad",

"Hi honey", replied the dad followed by silence

"So, what do you want to talk to me about?",

"Fany, this is so hard for us to say, but we have been thinking about it for weeks now, we know it won't be easy for you-we haven't slept for days just -just thinking about it", her mom said, sounding worried and embarrassed but trying so hard to say it

"Just say it mom, I had a stressful day, I don't mind one more",

"So-um-there is this program which our church introduced a month ago, it provides maximum assistance to families and a person who is-who is-um-pregnant, they fix the house or even place them in new shelters if the condition of their current house is terrible, and if-and if the pregnant lady is still young, they pay for her education maximum 3 years, 4 if her academic performance is great",

There was a total silence after her mother's explanations. Fania said nothing.

Her mother's hands were trembling, and her eyes were teary as she stared at her husband, she could imagine how hard it was for their daughter to hear such news, especially from them. It pained her as a woman and as a mother to put her daughter into that situation, she hated herself but that was the only way

"Honey, are you-still there?", asked the father since his wife couldn't say any other word due to the shame,

"I am dad, so-what you're saying is I have to get pregnant, right?",

"You can say no, we totally understand, no pressure, it was just an_",

"I will do it!",

Although they were hoping she agrees they were still shocked by the way she agreed fast. This time it was them who were silent, they were so surprised that no right words came out of their mouths

"I know you're shocked, but until you decided to tell me about this it means you trust this service and the outcomes, and I trust you more, I will do it, I will be back home in 3 weeks and I'll talk to one of the people who provide that service to know more, don't worry",

"Honey, we know it's hard for you_",

"But even more harder for you, I promised you that I will study hard and change our lives, but seems like God has other plans, I will do anything to put my family in a great shape, okay?",

"Fania, are you_",

"I am__", she heard Borah talking to people in the hallway, she had to hang up and rub the tears she had before she got in the room and know what she was going through, "Mom, dad, I need to go, I will call you soon, you have to sleep okay, and don't worry, everything will be fine",

"We love you so much honey",

"I love you too, take care", she hung up, put the phone aside, rubbed her tears and sat up straight.

Borah slowly opened the door, as if she was sneaking inside, but when she saw Fania sitting on the bed with her body facing the door, she knew she was in for a trap talk, something Fania was very good at.

She slowly closed the door behind her, she could not wait to be asked, she decided to start explaining everything on her own

"It was me, I made them talk shit about you, almost every person who knows Dom knows about what 'You' did", said Borah while standing a good distance from Fany

"What did you do Borah?",

"I-I used your phone to send Dom a text to see if what people say is true, I heard his friends say he got his eyes on you so, I pretended to be you and confessed my feelings for him",


"I like Dom, okay? And-and I was jealous when everyone kept saying he likes you, I just wanted to see if it's tru_",

"STOP BITCH! When did we start crossing each other's boundaries? Why didn't you tell me? DO YOU WANT TO FREAKING KILL ME WITH ALL THIS STRESS!?", shouted Fany as angry as she felt that Borah started getting scared, she had never seen her so mad like the way she was at that moment, it was like seeing another version of Fany

"Yoo-calm down Fania, let me explain, I didn't want to do this, and I seriously didn't want you to find out_",


"Heeey! Girl-He likes you too, okay! He has feelings for you too, what is all this stuff you bring out now, is all that my fault?",

"Likes me 'too'? Who said I liked him first? Look Borah, you better stop this nonsense and tell him and his group the truth, I don't have time for this, okay! And NEVER touch my phone or any of my things",

"I'm sorry dude, I was just jealous",

"Stop, I don't wanna hear it, now I have to think of a new password, do you know how hard it is?",

"I'm sorry",

"Shit, ZIP IT!",

She angrily took her phone and stormed out of the room. Borah who pinned herself in the corner of the room felt a cold breeze running across her face, she was relieved that no one was hit

"What was that? Is she okay? Gooosh!",


She was just walking, planning to go around the campus until her head felt calm again. She hated shouting at her roommate but at the same time she felt as if something was off her chest.

Dom, who was having dinner with his friends saw Fania walk past the café, no one else on the table saw her, so it was a safe excuse

"I'm going out for a sec", he said as he stood up

"What's up?", asked Chichi, one of the two girls in the group of 5

"Nothing, won't take long",


He got out and checked the direction where Fania headed, she was already a block away, Dom had to run in order to catch up with her speed.

"Fania!", he called as he rushed to her

Fania turned to look back and seeing Dom was not in her guesses, but also, he was someone she wanted to speak to, so, she waited for him to get there.

Her neutral facial expression was not something he was expecting, that kinda lowered his confidence a bit

"Where are you going?", he asked, smiling

"Why were you and your friends staring at me in class and whispering to each other?", she failed to give him a honeymoon moment

And it was not the question he was expecting either

"(blank) Huh!",

"Look, I didn't send you that text, okay",

"Hey, I know it's embarrassing for a girl to confess her feeling first, but it was fortunate, it turned out I like you too, no need to be embarrassed",

"Do you get what I'm saying? I didn't send the texts, so it means I don't like you, I hope this stops",

"Stop being so full of yourself, no wonder you don't have friends, you're so-what's the word? Lonely!",

"(sigh) Are you done?",

"No, I'm not, you sent the texts to me and I have them in my phone, if you were just playing with my feelings wait till I send the screenshots to everyone and see who gets more shamed",

"Dude! Are you a kid?",

"You can delete them if you want, but you have to come in my room first, Jaguar Hall, third floor, room 149, looking forward to see you there",

"Dude, screw you!",

She angrily walked away from him, heading back to her dorm. She was angry enough to knock a wall down.

But on her way back, something hit her mind. She knew no one, both at home and in college, just Borah. She had 3 weeks left until she goes back home. Her one goal was to get pregnant and she needed a volunteer. She slowly turned back and stared at Dom, who was still watching her

"Jaguar Hall, third floor, room 149-Perfect",


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