The Change

I waited for his reply. He never replied. He saw my message, but never turned to reply me. I waited, for a day. I texted again "Hey, am sorry if I asked the wrong question, please reply". A week and a month have passed by, he didn't reply. The message was seen, but no reply. I felt really bad and was overwhelmed in pain.

I was surrounded by random thoughts. "May be I should have not asked him". "I have crossed my limit". "I have created a mess around me". "Should I text him a sorry again". "How will I sort this".

I was not able to concentrate on anything. I was not focused on my admissions. It hurted me more than I deserved. I can unfriend him, delete the photo I tagged him, delete the chat. But to delete him from my memories, seemed impossible.

The first time I saw him, it wasn't love at first sight. My love for him formed gradually. His personality, his voice, his hair, his eyes, his humor, the way he looks, the way he smiles. Clearly it all became clear to me, that he was the one I was looking for.

A month of long pain, taught me some reality. He was happy, he kept posting pictures, he was enjoying his days with his friends. And here I am crying in pain, not able to move on and get out with my friends. My mind kept telling me one thing "You are crying for someone, who doesn't even think about you".

It seemed so true to me. And I decided to move on. Move on and give up on the things that hurt me. To live a life for me. To think about me.

"Sometimes you have to stop looking for happiness, in the same place where you lost it". My biggest regret in life would be, I have not said "I Love you" to him atleast once.

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With Regret

AuthorTk