Failure

Regardless of the amount of time I spend with Jackson, the reality of it always hits back. Yes it's back to school... stupid studying again and again...

I couldn't help it but think back to that night that we watched "Back to the Future." Thinking back to it, my heart still skipped a beat..

**Flash back to when Jackson and I were watching "Back to the Future"**

I closed my eyes and embraced him.

Jackson and I shared another passionate kiss. When we finally stopped, Jackson looked down on me and finally spoke.

J: Since I won.... the thing I would like from you.... is to let me teach you how to kiss even more passionately..

Embarrassed at the request I looked at him and blushed.

***Side note: Lol, your girl does not know how to french kiss..... I mean with all those terrible relationships etc, ummmm she never learned. Lol sooo the passionate kisses from before were like lips playing with each other but no tongue. Oriana is very unexperienced. Lol innocent and unexperienced.... for now....

Noticing that I blushed, Jackson leaned down and whispered in my ear.

J: Don't be afraid baby, just close your eyes, relax and just try okay?

I took a breath and closed my eyes.

Jackson leaned down and kissed me again, but this time while his lips brushed against mine, he opened his mouth slightly and I felt his tongue on my tongue.

Of allllll things to do...... Guess what I did?...... Nope, I didn't tongue kiss him back..... I laughed LMAOOOO *I'm such a failure*

Jackson couldn't help but laugh too as I laugh.

J: What's soo funny?? That's what it is dork. Haha

Me: I'm sooooo sorry! That literally just felt funny!

Jackson and I laughed.

J: You're not suppose to laugh you dork. Haha, but why do you gotta be so cute? Huh? Huh??

I laugh and apologized!

Me: I'm sorry! Okay, okay, no more laughing.. but what do I do?

J: Okay promise?? :P

Me: yes!

J: Hmmm, I guess the best way to explain it... is pretend you're licking ice cream... **Jackson blushed**

Me: Okay.. Hahah sorry, okay *ahem. I'll try again?

Jackson smiled and leaned down to kiss me again.

This time when his lips brushed against mine and his tongue was in my mouth, we "successfully" (better than the first time) kissed passionately with tongue.

The moment felt intense and very heated, for once we, well I got the hang of it, Jackson leaned in more to embrace me. Soon enough, sharing the passionate kiss and playing with each other's tongue, Jackson and I came to a rest. Jackson pulled back and our eyes locked.

J: Not bad baby, not bad.

I blushed and hid my face in the blanket near by.

**In my head, did I seriously just make out, make out? with my boyfriend, but then failed? and laugh? like omg! I'm such an idiot!**

Jackson laughed as he tried to pull the blanket away from my face. He was successful.

Jackson the leaned in to kiss my forehead and said, "Let's take you home baby, it's getting late :)"

**Present day studying....

Like how am I suppose to study thinking about my fail and how I laugh..... Okay like how many idiots/people like me laugh..... T_T (anime crying face!!)

But even so, I'll have to admit, I miss him dearly and especially in that moment... but still... I wonder what'll happen next.....

My heart skipped a beat thinking about it. In the quietness of the study area, I can clearly hear my heart pounding as if it was about to jump out of my chest.

I took a breath... *Sigh..

Relax Oriana I said to myself.. Time to focus and continue on studying..

I flipped my book over and started to study again.