CH 34 ~ Sneaking In

Back to the present, Eleanora's Pov~

Tick-Tock-Tick-Tock...

Tick-Tock-Tick-Tock...

This was the only sound I could hear in the silent dark room as a certain someone was kneeling before me with his head hanging low.

My arms were crossed over my chest as I kept tapping my feet on the ground while staring at him with a frown on my beautiful face.

"Say! Just when will you stop coming in my room through the window like some stray cat?"

I asked and he tilted his head to the other side with embarrassment.

Augh!! This guy!!

If you know its embarrassing then why do you even climb those damn windows at the first place dude?!

Does he not know how horrific it is to open your eyes at midnight and see someone hanging on your window like some monkey?!

And his red eyes scared the hell out of me!!!!

I still can't get used to his bloody ruby red eyes.

Every time I see them, I feel like I am getting suffocated with some kind of emotions in my heart which I can't figure out.

I feel like he is watching me like some prey.

"Elle…"

My ex starts. Let's see what kind of excuse he has this time.

"It's just... you know why I can't come in through the door..."

He murmurs in a low voice as he scratches his red neck and I roll my jewel blue eyes with frustration.

Then can't he come during the day so that he can come in through the door?!

Not like some damn thief?!

Even before, he would climb into my room and make me sneak out with him in the middle of the night.

We would eat ice cream, walk in parks or sometimes we would just stay silent as he would drive in highways all night long till morning comes.

He is someone who can make you feel comfortable without even saying anything but the problem is I seem to sense the pain he is trying so hard to hide.

The pain that he never shares and he would just silently smile to say that everything is alright.

And I hate it every single time I melted down by his fake smile and always take a step back from knowing his pain... letting him isolate himself even more.

Why do you never share your pain with me?

Am I not worthy to know your pain?

Did I not love you enough to feel secure with me and share your concerns?

I always want to be someone whom you can trust and feel safe, just like how you make me feel about you.

But in the end, you just lock yourself far from my reach without even giving me a chance to help you out.

Just why, Cathain?

I avert my gaze from him as I close my eyes in defeat with a deep sigh; I can never win against his silence.

He is going to drive me crazy someday.

The way he used to treat me would make me feel like his little sister instead of a fiancée!

"Elle..."

He murmurs my nickname and I give him a questioning glance with a frown on my face.

Just looking at his face was making my blood boil with anger.

Why did I even fall for such a dickhead?

I may have some feelings for him but I will never let that feelings get over my rationality.

I still remember how this dickhead had pushed me away when I tried to kiss him in the plane before the crash.

He had rejected me, the great Milenka Montogamy; Daughter of Ethan Montogamy!!

I had everything!

Looks, body, money, fame, status!

Guys turn their heads toward me whenever I walk by like I am the most beautiful girl they have ever seen and this dickhead has actually dared to reject my kiss?!

"What?"

I asked with annoyance in a low but deep voice.

But to my surprise, my right eyebrow seem to be automatically raised as my eyes gets narrower and surprise flash across his eyes like he has finally saw something that he was waiting for so long.

His ruby red eyes widen and I hated the way he looks at me now.

He is not looking for something in me now.

Why?

What's happening?

I blink a few times to fix my expression as I turn around as I couldn't bear to look into his face and find his arms wraps around my waist.

He was hugging me from behind.

"Don't..."

He murmurs and I feel a stinging pain in my heart.

What is he trying to say?

His forehead was resting against my neck as his breathe falls on my shoulder.

He is tensed...

My mouth twitches into an awkward smile as I laugh at myself.

I can even tell what he is feeling by his breathe... then why won't he look at me?

No, he looks at me... but not at me though.

His eyes always searches for something in me.

The way his pupils used to move whenever he looked at me was how he looks around in search for something.

Either it's a file or the kinder joy's spoon which I have dropped by mistake while throwing the wrapper and ask him to find it; his eyes used to look the same whenever he looked into my eyes.

Always searching for something...

"E-Elea...Nora."

He murmurs my name of this world with great difficulty, like the whole world was weighting him down as he tried to utter that name.

Eleanora...

Why does it sound so familiar yet so distanced?

Why do I love this name more than my real name?

Even my own breathing was getting heavier and I felt suffocated.

"I am sorry..."

Cathain murmurs in a low voice and lets out a heavy breathe, which helps me to understand he is feeling relieved now.

Like some heavy burden was lifted up from him.

"Why are you here?"

I ask him and he replies in a low voice.

"I... missed you."

He replied and I open my mouth to say something but no words comes out.

What am I even supposed to say?

I...really didn't miss him that much actually?

The plane got boom, I got here in this world with a bang, and then that silver haired father got stabbed and everything around me glowed before I fall asleep?

Too much thing has happen and I didn't have the chance to miss him.

No one misses their ex or the person whom has rejected them.

But I still need to say something.

He is the offline novel spoiler of this world and my key to survive after all.

I don't want to die again, It was hellish scary!

So I decided to end the silence between us and change the topic to avoid answering him.

"...This is not my home that you can bribe the guards with a packet of cigarette and sneak in."

And as I had expected, his body slightly moves as he was surprised to learn that I knew about it.

This dickhead...

Did he really think that a packet of cigarette can bribe the man my father had chosen to guard our home?

Of course the guard uncle used to report it to my father and father used to feed those expensive cigarettes to my mom's aquarium fishes.

God knows how many Cadbury bubbly I could buy with one of those cigarettes, not to mention a whole packet!

Dad really hated those fishes as my mom would spent the weekend with them; ignoring us saying only those ugly fishes loves her.

Thus my dad was even jealous of those tiny creatures...

And why I never stopped him?

Because I hated those fishes equally like my dad.

I fear small animals, especially beautiful fishes, small kittens and tiny birds!

And my mom loved each of them like they were her babies and not me.

Cathain had bribed my mom by gifting her a few fishes on her birthday too; but he failed to get my dad on his side.

Dad hated him like they were enemies from their past life.

Because he had my attention like my mom had hers for those ugly fishes.

"Then...your father...knew it too?"

He asks awkwardly and I turn to face him with a look of 'What to do you think?'

And again my right eyebrow rises automatically as my eyes narrows down.

"Yeah he knew. You should thank me that I stopped him from frying you alive and feed your ashes to mom's fishes."

"..."

He averts his gaze again and his white cheeks turn red?

Did I saw it right?!

This dickhead... he is blushing like some teenagers?!

And that's when I recalled again... He is really a teenager now, where I am some underage 12 year kid.

-_-

With a flat chest...

I shook my head to get over the grief of losing my boobies and being flat again... as long as I am flat down there mean my boobies will grow again.

"Elle!!"

I jump up in shock as he suddenly shakes my body and I look at him with widened eyes.

I was so lost in the funeral of my boobies that I didn't even realized that he was calling me.

"What were you thinking?"

He says before flicking on my forehead lightly and I groan in pain as I cover my forehead.

"That hurts!!"

I spoke with a pout and for the first time ever... I see him smile, no, laugh genuinely!

He was laughing!

He never acted like this with me…with Milenka.

But now he is laughing… with Eleanora.

Why do I feel so restless?

His hands were resting on his knees as he was leaning down to reach my eye level.

"So you were always this cute..."

He speaks and I look up at him with confusion as sadness feels up my heart.

What does he mean by 'always'?