19 Not a Chapter Number 2: But my serious/heartfelt thoughts! (Let's talk.)
Dear Readers,
I have already told you all how much I appreciate all the support, I truly do!!!
In the last few days I got great feedback, I got comments that made me smirk, and comments that made me feel motivated.
Without your support, this story won't take off, you all know this, and I know this, but I would like to clarify something!! <--- MUCHO IMPORTANTE!!
I write this Fan Fiction because most of the other Fan Fictions are predictable, repetitive, or outright lacking, and I assume most of you are in the same boat!
The MC's get so strong that writing the story become impossible, they crack the power scaling of their world in just 10 chapters, or they get each morning one OP skill after the other... Where is the challenge in that, the excitement of achieving something?
How boring would Naruto be if we got Boruto's Naruto back into ---Season 1 Naruto--- without lowering his power level or anything.
No story needed at all because he came, killed them all, ruled, finished.
Most stories with great potential get dropped because of such reasons, most write up to 200+ chapters, but then they stop leaving the reader hanging because they can't further scale it up!
I want a finished story, whatever the end may be, maybe MC' kills himself, maybe he manages to ascend to GODHOOD, or maybe he marries someone and lives out his eternity in peace.
I want to get to an ending! This is very important to me because I have ADHD, I cannot concentrate on one thing long enough to get it to an end, I get side tracked.
So this is a project for proving to myself that I can manage getting things done, if you enjoy it, then you are welcome and much appreciated :).
Even if you do not enjoy it, you are welcome if you have something constructive to add.
So here is what I don't understand because I know I am not "a great writer", but nonetheless, I have a vision of what I want to write!
It may or may not fit your taste, but so what! This is my story 🤙🏽 you are totally welcome to write your own one, and do a wish fulfilment, I am not going to judge anyone, or stop anyone, or criticize you for writing it!
So the negativity of some readers 🤔 triggered me!! I was really annoyed, hurt, started self-doubting, and tried to understand why they feel the way they do. I want to openly communicate with my readers/Fans! It is very important to me that you all understand what I am trying to do before you drop the story!!! (Because you are a great part of my motivation, but you are not my main reason for doing this, as I stated.)
Maybe I am doing a terrible job at building a plot, but at least give me the chance to write an 'original' plot before you go on a full-blown Rage! (I am a new author, I try new stuff before I learn to implement them into a complete story... It takes time D: )
Or do you want another one of those MCs that just goes through the motions of the original Plot?! That is much easier to write 😄 I can also go on to write how Gabriel kills Edward, but what would that even bring?
Well, here is how that would develop the story!
Killing Edward, is as easy as killing a bug, but then what?
Carlisle will hate him, the whole Olympic coven will hate him, (Result 1) I will have killed all future potential for developing a Clan/Family that is made up of the Cullens. (Result 2) I'd have to introduce a completely new setting, basically throwing out 50+ years of MCs life… (Result 3) MC would be an Overpowered loner that would be monologuing 99% of the time because people without friend or family do exactly that!! They talk to themselves, and they end up mad (most of the time)!
Please don't think of the characters as just fictional characters! Think of them as beings that are alive and have rational minds! That will make it more reasonable why he is not killing Edward!
So, MC say's Edward is trying to kill him.- Will Carlisle believe him without proof? Edward reads Carlisle's mind and he will know he is being watched! If that were you, would you still do something that might make Carlisle suspicious of you? If yes, congratulations, you are an IDIOT! You can read minds and still get caught doing some BS.
No one is believing the MC, and this is part of Edwards plan! I am spoilering here, but I just got triggered so hard -.-', and I sat there wrote different settings for the plot and still get such hate!
You people are either unable to see the dilemma, or you assume that solving all problems with the bigger fist is something that'll work 🤔. I seriously am thinking about the complaining, but I don't see the issue because I feel it is killing the story, it is too short-sighted, and would just end up in another Wuxia plot-line!! <---GO read WUXIA!!!
Well, if that is your taste, I concede my defeat 😂
See the difficulty that I face is the following, I have a man thrown into a World filled with monsters, this man had no family, no friends, no home, and his only purpose was the next hunt. He is powerful but deprived of emotional connections, what would I do in his stead? I'd search for connections, not necessarily Love, but friendship, loyalty, and companionship.
My next thought is how would I react when betrayed, when my trust is broken, and I end up alone.
So what then?! I've experienced pain because I have a different opinion! I fall, but I also stand up stronger than before, and this is a PLOT!!!!
Not, I gather so much power that I can give anyone Painal, and they beg me to keep on banging them for the next 1678 hours 😑 SIDENOTE: although writing lemons is hard as hell.
But the thing is I find what you want MC to do ridiculous, not interesting, and no offence but just dumb!
To most this might seem (Un-) appealing but from my perspective he is lonely, this is why he is willing to stick to his brother, and by extension his family! Although it makes him look weak! He is willing to be seen as such because he is emotionally unstable transmigration, decades of loneliness, a world filled with danger, no way to escape, he is a cornered beast.
*Sigh* I am really a bad writer if I cannot show my intentions...
Do they appreciate him?! No they don't, but this is how it is in life! If you are different you're unappreciated, but you learn to come to terms with it.
The chapter you all hate is showing how patient he is, also passively showing how high his survivability is, even when the odds are against him!
You don't know yet anything about his 150+ year's, you don't even get to know if he has found new powers or not, but your first reaction is to come and get angry 🤔
I am polite most of the time, I also, appreciate constructive criticism, and if someone has a great idea for possible direction in which the story should develop further I am all ears. But I get a bit pissed off if you don't allow me to develop my character, and get offended for absolutely no reason.
Like tell me how I should have written it better to convey what I want rather than coming and belittling me. <-- This is my main problem with those comments!
SIDENOTE: No one is born with a strong personality, no one is born as an MC! It may be that having read so many stories, that are build the same way makes you think that all MCs are born with Mental strength, that all cool MCs should act the same cool way, but sadly that is some next level idiocracy.
Anyway, I am not here to defend the chapter 😄 some may see the potential in it, some may not, such is life. (Also, I may have written it really bad!! I will have to come back and re-read it later on to get a neutral feeling for it.)
You wanted a strong character, well, maybe he is pretending, maybe there is someone manipulating Edward, 🤔 this is not Twilight-This is a world in Darkness!!! There are shadows behind shadows!
Sorry everyone, I just needed to vent! I seriously don't know why it triggered me the way it did, but I got stuck on thinking that I have disappointed you all, and I wanted to explain my POV.
I wish you all a great day/evening/weekend, and hope you'll like the next Chapter that will come on Monday.
