PROLOGUE

PROLOGUE

THEY say that love is fantastic, it brings out what you really are. Love is beautiful, they say. Nagagawa mo ang mga bagay na hindi mo inaakalang kaya mo. Love is everywhere.

And also, my parents told me that every relationships needs trust, honesty, and love. They even told me that love had its own twin. Pain. It wouldn't be love if there's no pain. Without pain, it just plain platonic.

Love is...bullshit.

Making you feel those fucking ineffable feelings such as; euphoria, fast heartbeats like you'll have an heart attack, and that stupid romantic excitement.

Love is dumb, people! Love sucks!

They say that love is the best feeling in the world, it is an intense feeling of deep affection, great interest and pleasure.

Oh, come on!

Pleasure.

Like what men like. They seek pleasure to satisfy their needs and when they're done, they'll throw you out like a dirty little garbage and act like they're the victim.

Love is bullshit, I say, but pain is more awful than love. Hell is the best word to describe that shit.

Love can make you feel alive but heartbreaks kills you.

There's no such thing as love when there's no pain. Heartbreaks cause many things that can hurt you...physically and emotionally. Just like what happened to me.

It'll make you sleepless for many nights. You'll loss your appetite, then began trembling while overthinking, it'll also cause you anxiety as well as depression, panic and feelings of despair.

Love is...the worst thing had happened to me.

"Would you cut that shit out?" I irritatingly gritted my teeth while glaring at my parents who's flirting inside our kitchen.

"H-Hija!" Mom gasped, "God, you shocked me! 'Wag ka nga bigla-biglang sumusulpot nang gano'n!" Saad niya habang nakapatong ang kanyang kanang palad sa sariling dibdib.

"Anak, kamusta ka?" Rinig kong tanong ng magaling kong Ama.

Oh wait, I remember, I don't have a father.

I just gave my mother a blank stare, not minding Icce, my mother's affair.

They're not married anymore, so why bother call him Dad? Wala na akong Ama dahil matagal na siyang patay. Patay sa alaala ko.

Napansin ni Mama ang hindi ko pagsagot kay Icce kaya pinanlakihan ako nito ng mata at pasimpleng sinenyasan ako gamit ang kanyang kamay ngunig hindi ako gumalaw o kumibo man lang.

Instead, I say, "I'll get going, I'm getting late. First day na first day male-late ako. Nakakahiya naman sa kanya." Sinadya kong diinan at lakasan ang bawat salitang binibigkas ko para patamaan ang dapat matamaan.

Kita ko ang pag-iwas ng tingin ni Icce at pasimpleng yumuko. He's probably embarassed. Well, he should be.

"Hindi na ako kakain, I already lost my appetite."

Inayos ko ang bag na nakasukbit sa balikat ko bago humakbang. Hindi pa man ako tuluyang nakakalabas ng kusina nang huminto ako't nagsalita.

"And oh, by the way, I want that man out of my house this instance. Hindi katanggap-tanggap ang mga bwisitang kagaya niya," then left.

I heard my Mom keeps on shouting my name but I choose to ignore it.

"Son of a bitch," I muttered before entering at my car, given by my Grandmother.

"Isang tanga at isang bobo, what a great combination." I whispered before starting my car's engine.

I'M halfway getting to school when a familiar car caught my sight.

Uh-huh, a Porsche eh? Cheap.

I smirked as I stepped on the accelerator hard as before, making my sweet Ferari speed up. Through my rear-view mirror, I saw the car sped up too.

Nag-uunahan kaming dalawa sa kalsada, mabuti na lang walang gaanong sasakyan na dumaraan sa highway ngayon.

Pareho na kami ngayong mabilis ang pagpapatakbo sa sasakyan at nang magkatapat kami, muli kong nakita ang mukha ng isang demonyitang matagal ko nang pinagdarasal na sana ay hindi ko na makikita kahit kailan pa man ngunit sadyang nakakaasar ang tadhana dahil muli kami nagkita ng isa sa mga tao na nagdudulot ng aking bangungot.

I saw how smirk at me while wearing her smug face. I looked at her with a blank face, showing that I don't give a damn on what's happening right now.

Seriously? Ano nga ba ang nangyayari ngayon? Anong kabobohan na naman ako sumanib sa babaeng ito at nakikipag-unahan sa akin?

I secretly grimaced at that thought. I even caught her raising her middle on me.

Bitch.

I stepped on the brake then grabbed my phone inside my bag. I dialled someone who can help me get rid of this woman.

"Hello?"

"Where are you?" I asked.

"Checkpoint near at your University. Why?"

"I think someone here isn't informed about the speed limit, Kuya Cardi." I said, straight to the point.

I heard him chuckle before saying, "On it, Selenn cutie."

"Could you cut that out?!" I groaned in annoyance before dropping the call.

How annoying.

Muli kong pinaandar ang sasakyan ko ngunit sa katamtamang bilis na lamang ngayon. Saktong pagkadaan ko sa checkpoint malapit sa University nakita ko na pinalabas ang demonyita at nagsimula nang mag-eskandalo.

Binagalan ko ng kaunti ang takbo ng aking sasakyan para panoorin kung paano niya ipahiya ang sarili niya.

"Don't you know who am I?! I am Diancia Fionah Favro! A famous lawyer!" She exclaimed making me roll my eyes.

Kita ko kung paano mapangiwi si Kuya Cardi dahil sa sinabi nito. "Miss, kung isa ka naman palang sikat na abogado bakit hindi mo man lang alam ang nilabag mong batas?"

Napatameme naman siya at nanlalaking mata na sumagot, "O-Of course not! I-I didn't violate any laws!" Depensa niya.

Tumaas ang kilay ni Kuya Cardi, "Ma'am, I am a police officer, so I know laws too. Are you aware of RA 4136?"

Napatahimik si Diancia at napapahiyang nag-iwas nang tingin. Nang magtama ang paningin binigyan ko siya ng isang malamig na tingin.

"RA 4136 states that the speed limit on streets or boulevards 'with no blind corners' are rated at 40 km/h for passenger vehicles and motorcycles. Are you even aware that you are running more than 60 km/h, Attorney Favro?" I stated while looking directly at her eyes, making an intense eye contact.

Sinamaan niya ako ng tingin kaya nginisian ko siya ng malamig. When Kuya Cardi looked away for a second, to talk to his colleague, I gave Diancia a middle finger while mouthing 'fuck you' at her.

Kita ko ang gulat sa kanyang mukha dahil sa ginawa ko.

Oh bitch, shocked, eh? I'm not the same Selenn that you used to know anymore. I'm a free woman now.

After that, I left. With few more minutes, finally, I arrived at the University where my Aunt referred me to.

Dinampot ko ang backpack ko bago lumabas. I slammed my sweet Ferrari's door as I fixed my blue medium length hair.

I saw how the people stopped and stared at me with confusion and amazement. Some of them are murmuring while the others doesn't give any damn.

The hell I care.

I flipped my hair and fixed the glasses I was wearing but also got irritated so I took it off and throw it somewhere.

Masakit sa likod ng tainga.

I walked gracefully with oozing confidence in the crowd. I didn't mind those people who keeps on staring and adoring me. Especially those men who's fantasizing my body.

Two words to describe them. Assholes and idiot.

Pity them, they can't touch me. They can adore and fantasize me but they can't touch me. Never. Hell will freeze if that happens.

Palihim na lamang akong napapairap dahil sa mga chismosa na naririnig ko.

"Pasikat porket bago."

I looked at the girl behind me. She's glaring at my back but when I looked at her she instantly went pale.

Scared, huh? Such a coward.

Naglakad ako palapit sa kanya bago nagsalita. "How many years are you studying here?" I asked with a cold tone.

I saw her gupled, "T-Three..."

Three...third year college, huh?

Iniwas ko ang paningin ko sa kanya at hinarap ang nagkukumpulang estudyante sa gilid ng corridor.

"Do you know her?" Medyo malakas na tanong ko. Halos sabay-sabay naman na napailing ang mga estudyante dahilan kaya napangisi ako. Muli ko siyang hinarap at pinasadahan ng tingin.

"Pasikat, huh? Atleast ako kahit bago pa lang dito, sikat na. How about you? Tatlong taon ka na dito hindi ka naman sikat," I said with a smirk.

"What a pity," I said while shaking my head in disbelief.

Such a pity.

I didn't want to waste my time so I turned by back at them them walked away, leaving them dumbfounded.

As I walk away, I felt my phone vibrated. Dinukot ko ito sa bulsa ko at tinignan.

Oh, a message...from Mom.

As soon as read the sender's name, I rolled my eyes and was about to return my phone at my pocket when someone bumped me, causing me to lose my balance.

I almost fell but a pair of two strong and firm arms caught me.

"Careful, Miss." A familiar baritone voice filled my ears.

Hearing his voice wanted me to shout at him with so much anger, annoyance, and hatred.

Nang magtama ang paningin namin, muli kong nakita ang pamilyar nitong berdeng mga mata.

After a decade, I finally saw those pair of green eyes that I loved long ago...when I was still a foolish girl. Those adoration and love was replaced with disgust and hatred.

Bumakas ang gulat sa mukha nito at halatang hindi niya inasahan na makita ako.

"Iccen..." he whispered in the air.

And at that moment, I realized something.

It's a déjà vu.

"Let go of me...Sir." I exclaimed in a low voice.

Sinunod naman nito ang gusto ko kaya mabilis akong naglakad palayo sa kanya. Akala ko hindi ko na siya makikita o makakasalubong muli dahil malaki naman ang Unibersidad na ito ngunit sadyang maliit ang mundo para sa aming dalawa.

Fate really loves to play.

I met him again because he is my Proffesor. Fuck it

He's now a Proffesor, huh? Good for him and bad for me. Shit.