8 Hmmmm

Hmmmm. I sighed, staring into nothingness.

It's been five days since I've been with Sebastian, in the middle of nowhere. I mean, my parents have not called or tried to check up on me, what kind of parents do I even have?. Would it be so bad for them to check up on me?. What a life.

Ever since we got to this place, Sebastian, had kept his distance from me. I haven't seen him for three straight days now. Not like I want to see him, I just care that… what am I even talking about?. I do miss him, even though we don't really talk to each other, I miss him being here with me. The way he smells, the dark aura around him, how painfully handsome he looks, the way he stares at me… hold up!  What the fuck is wrong with me?.

it's not like Sebastian and I talk a lot, he just, come into my room, to check up on me, tell me, he was not going to be around, for three whole days!. Why exactly am I getting so worked up over him?.

I didn't know Sebastian that well, hell, I didn't know anything thing about him. he was a man of few words, but, the sex aura I get from him, was very tempting. What the hell is wrong with my brain?!. Sex aura?. Really Rosita?!. I need warm milk to put me to sleep.

The room which I was stayiny, practically caged in, yeah, caged. I haven't set foot out of the room ever since we got here. Maybe, Sebastian is "scared" I'll run away. And that's exactly what I'll do.

Now, back to my room. It was indeed huge. It could contain three king sized beds. I had a Plasma TV, bathroom, jacuzzi, a balcony that had a beautiful view of the ocean. I had some video games, which I asked 'Sebastain's guard's for, also some Barbie Cartoons. I mean, who doesn't love Barbie?.

I am currently sitting on a sofa, in my room's balcony, watching the water, go with slow waves. I sighed. I was really bored outta my mind. I even forgot to mention, 'my phone was taken away from me! '. Isn't that amazing?.

I started singing the lyrics, I remember from my favorite Barbie Cartoon, "Barbie and the diamond castle". It was a very lovely song, I love to sing with Dad, when he didn't hate me.

'Somewhere to find a friend like you're

'Somehow when you're around, the sky is always blue's

'The way we talk'

'The things you say'

'The way you make it all okay'

'And how you know'

'All of my jokes, but you laugh anyway'…I felt a tear slip from my eye, remembering, how dad would smile, and say he always loved how I sing to him, because it elevated his spirit.

'if..I.. could wish…for…one thing'… my voice started breaking. Remembering, how much he hated me now, broke my heart. I sobbed quietly.

"For someone, with such a lovely voice, you do know how to ruin a song". Said a deep masculine voice behind me.

I turned my head, to see Sebastian, bare chested, arms crossed, leaning on the door to my room's balcony. I never knew he had tattoos. The tattoos, he had, ran, from his collar bone, to his left breast, arms, and his wrist. There were writings in the tattoos, I see what was written in them, because my eyes were blurry.

When did he get back?. I haven't seen his for three days, so when exactly did he get back?.

His poker face changed to that of concern, when he saw a tear run down my cheek. He stood straight, and looked at me, trying to study me.

"Are you okay?". He asked, his voice going deeper.

I couldn't form words. I needed to be comforted. I stood up, and ran into his arms. I enclose my arms around his neck, and buried my head on his chest, and cried. I felt his hands on my lower back, and my head.

"Let it out sweetheart. It's okay". He said, rubbing my back. I let it all out, my pain, everything. His soothing words, were all I needed to hear. I sobbed, I don't know how long, but he didn't complain. He held me, and comforted me.

Maybe he's not all that bad?. Maybe, marrying him is not as bad as I think it is?.

I sighed deeply. Sebastian, what do I do with you?.