chapter 11

This last few days have been really good for me. I have been doing lot of thinking. I went around my path that I have chosing to take checking out the neighboring packs. A few things are really clear to me. I don't want to be apart of that pack.

I'm willing to give my mate a chance! I hope he can agree to move in with me at my cabin? I'm not giving it up. That is my home! I will go to some holiday events at the pack house. Kids are something I don't really want but, if he does it will be later on!

I'll probably end up making a small summer business and working like I have been over the last few years. To make money and keep up the net egg I got go. This stock market graphic scale accountant that I got into last year is doing good. It's kind of fun and it pays good to.

This is something that I haven't told Sarah anything about. Everybody's got to have their few secrets to their self!

One thing I'm not looking forward to is when I do get back home! I'm almost scared to see which one is gone to react the most Sarah or Shan?

I'll guess I see once am back there. I'm half attempted to stay hidden. Haha

I love my little cabin. I see dinner along my path up ahead. I run across a deer might as well go ahead and grab. That will be what I have for dinner tonight.

I'll have enough for tomorrow night to. I'll just clean up the meet for tonight and then make thinner strips for tomorrow. I put my pack down and get to work. Catch the deer I found was easy.

There a nice little spot here to cut out and cleaned up the deer. I'm going to eat this and leave the rest for Rogues or wildlife animals to finish eating.

After getting everything done, I start work on making my food for tonight. Now setting me up a little place the call home for the night. Then I lay back and look for the Stars to come out as it get dark. Kind of makes me think and wonder does Shane into the stars?

I know over the years that I really haven't paid much attention! Just for the simple fact I didn't want to be caught up and that pack. How much is he willing to give up? Sometimes I'm just going to go with the flow.

Will he like going out on little trips, laying out in the dark under the sky? I wonder how he's going to feel, when we start getting closer together? Will it be where I can't take these trips any more because I want to need or want him to be around me?

I just know how it was for Uncle J. When his mate rejected him. How if it was for me he would have died sooner. When both of my parents rejected me, I guess I would be dead if it wasn't for him. I'm really glad and proud that I'm more of a loner wolf. I don't have the constant need to be surrounded with people.

I have seen how Sarah is always talking about her mother and brother. Now her mate! The three big people in her life. I guess I would be the same with Uncle J. But our relationship was so much different, we should go days without really seeing or talking and it would be all right. I know that Uncle J was a loner wolf to. We had each other for everything. We didn't need a whole lot of company or companionship!

We still needed lease one person, I guess that's probably why it work out the way it did for me and him. We was all the family we need each other.

I go ahead and start get my stuff. pick up and back together for tomorrow. I laid down to relax and look up at night sky the darkness starts to roll in. I'll get up in the morning then start back to the Alpine mountains.

I'm definitely going to be spending another night at uncle's grave before going back home. I know that will put me not being back until Thursday night.

It will be all good because I don't know when the next time it will be before I go back over to his grave.

I know I'll have lot to do once I get back at the house. See that I've been gone 5  days. I'll need to catch up with any school work I missed on. I'll do that Friday. It can't be much since we'll be graduating 3 weeks when I get back.

If all else fails and Shane doesn't accept me or rejects me. I'll always have my little cabin and my safety net. I do want to checking out being accountant assistant for the Alpine mountain gravel company. It's only four hours  from my house and a part time job working 4-6 hours a day, three to four days a week. I think I just figured out what I we doing after graduate!

I just hope that everything will work out with my mate? I guess it's in the moon goddess hands now? I have accepted to give him a chance.

I just hope that he can accept the few things about me. I roll over and look up  see if I can spot some constellations in the Stars.

I do this until my eyes lids start to get heavy, I close my eyes and drift off to sleep under the stars.

I wake up the next morning and start to head out. It has been really good trip so far. Now I'm only three hours from the graveyard. I pick up two gamma Rogue and one Warrior rogue wolf sense.

The Warrior shoot straight up and starts growling. The other two are just laying there watching to see what happens. The black wolf is looking for a fight. He charges right at me.