1 1- Being a baby is not for me.

Well, welcome to my diary, my name is Vincent and no, my last name is not Van Gogh, in fact, Van Gogh does not even exist in this universe ...

Than? Surprised ?, believe me I was even more when I came out of a vaginal canal and was greeted with a pat on the butt, the situation was quite alarming, I remember feeling the air scratching my baby's skin. Since my ears, nose and eyes were covered in some kind of unpleasant liquid, it was difficult for me to know what the hell was going on, fortunately I was blessed with the ability to maintain a certain degree of calm in absurdly stressful situations, thanks to that I was able to deduce that Giant spots around me were not Mythical Giants, on the contrary, I was the little one.

I have to admit it was a lot of fun realizing that i was a baby, I even started laughing at the absurdity of the situation, my mother probably thought I was laughing with happiness like any normal baby would, and speaking about my mother, my mother is beautiful, when my eyes started working beyond the 30cm range, the first thing I saw was her face, pearly white skin, red eyes that are actually a bit creepy and black onyx hair.

Seeing her face calmed me on a primitive level, probably because she was my mother, unfortunately the calm did not last long when I realized that the color of her eyes was not normal, I assumed that it was still the same world as before, but only from its unnatural appearance I was able to deduce that this was a fictional world or an alternate reality of earth.

Also, it didn't take long for me to realize the financial crisis my mother was going through, I never saw a man in the house, so I assumed that my father had abandoned us or died before my birth, the most probably option is that he I would have died. You have to be such a stupid motherfucker to abandon such a beautiful woman ... right?

Let me tell you that my father is stupid, I had spent all the time of my new life trying to learn the language, thanks to that I was able to understand some words and sentences that my mother said during her fragile moments, generally when she began to read the endless accounts , which combined with the lack of photos of the man in the house made it very clear to me that the man was not dead and that his IQ was very low.

I tried to give Lilyth the least amount of trouble, the woman already had enough stress in her life, she didn't need me to cry and scream unnecessarily, the only thing i did when i was hungry or dirtied my diaper was moan softly, just barely audible enough for her to notice the waste between my legs, this surprised her a little, maybe she was expecting me to cry and having a lot of sleepless nights.

I have to say that I really like Lilyth, when she was not stressed by the bills, she behaved like the most loving mother I was lucky to see, although it may be that my opinion is quite partial for the times I was breastfed, i may not have hormones or a developed body, but that didn't stop me from admiring the beauty of his pink buttons ... seriously, that man is stupid.

From what I could deduce, Lilyth had a pretty decent job, and thanks to my quiet demeanor, they allowed her to take me to the office with her and her boss visited us often to chat and pinch my cheeks, the problem is that the stupid with low IQ , whom I refused to call father, had left many debts, apparently the man had fallen into drugs and was betting large sums of money in casinos, then I discovered that he had not abandoned us, my mother had asked him for a divorce. and she had also taken custody of his unborn child, in other words, me. You can say what you want about her, but Lilyth is a pretty tough woman when she get mad.

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Today was a special day, today is my first birthday in this new life, I had just woke up and, as always, I stared at the sleeping face of the most important person for my new self, the date is December 1, 2008 Lilyth worked overtime most of the week to be free today, Miss Mitsuha (the boss) agreed in exchange for using me as a stuffed animal for several hours, the number of times I almost died suffocated between her breasts was not moderately normal either.

After waiting a few minutes, I started to feel hungry, so with all the regret in my heart I had to wake her up, to do so I decided to do the usual thing and place myself on her stomach, the pressure did not take long to take effect and I saw how her sleepy Ruby eyes opened, oh right, I forgot to say that I have the same color palette as her, white skin, red eyes and black hair, I will have all the women behind me when I grow up ... or so Miss Mitsuha says.

When her eyes focused on me her features softened and a small smile adorned her lips.

"Hi Vincy, why did you wake me up?" It seems that she is still somewhat asleep if she doesn't remember my birthday even though she was excited for it all week, in response I just gave her a somewhat regrettable moan.

That removed all his drowsiness and she immediately sat with me on her lap "What's wrong? Did you mess up your diaper?" my answer was to shake my head negatively, if anyone else observed our exchange they would be tremendously surprised by my degree of intelligence, but Lilyth being a first-time mother doesn't know how abnormal I am.

"Eh? Oh! You're hungry right?" She almost exclaimed and for a moment I thought I saw a lightbulb light up above her head, it's cute to see my mother behaving like a clueless teenager from time to time, although considering her tender age of 21 I shouldn't be surprised by her jovial attitude, heck , if we count my previous life I am actually older than her.

My nod was all she needed to get me close to her newly released chest, I stared uncomfortably at the pink nipple on the gelatinous mass of pearl skin, 'I'm not an expert on the topic, but I expected breastfeeding to stop long ago ... meh, I will reap the benefits of being a baby while they last 'I thought as I started to suck on the pink button in front of me.

While drinking the elixir of life, better known as milk, my mother started humming a quiet song, the same song she hums every time she is very happy, the song is strangely similar to an opening from Monogatari… 'Wait! My mother is an Otaku ?! ' I was so shocked that I released the nipple to open my mouth in shock. The next thing I knew, my mother was laughing out loud at the absolutely shocked face I sent her.

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"Vincy, Vincy! Make a wish!" I heard Lilyth's voice as I looked at the small, flickering candle in front of me, I don't know why, but seeing that faint flame brought memories from before my death, it reminded me of the fragility of life, in my previous life I never had the opportunity to meet my parents, I spent my whole life focusing on things not so relevant as getting a better job, I sacrificed my enjoyment, my freedom and my time trying to secure a future that from the beginning was not assured.

And so it was, I died, my life ended, my dreams immediately followed and my constant sacrifices were totally useless ...

"Vincy, what's going on?" The dubious voice of my mother brought me back to reality, my eyes met hers and I could see how she squirmed, dubious about hugging me or taking me to the doctor, apparently my mind had spaced for a long time and she was beginning to worry, feeling a little stupid, I turned my attention to the already melted candle as I made a decision.

'If my life is like this flame, then I will enjoy the warmth of the moment' And with that thought I blew out the candle along with all my doubts. "Oka-san, I love you"

My mother froze for a moment upon hearing my first words, then tears started to flow from her eyes and I had no choice but to worry, but before I could say anything else, Lilyth closed the distance between us at the speed of a blink and when my brain returned to focus I was being imprisoned in her arms, thanks to our contact I could feel how her body trembled sporadically and my hair soon moistened with his crying.

"Oka-san?" Her grip tightened a little more at my question and her next words were clearly said between sobs. "Oka-san loves you too Vincy" It took me a moment to realize it, but I understood the reason behind her actions, loneliness, my father probably mistreated her psychologically and maybe physically, she divorced the only person she could call family, she gave birth to a baby, had to learn to be a single mother, etc.

I still remember how nervous and tired she looked during my first months of life, how difficult it was for her to bathe and change my diaper, the times when she fell asleep right after coming home and feeding me, of course, they gave her post birth vacation, but those holidays ended soon and without another person to take care of me, there were times when I saw her cry with worry when she left me alone at home for more than half an hour.

Many other people would have given me up for adoption or just neglected me, but she didn't, she constantly strove to be there for me, even if there were times when it was physically impossible for her to take care of me ...

Maybe due to my mental age, it was very difficult for me to consider her my mother, in fact, in my thoughts I often referred to her by her name, but if there is something that I do not doubt it is the great affection that I have for her, so even If I don't see her as a mother, I will appreciate her as the valuable person that is in my heart.

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I never noticed how quickly time passes, after that night during my first birthday my mother became even more cheerful than she already was, her tired eyes were rejuvenated and she seemed to be permanently in the prime of her youth, little more and she would become a feminine and several times cuter version of Might Guy, even managed to develop her own youth Genjutsu, every time she was particularly happy I could almost see little roses orbit her, I would have been scared if it wasn't so hilarious.

Of course, after our financial crisis was resolved Lilyth began to show her Otaku side a bit more, there was a new shelf at home filled with wide variety of Manga, some mangas were very good like the Full Metal Alchemist version of this universe and others so bad that they made me want to take my eyes off, but they made my mother laugh because of how bad they were, and Lilyth in her beautiful ignorance did not know how strange it was to see a 2-year-old kid reading fluently…

Anyway, after turning 3 years old I could say that my time had come, my mother had spent a few weeks looking for a nearby kindergarten to enroll me, and in a short time I was in front of a small school, its walls were painted in very garish colors. It almost gave me epilepsy, I couldn't understand what was going through the mind of the one who painted this shit.

"Vincy, are you sure? We can always wait another year, you don't have to rush" Lilyth was playing her role as a hen mother as always 'Why do I feel like the adult here? ... Oh wait, seeing the situation logically I was the strange kid here, around me there were dozens of children crying and hugging their mothers as if their lives depended on it.

With a tired sigh I turned to see the worried woman holding my hand "Mom, I'm fine, it's not like we will never see each other again, it's only a few hours" my words seemed to do the trick and I saw her shoulders relax , she knelt down in front of me and gave me a big hug "Sorry, I almost forgot how mature my little Vincent is, just don't grow up too fast, I still have a job as a mother to do, you know?" she said while pouting.

"I do not promise anything, after all I do not want to stay so small forever, it is very difficult to hug you with my size" I said mockingly, she took a while to process my joke, when she did she let out a light laugh and kissed me on the cheek.

"I'll come pick you up later then, try not to disturb the others and make some friends, got it?" My hand rise to the height of my head making a kind of military greeting while responding with an "Affirmative" that managed to make her laugh again.

I didn't have to wait long before the caregivers began guiding the children to their respective classrooms, beginning my boring life as a student.

To explain how kindergartens work, we basically have a teacher, usually a woman, who at the same time plays the role of our babysitter, I honestly don't know why most of them are women, but I theorize that it has to do with how children perceive more easily to a woman as a family, you know, evolutionary things and instinctive behavior.

My teacher in question was a woman with black hair, black eyes as well as very beautiful Asian features, oh, I do not know if I already said it, but I was born in Japan, I suppose it may seem strange to you because of my name and I do not blame you, I was also quite confused seeing my mother's somewhat western appearance and hearing her speak Japanese.

It turns out that my paternal grandfather was born in Germany, but due to the financial crisis in his country during the Second World War he decided to move to Japan where he met my grandmother and together they had a daughter, unfortunately they died when my mother was 16 years old, luckily they left her enough money to finish her studies and look for a job, due to her great intellect Lilyth graduated a few years earlier and got the good job she has now, the only bad thing in this story is that she fell in love with the wrong boy.

As a curious fact, in this world the second world war ended without the need to explode Hiroshima and Nagasaki thanks to the fact that Germany carried out a coup against Hitler earlier than planned, ending in his assassination, that change unleashed the most incredible butterfly effect I have ever saw:

In this reality, the Government of the United States, not being under a countdown, took the liberty of warning Japan with bombing the most important oil companies, as well as launching 2 of the 4 nuclear bombs in its possession, if Japan didn't formally left the conflict, in addition, the surrender of the high commanders of the empire was requested to be tried as war criminals.

Japan as the proud empire it was, rejected said treat, days after, to Tokyo came the news that its most important oil companies and refining plants had been eradicated from the face of the earth, but that was not enough reason to stop the war, no the thing stopped the war was the gigantic crater that had appeared in the place of one of its most distant refineries, the icing on the cake was the high levels of radiation recorded in the vicinity of the impact.

One thing led to another and in the end Japan ended up suffering the same fate as the Germans, the empire fell thanks to a military coup and the peace treaty was signed allowing the United States to impose a new system of government called Democracy. All those things resulted in Japan ending the war with fewer human losses and a better economic state.

In addition, after the war, Japan focused on technological development, thus being side by side with the greatest world powers of today.

If you wonder how I know that, well, I was very bored and Lilyth had left her laptop connected to the internet near me… Now let's go back to paying attention to my new teacher. Okay?

"Hello children, my name is Asada Shiroka and I will be your teacher for the next year" said the woman in question as she wrote her name on the board, none of the children should be able to read correctly at this time and less in Kanjis, even so, something in the name seemed familiar to me.

After that, the teacher asked us to introduce ourselves and began to teach us basic concepts such as the syllabary. For the sake of not raising suspicions, I was forced to follow the teacher's instructions writing some syllables in Hiragana like the rest of the children.

"Very well children, now, this syllable reads like Ka" after writing several syllables I was seriously planning how to get out of the little hell that was this institution, also, the children kept looking at me from time to time, heck, even the teacher did it 'Please, I know that red eyes are a strange thing, but I've seen people with purple eyes! It shouldn't be that rare in this world, right?' Later I would find out that my mother and I were the only ones with this particular eye color on the entire planet ...