126 Arc 3, Chapter 36: The Choices I Have Made

'Even if I stay put this loop, it'll probably end up resetting and I'll end up remembering and any of you somehow dying, I can't take this forever… But…'

A split second, everything felt like time had stopped. "JOTOU WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?" Fumeko's voice.

"JOTOU! NO!" Hotaru's.

"Jotou!?" Asobi's…

Her eyes closed, moving the sword to her neck. Then it hit her, all the memories of her life, this one and the one on Earth. The moments she shared with those who screamed her name in this very second.

Every loop she spent, every memory she made. Were those not real? 'Or am I just choosing to believe they aren't real anymore… All of that is still true, just hasn't happened.

An insight I should never have. Basically, a paranoiac given a glimpse of the future, multiple possible ones. I lived through every single one… This isn't the way… I can't just give up now, can I…?

It's too hard but when has life ever made it easy? Only when I keep trying… I, I want to see those moments again…