Life and Reicarnation

Before we start , may I ask you a question . What is a human ?

I believe that most of you would say that a human is first of all a person or a living organism capable of thinking , rationalising and who has feelings . Feelings like empathy , happiness , sadness , joy and many others . If I were to ask you , how do we express those feelings ? Your answer would be , actions . But our actions aren't only a way to express our feelings , they can also create them . And thus we have created a circle where rationalising and thinking or any use for the brain only comes to support an action or try to suppress a feeling in order not to make an action in fear of it's CONSEQUENCES .

That is actually correct , and I myself wouldn't be able to come up with a better answer if it was given to me without being prepared . But if humans are such creatures who's actions are rationalised and emotions can be suppressed if needed , then why are their wars , crimes , sadness and suffering all over the world ? Aren't those the only criterias to be human ? If yes , then why did slavery exist ? Why are their people living confortably while others have to suffer in the middle of nowhere ? Why did we have to create a system wich divided us ? Money , politics , countries , 1st world , 2nd world , 3rd world , poverty , luxury ... , why did we divide ourselves based on criterias like these ?

The answer is easy , it's because humans aren't made to live in harmony , us humans grow by trampeling on others , we have dreams and we can sacrifice anything in order to achieve them . As long as humans live together or under the same system , negative emotions will pill up and at certain point we won't be able to suppress them. Greed only exists because of desire , and desire only exists because we want to be superior , living in harmony was never an option , and will never be .

That was my conclusion after my modest 90 years of existence , in the end I didn't have enough courage to end my life by myself . Should'I thank the angel of death when he comes to get my soul , that would be weird , I guess I'll just smile .

My name is Noah Dingold , I was born in country XS 15 years before the start of the war . I was never a charming or handsome guy , I clearly made the wrong choice by taking my father's chromosomes , my parents were the normal average couple , except for the fact that my mother's looks far exceeded the average , our life was never out of ordinary , well that atleast wass the case until the start of the tragedy .

It all started on the 31st December 2090 , our country announced that we were going to war and that all MEN who are 18 years old or more are to be enlisted in the army. Leaving the country wasn't an option as my father was a military soldier with the rank of lieutnant in the air force .

It was when I had turned 16 , my father was away on a mission when suddenly , a missile was launched on our city . Soldiers of the opposite camp entered our house and many others they raped women and killed old men , they captured children and killed many husbands after letting them see their wifes get raped , they were obviously comitting war crimes but their weren't going to be any witness left , or so they thought , I couldn't just stand there letting them **** my mom , I tried to stand up but one of them tackelled me and i fell but at that moment i took his gun and started shoutting , i didn't have any skills before hand so I only shoutted with my eyes closed and that's when I heard it , the bastard who was trying to **** my mother had killed her when he heard the gun shots , i and the other soldiers were in the kittchen while he was in the front of our house's door , I could only hear a gunshot and my mother last scream before he appeared , i didn't see anything but knew what happened , I was enraged , tears descended on my red cheaks , veins started to appear on my forehead , and that's when he appeared , blood was on his face , he held a knife and had already put down his gun , the idiot underestimated me or thought that his teamates weren't the ones dead , I saw him , his face was surprised , and I shoutted . I was standing there alone on the midst of blood crying , I held my mother on my arms and cried , her face was horrified yet beautiful , she was on her road to heaven , I reassured myself , I needed that and moments later our camps soldiers were here , they killed the offenders and burried the dead . They took me to the camp , months later I received my father's death news .

Years passed , I fought and fought , achieved great deads , saved and killed , trained and applicated , found love , lost comrades , had children , fought some more , lost my wife , lost 3 of my 4 children , and fought , I only fought not caring about death , I got new ranks , money and fame ,yet that didn't matter I lost the most precious people to me and with that , any interest for any kind of material thing is this life was lost , I wasn't living , I simply existed for the others , the rare moments joy found me was the birth of my children , the encounter of my love and death .

Yes Death , this now is my most joyful moment , the moment of my death , I ' ll finally be free .

Waaaahhh Waaahhhhhh

"What happened , I definitely died just now so what happened , why did I turn into a baby " I thought to myself

" Babe , do you hear that , it's like a baby is crying" asked a woman her husband

" Honey , we're in the middle of a montain , who would let a baby here " replied the man

" But I clearly hear it , come with me " said the woman

after a while they found him

"See , I told you there was a baby here" said the woman proudly

" Shouldn't you be shocked rather than proud, you just found a baby in the middle of nowhere while hiking , we should take him to the autorities " said the man

" No way , we're going to adopt him huh wait , there 's a paper here " she picked it up " The child's name is Yuki you can do whatever you like with him , he was born as a result for an affair , we chose to continue our life as if tht never happened so we needed to get rid of him ;" the face of the woman became crazy red after she read that "Jeez how can they be so heartless , what was the child's mistake , these people are they even HUMANS " said the woman with an enraged look .

" It's decided then , you were pregnant and we had him while we were hiking , it was a premature birth so you had to give birth to him naturally without a medical assistance " said the man

" So you have agreed anata , I love you so much " said the woman a happy and I mean a really happy voice

" Uhum from now on you are named YUKI HAYASHI welcome to the family SON " said the man as he helm me in his arms

" Yuki means happiness and Hayashi means Forest , HAPPY FOREST or Happiness in the forest huh quite the name you've got Yuki chan" said my new *mom* while looking at me with an innocent face .

And that's how my new life started in a world most likely to be similar to my old one judging from the clothing of my * parents*

I hope they aren't that Human