9 Ch.9 I hate you

"Why?" She couldn't help but ask as the moment when she entered back into the room, she was surprised to see him like this.

At first, she hated him for what he did and the way he acted and treated her from this morning made her feel even worse.

But what she hated more was herself and what she let him do to herself and her body, while also feeling good about it.

Each time she remembered this feeling, she couldn't help but want to kill herself as she hated this feeling that her body loved.

'It would be better for Takagi-kun too.' She thought that he deserved someone better than her, someone who truly loved him and someone loyal to him.

But even then her heart hurt from thinking about being away from him as he was her first love and someone who truly cared for her.

'But it's better for him.' She decided after this, that she was going to break up with him and disappear from his life altogether and everyone's life.

But more than that, she was angry with the guy in front of him who was the cause of everything, the one who destroyed her happiness.

'Then why am I?' She was patting his head to calm him down the moment she saw him as it almost reminded her of herself from earlier. 

Someone who was about to lose himself.

'Why am I like this?' She doesn't even know why. The anger she had for him disappeared after hearing what he said in the morning and what just remained was just hate for herself.

'And I am like him too.' She realised that she was kind of similar to him, who hurt their loved one and was feeling similar pain even though the cause of all this was him.

Then why was he asking to forget about this side of him? She can't understand him at all as before he was just after her body and wasn't even hesitating to show it.

But now he was caring about her after destroying her, and then feeling sad about it and then asking her to not care about it.

"Why should I forget about this?" She couldn't help but raise her voice while asking it as she couldn't understand him at all.

Before answering her, he first stood up from his curled-up position and crouched down on the ground to match her eye level.

"Cause it's kind of embarrassing?" He said looking at her while chuckling a little which made her even more confused.

"Ahh I mean it's kind of embarrassing to show this side to someone I love." He said while looking at her as scratched the back of his head with an embarrassed smile.

Hearing his answer, made her hate this side of him even more as she pushed him to the ground in anger and while she covered him from the top.

"Why are you like this?" Last night's side of him was something she hated too but it was almost irredeemable.

But the current side, the one that cared for when she woke up, the one that consoled her, the one that didn't have any lust but only cared about her in his eyes, the one who made a delicious breakfast for her and the one who looked like a broken man right now.

She wanted to know why he was like this and if there was a way to help him but she couldn't be honest with herself.

"I hate you." She said while crying and punching his chest lightly she hated this side of his cause this side was making her forgive him even after all the stuff he did to her.

And this also made her hate herself even more as she was willing to forgive someone who destroyed everything last night.

"Why are you like this? Why? Why?" She wanted him to go back to the old side so she didn't think about forgiving him.

"And why am I like this?" But at the same time, she didn't want him to go back to that old side for an inexplicable reason and that made her feel even more confused.

"It's okay, everything's going to be alright." He hugged her and slowly started to stroke her back to calm her down which made it even worse for her.

She hated this feeling as it was making her feel comfortable in his arms which she shouldn't feel but she can't stop herself.

"I am sorry that you are like this because of me." Hearing him apologise just broke her even more as she was almost ready to forgive him.

Even though she wanted to say something, she couldn't as her eyelids started to get heavy due to all the stress and she fell asleep in his arms.

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Oga looked Chifuyu in his arms with a confused expression as even though he was able to avoid her asking more about his condition, the way she acted left him in even more question.

"Well let's get up from here first." He couldn't help but laugh about the situation they were in as he was on the floor with a crying girl right on top of him.

"At Least she is wearing clothes." The one good thing was that she was finally wearing her clothes as her body was too distracting for him and being in this hormone-filled body made it even worse.

First, he slowly removed her from on top of him and laid her down on the side, after that, he stood up.

Looking down at her, he could see that she was still crying a bit in her sleep, probably suffering from nightmares.

"Ahh, it hurts not gonna lie." Seeing a girl crying like that was not good for him as it hurt his inner self but first, he decided to pick her up from the floor.

And in a princess carry, he laid her down on the bed and sat next to her while gently stroking her head so she could calm down a little.

"I hope it ends soon." Even though he cared about this girl in front of him due to what happened to her, he just wanted to rest himself first as he was also slowly breaking down from all the stress.

Before he realised it, he had fallen asleep next to her while stroking her head due to all the stress he was dealing with.