Ch.6 Why?

Putting aside the breakfast for now, he walked towards Chifuyu who was shivering while hiding her face in her knees.

Even though her whole naked body was in front of his eyes, Oga didn't even look at it once instead just smiled a little with regret.

'I am pretty shit aren't I?' Even though it was not him who did all that, he couldn't help but feel bad as the memories were making him believe that he was there when it all happened.

Additionally, he could understand her a little as he was also in a similar situation last life.

'Ugh, I don't wanna remember that again.' He started to feel a little suffocated when he remembered that scene once again so he decided to put it aside and focused on Chifuyu first.

"Hey, it's okay." He lightly patted her head while trying to speak to her softly so she could calm down a little.

At first, she was scared of his touch but got a little used to it as it was better than whatever he did last night.

After a few minutes of silence, she finally stopped shaking and then raised her so she could look towards me.

"Are you feeling alright?" I couldn't help but ask that even though I knew the answer to that question.

Instead of replying, she stared at me even further as her expression slowly started to twist while tears slowly started to fall from her eyes, "Why?"

"What do you mean why?" Even though I knew what that 'why' implies, I asked her once for confirmation as I didn't want to make the situation even worse than it already was.

"Why did you do this to me? You knew I had a boyfriend? So why? Why? Why?" She kept repeating the words like a broken robot while he realised what he did was unforgivable and there was nothing he could do to make her feel better.

Instead of replying, he first covered her naked body with the blanket and then tried to pat her head but was slapped away, as she looked at him with tears for answers.

He couldn't help but chuckle in regret as she slapped his arm away and he felt a little hurt by that.

"Why?" He was once again reminded of the situation by her voice which had become coarse from her crying as he crouched in front of her to match her eye level to answer that question.

"Why did I do that, you ask?" He could answer her the truth, which was that he just wanted to have sex with her due to her body but he knew that it would make the situation even worse than it already is.

'I can't be such a scumbag.'

Taking a deep breath, he looked at her again trying to find an answer to this question while trying to remember every instance of them being together.

"Cause I love you."

"Eh?" At first, she looked confused and then became suspicious as he never once showed any signs that he truly loved her.

"Why are you lying? And we met for the first time yesterday. How can you fall in love with me?"

"That's true as we met properly for the first time yesterday but didn't I say I became suspicious of you due to you waiting for Takagi every day after club ends?" He asked which she lightly nodded her to which made him realise that she was much cuter if she was not crying.

"So I fell in love with that girl at that time, the kind and caring girl but I was heartbroken when I saw you kiss Takagi as I lost my chance before it even started." He looked at her with a sad expression to make it more convincing even though inside he was feeling like shit right now.

"But I couldn't give up on my love like this, so I decided to do all this as I just wanted you to be with me." The more he lied, the worse he felt as the suffocating feeling kept increasing inside of him but at least one thing that made him happy was that Chifuyu looked a little calmer.

"That's true- as you said about playing as lovers and dating." She looked a little convinced as yesterday too he was talking about all this.

"But if you loved then why did you hurt me?" She asked with a sad expression while trying to hold back her tears as due to the boy in front of him, she betrayed someone she loved and the cause of all this was love.

"That's true." He couldn't help laughing with regret while looking down at the ground as he knew even with this explanation, it would not make her better and turn back time but at least he could take all the blame on himself.

'Well, all the fault is mine to begin with.' As he thought, if only his past self hadn't talked with her then she would have been with his boyfriend happily but it was all ruined due to his lust.

"I was dumb, I thought I could've gotten you to fall in love with me but I just realised how my ways were all wrong but it's too late." He said while looking at the ground that he didn't want to see the heartbroken girl in front of her as it hurt him too as he had also suffered the same pain as her.

"Why? Why did you hurt me when you loved me? Why didn't you talk to me properly? Why did you make me do all this? Why? Why? Why?" She once again went back to that broken self which made him feel even worse.

'I just made it even worse than before.' He couldn't help but feel that the lies had made her state even worse than before.

While regretting his decision, he stood up and hugged her while lightly patting her head, "I am sorry and it's alright."

He tried to comfort her and tried to punch him away lightly but he didn't leave her alone as he felt that leaving her alone would break her.

And after a while, she gave up resisting and quietly cried in his arms but her arms never once tried to hug him.

He realised that she had calmed down as he wasn't sobbing anymore but he couldn't see her face properly as she was looking below so tried to separate from her.

Moving away a little, he realised that she had fallen asleep in his arms due to all that mental stress which made him feel a little eased as she looked so calm right now.