Chapter 01

As I followed the Viscount to the mansion, I keep thinking of what kind of sins I did in my past life to make me end in this situation.

There are too many mysterious things that happen in my past life but I mostly live a normal life.

Most people won't believe my story or tell me that I need to go to the psychologist after listening to it.

Even if it sounds like some fantasy novel, it happened to me.

At first, my life is perfectly normal.

Ahem, well... there was a time when I hoped for an exciting life like some main character in my favourite stories, but I regret it later.

I remembered my childhood where I lived happily with my mother and older brother.

I never know or was curious about my father's whereabouts because I think it might change our happy lives and my mother seems to be sad whenever someone talked about him.

My mind always stops me to think about what happened to my father I unconsciously avoid talking about or remembering him. It's a strange feeling but it seems like something is preventing me from thinking or talking about my father.

Not only the thing that relates to my father but other strange things happened when I started my studies and became friends with other people.

I often act unlike myself and it seems like I did it reflexively. Like when I distanced myself when I talked to someone or weird coincidence happened to them and made them feel afraid of me, especially when the opposite sex tried to get closer to me.

Some of my friends say that I am indifferent or a bit quirky and some avoid me because I was too weird for them. Most of them always diss me or gossip about my quirky personality but I don't care about it because I never do anything to make me feel guilty or bad as a person.

I only heard bad things from those who don't know about me, so I just ignored them badmouthing me as I'm more worried about those who were angry with me.

The only good thing that I am being praised for is how I love to learn.

Since two years old I have been interested in books and other knowledge and I keep learning as if something forced me to do it but I like to learn it.

Right, I love to learn almost everything especially when I have a bit of interest, I can remember it but I always feel that I must learn the things that I think as useful. Some people even said that I was crazy when I said that I even learned from the light novels, comics and animations.

I don't know why they say that but for me, you can learn everything from anything as long as it was something useful.

While I only learned the trivial tricks and abilities that I can learn from the people around me or some online learning but I was never able to use most of them.

Whatever, I just do what I think is the best for me and I will do it as long as my heart lets me.

Although because of my mindset, I only have a few friends.

Even though I have such a personality and I know that I'm not a good person, I like to listen to others' problems. It was the only thing that could help me learn something while interacting with others.

Well...I'm not kind because I listened to their stories and solved their problems.

To listen to a different perspective and point of view feels like reading or watching different stories and by doing that, I'm able to learn and know about the things that I am unable to get from schools or books. As I only listened to the people around me like family, friends and some acquaintances.

But when I graduated from college, the strange thing started. It started when my colleagues invited me to a blind date. That day we almost have an accident. But it's only the beginning.

I started being haunted by something every night. I know that my body is extremely sensitive to ghosts and spirits.

From when I was two years old, I have been able to sense those things. Although I never saw them directly I was always able to sense them because of how high my empathy level is. For that reason, I can feel those ghosts and spirit's emotions and sometimes it will influence me.

My friends and acquaintances said that I have a terrible mood swing, but my family know that it was something that is caused by the things that we can't see.

In some cases, I was even able to have some visions or feel the feelings that they have before they died. That's also my reason for never attending most funerals or going to some hospitals or other places. Especially if it's a place where someone dies from accident, sickness or murder because I will feel their pain. Those who know about my ability keep telling me that I have six senses or something similar abilities.

I never thought of it as some occult skill and believe that it was caused by something that everyone could have. Besides if I thought about my skills, I'd be able to be described by scientific reasoning.

Why do they keep telling me that I have unscientific skills?

For example, I am just too emphatic with other's emotions, that's also why I can suddenly cry from a manga or novel that I read.

That's also the reason I can guess the problem or pain in their body when I listened to their problems. And I think I am also able to be a good detective sometimes because I can deduct some clues unconsciously as I sometimes have a dream about what will happen in the future of the people around me.

It's not like those unscientific things which relate to ghosts, spirits or miracles.

But as I keep denying those unscientific things, the condition gets worse.

It starts with a strange voice like someone singing or scratching sounds from the ceiling. Later it turned into something like a loud sound that woke me up in the middle of the night and I would saw a strange shadow on my window and the knocking sounds.

The worst is when I was grabbed by something in the middle of the night as I scream from the pain, my family run into my room but even after they turn on the light, we can't see anything and decided it was just something similar to sleep paralyzed but there's a bruise in my feet when I wake up in the morning.

My situation getting worse night after night, it feels like I am being thrown into a horror movie.

As time goes on, I have been troubled by a lot of unscientific problems until my brother get married.

I remembered that I regained my peaceful life again after the marriage.

Well..., not really.

The sounds and shadows are still appearing but they can't harm me anymore.

After two years, my niece was born. The day she was born is the luckiest day of my life. I remembered how cute and small she was. Her existence changed my life.

I don't think I can fully understand what happened or how it was related, but my life is turned into a perfectly normal life. Simply describe it in easy ways, after my niece was born, her existence would change my fate. Her existence was the reason I gained my normal life.

Right, that's the end of the harassment that I get every night stop.

That's also why I keep pampering my dear lovely and cute angel-like niece. She was the one that saved my life. To be able to watch her grow was my favourite thing.

You maybe want to ask why don't I get married or make my own family? But for some reason, every time I want to have a relationship with someone, something bad always happens.

There is a time when I have a terrible fever and went to a nearby hospital after I tried to have a date with the person I like. It was the terrible fever that almost took my life. My family quickly took me to a nearby clinic and the doctor gives me some medicines but it makes the fever worse. In the end, my family decided to take me to the hospital and because of that, I was able to survive.

The doctor said that there might be some effects after experiencing such a high temperature and it might damage some parts of my brain.

The first thing that I realized after I became healthy was my inability to differentiate between others' faces. The diagnosis was I have prosopagnosia or face blindness.

That happened a few months before my brother's marriage.

What kind of punishment is it?

Isn't it normal to dream about having a handsome boyfriend?

But I lose my ability to differentiate between handsome and ugly. Everyone seems to be having the same face. That's why I have a hard time looking for a boyfriend.

I am only able to differentiate people by their sound, smell, and body shapes. And I need to spend almost three years to perfectly let me live normally without having any problems as I can't differentiate people's faces anymore.

And the worst is I also still being harassed by the sounds and shadows every night and sometimes I wake up and see some bruise or scar on my body when I left for another city because of my work before my niece was born.

Sometimes I just think that having a normal life is much more difficult than a unique or adventurous life.

Even though my life is full of strange things, I still hope that I can live a normal and peaceful life.

Of course, after such long-suffering, I was finally able to get back a bit of my peaceful and normal life while watching my cute niece grow up.

After she was born, those supernatural harassments suddenly stop. I'm able to live peacefully.

Time flies fast, she was a junior high school student.

Right, that was the last time I met her.

At that time she tells me about the new dating game that she is playing.

It's a very easy dating game where the player will have a harem even in the bad ending.

If I remember correctly, my niece said this is a tutorial game that can be played for free just by downloading the game apps...and you need to pay after you finished the first part to continue to the second part.

I don't interest in dating games but I still listen to her stories.

And...I died when I meet the client in another town.

One of them suddenly confess to me and I asked him to let me think about my answer. As I went to the car park, I was mesmerized by the beautiful scenery.

Then something is pushing me from behind and causing me to fall from the fifth floor.

When I remembered everything I have been reincarnated into the game.

The worse part is that I am reincarnated as the villainess in the first part...who was fated to die.

What a worse past life.

<to be continue>