Chapter 1

The first time I died and reincarnated, I was shaking in fear.

After all, I experienced a lot of pain and sorrow that it's practically burrowed in my bones. I was in total pain everytime I close my eyes and relieved my past life.

But it happened again.

And again.

And again.

It's a vicious cycle.

Repeating ones life, playing the scenes back and forth and etching each memories into my bones.

I tried to kill myself but I can't, it's still the same, I still can't.

I kept going back to the day of our fifth anniversary which I celebrated alone.

I first tried to make him love me, but it backfired on me and I was seen as a hysterical jealous woman who wants to keep his husband for all herself.

Then the second time, I tried for revenge and I was soon defeated. I was molested and was taken advantage of, the people who are supposed to love me turned their backs on me.

The third time, I tried to divorce him, but my body won't move. My lips can't open and say that I want to leave him.

Then the fourth time happened, I tried to become cold and aloof towards him. But it didn't help at all, it just made me look like a flower vase for everyone to see and ridiculed over and over.

I tried for the fifth time and let him meet his lover and have their own happy ending without me. But my body was rejecting my actions.

I was soon known as an evil manipulating bitch with a two faced personality and was soon disposed by my husband.

Again.

You have no idead how many times, a countless of chances have been wasted just to change my fate.

But it was all for naught.

My fate was irreversible.

I was like a puppet, being presented to the crowd with the label of an evil woman. Actions that does not represent my character, I was just an object to be used to highlight everyone's goodness.

So many times I tried to kill myself, but there's this chain on my body that won't let me and even if I succeed, I would be alive again.

I soon grew cold and unfeeling.

I cannot take any more pain, too much, everything is too much. There's nothing more left in me, I was just a vessel to be ridiculed and become a hopping clown in everyone's eyes

I think it was better to die than to live this nightmare again.

I was now simply wishing to have a change, a butterfly effect in this twisted life of mine.

And that is my life, that's Caia's life.