PAIN WILL FILL THE BRIM WHILE NUMBNESS SETTLED IN ⁿᵃ ᵘˢᵃ ʳᵃ (1.)

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It f*cking hurts.....

It hurts...

it hurts It hurts It hurts It hurts It hurts It it hurts hurts It hurts It hurts It hurts It hurts It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt's It hurt it hurt's.

Help

Help me.

Help me, help me, help me.

Help me, help me, help, help, help, help, help, help, help, help, help, help, help, help, help, help me!!!!

It hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts... it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS!!!!!

Why can't just I die.

WHY CAN'T I JUST FUCKING DIE?!!!

*Sob

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*Sob

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*sob

𓂂..𓂂..𓂂..𓂂..𓂂

I always pondered to myself.....

What did I do wrong?

why are they doing this...

pls...

please

PLEASE

PLEASE

PLEASE!!!

JUST —!!....

PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP

PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP PLS STOP

Why?

Why.....why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why

Why.....why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why

Why.....why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why

Why.....why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why

Why.....why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why WHY WHY!! WHY?! WHY!! WHY?! WHY!! WHY?! WHY!! WHY?! WHY!! WHY?! WHY!! WHY?!

WHY?! WHY?! WHY!! WHY?! WHY!! WHY?!

WHY?!

w...h..y?.....

A drop of tears fell through my left eye.

I then look at my hand carefully, it was covered in dirt mix with something darker in it. Head to toe my hand...

Blood.

My hand Covered in blood

In this trap confinement where I can no longer see the daylight again only me myself and I.

It was a underground solitary prison cell, where the light never shines.

And the people who go through this trap captivity back in forth. Old disgusting men, young bastard's looking at me like I was a dead man put on display.

looking at me like I was some kind of species they need to confine to trap in their hand

I already was.

Bitterness, numbness, the pain I experience in the past was no longer there; as if someone took my emotion away never feeling an ounce of emotion ever again.

Someone already did

Or maybe SOMETHING.

Maybe it was better this way. To not feel the pain, maybe it was too painful to the point the pain sorted out to the numbness I'm feeling everyday on this hell.

And if I ever got out to this prison only countless stares will be waiting for me

put out for display

for their entertainment

put out just for their fun

maybe to mocked me

heh...

What am I thinking, they're already are.

Maybe they're saying I can never be like them,

I can never be on the top but for a used, only to be used and abused and used again.

That I will never escape this fate and become their puppet. '

That's what someone said to me

"Only

for

used".