1 1 Spin of Death
My eyes blurred and the sounds that enveloped the world all converged and faded into one distant ominous sound
My time had come, there was mistaking it. My lower torso was completely and utterly annailated all that was left was my upper and my conscious serving as a testament to the damage I had sustained
"Grade 1 Extermination…what a joke" I managed to choke out amidst the blood clotting my throat with the taste of metallic
Tears? I could barely speak let alone cry at the cruelty of this world unfit for the youthful
What good would it do anyway to cry, I was just a corpse hanging dearly onto life
Using the last essence of my strength I turned my head, hearing the strained breathing of Haibara before I finally gazed upon his figure
His right arm severed from his body, eyes gorged out and the deep piecing hole that bore its way through his abdomen
Though even through all his lethal wounds that damn ever present smile lay spread across his featured as if they were mere decorative scars
'…T-This is all because of me,' I blamed myself, my breathing grew more rapid and life taking but I could care less
I had failed. I was a failure in everything but name though did that even matter
In every possible way I had failed
How many lives had I saved? How many peope has I protected? How many people had I let down?
The hatred for my incompetence cut deep. And like that my world, my ideals, philosophy egoism…my jujustu crumbled before me
These techniques, arts and craftsmanship of sorcery that i forged and manifested to protect the weak and those around - to ensure those unaware of the true nature fo this world remained unaware and blissful
I panted as more blood oozed from my body - no matter how much I contracted my muscles, slowed blood flow - death came for us all one way or another
You were right Yaga… no sorcerer does without regrets though I never consciously doubted you I thought I would be the exception to that rule - an outlier, one who would die without burdens
I was wrong. The naivety of my dreams came crashing down before me in a burning heap
The flippant arrogant individual who I hated not because of his attitude, though that played a factor, his jujustu was antithesis to my own appeared before me and materielised in my vision
"U-Using your strength to satiate your own pleasure seeking ways, how irredeemable haha," I laughed, the contours of my lips stained red, "only an individual like yourself could uphold such values."
How ironic that in the end the man that cares only for himself lives in the end?
Was that really the only thing that was rewarded in this world? Self indulgence?
Maybe if I was as well I could have reached Gojos heights of strength, unparalleled in strength and excessive hubris!
The pure stupidity of my thoughts at the verge of death caused me to chortle a little - an action i would so dearly regret as it came with agonising repercussion-!
"-N-Nanami? You still alive?" Haibara' pained voice called out to my withering body
I tried to force out my hoarse voice from within, however it worked against me as the speech i so craved dug deeper until a hollow grunt erupted from me
"Haha Good!" The pain in his voice evident to me that it hurt so badly, "Just like you to reply so half heartedly." He joked leaving silence to fill the void our brief conversation had brought
Until it was broken once more by Haibaras voice, "Nanami. Don't blame yourself"
His words confusing to the ears rejecting the reality of failure I had reaped upon myself
"No one could have foreseen that it would be a special grade let alone one as powerful as that… plus i did kinda drag you here with me so if it's anyone's fault it's mine," he spoke calmly
No…No…No…No…No…No…No…No…No…No…No..No!
I concentrated Emmy energy to my throat widening the lungs, "-W-why?"
"Hm? Why what?" He questioned
"Why wont you curse me? " I questioned my voice barely a whisper though still held the frustration of my soul
"Curse you? Pffffft~ why would I?" He answered though the two do knew that that wouldn't be enough to satisfy my thirst for answers, "…hmmm..how about this, why do you blame yourself for what happened? You shouldn't have to but you do - you must. Sounds kinda selfish to me, taking all of the blame huh?"
Silence loomed over once more
"Listen, Nanami if you- no when you make it out of here alive take care of Aoi for me why don't you!" he stated as if his death was already decided
Why was he like this?! Why was he acting like his fate was already decided
"-You m-mean when we get out of here! Gojos coming soon don't worry stay still!" Careless with my health I screamed my though it fell on deaf naïve ears of a half dead sorcerer
"These times spent with you, Gojo, Shoko, Geto, Utahime they definitely take the cake when it comes to my top ten greatest moments of my life!" The pride and joy Haibara created engulfed our domain that encapsulated the two of us
A sigh was heaved form his already strained mouth before his figure became even more slouched and eyes began to dilate even more
No!
"Guess I'm going first," he resigned all will to continue forward, "Tell the others I died as I lived ok? As a Jujustu Sorcerer! Nanami! You've got it from here!"
Cursed words spilled from his mouth that clawed at my mind and sanity
No! No! This isn't it yet! What about Aoi! What about saving lives No!
My brain scrambled through ideas and concepts... something - anything that would bring about Haibara's survival and they all led to
"A binding vow!" I exclaimed with the realisation of the answer to my problem being presented to me, I relinquished my control over my cursed reinforcement, worsening my wounds and shortening the little time I had left but it was all worth it - to speak to the voice of the world and exchange soul!
"My life for his! Do you hear me world?! Do you hear me?!" I cried, my emotions a maelstrom of sorrow and optimistic desperation yet my mind never clearer
Memories of Gojo's incessant need to tell me of his awakening thanks to the reversed cursed technique and the 'high' he felt much akin to my current state appeared vividly to me like a fever dream but I ignored it
I had traced along the borders of life and death for far too long, I knew it as I felt the wrinkled, sovereignty of death's pull grasp upon me but I could care less for within this dance of light and dark I saw it - the core of cursed energy - for a brief moment but that was all I needed!
The chains shackled and latched onto my inner being drawing out my soul without care for the lack of anguish I was in
I rocked my gaze for Haibara's corpse once more with a content look creeping upon my pale face, my state reformed back into rationality that allowed me to speak my last words in sombre fashion, "You're wrong Haibara! I'm going first so live on and guide the young so they don't suffer like us!
And with my final words, the world turned black as the exchange of souls had run it's due course
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"Where am I?"
