1998 Daily Life and Impacts in Panther and Rainbow Part 2

Historically this was an incredibly impactful year for me. To start with, i finally found my moral guidelines. Then, i set my fundamental religious beliefs (as cobbled together as they were). Then i had a drug-soaked start to my spring break and was turned on by how lusty a younger girl, Luna, who was doing drugs with us was. This was followed by falling for my first love, Amanda T., towards the end of the vacation. That was, of course, complicated due to having a girlfriend at the time.

In my original life, even if my life was straightening itself out; i still had to deal with myself and my guilt for all the bad things i had done up to this point. This culminated in my final suicide attempt, which was much like my first. A very poorly thought-out plan to overdose, without enough drugs to make the attempt stick. i did manage to overdose on painkillers during this time, but the result was mostly alternately passing out and puking/dry heaving. Following this attempt, Amanda T. wanted me to limit my drug use, which i took as a request to stop attempting suicide (since that was my view towards non-social drug use). This triggered my self-destructive tendency to morph towards cutting instead.

In this life, i was at a completely different point. Since i had already died and did not get the eternal rest or sleep that wanted from it, i was in no particular hurry to do it again. Instead, i was consumed mainly by worshiping my goddess through sex and impregnating all my willing partners. During spring break, we visited the family of my mom's former abusive boyfriend, Rodney (he's still in prison at this point). We were mainly there to let my mom sell the property in Kansas to them. Since i refuse to date anyone, i would take advantage of a younger brunette named Luna who is insanely horny when we smoke with Rodney's nephews. This culminated in her choosing to become the 3rd mother for my children (a Sagittarius baby), primarily to escape a bad family life.

With the increased funding for public transportation, i could then take the bus and rail from South Panther, Texas, to Tiger, Texas, so my sister could pick me up at a rail station in Tiger, Texas, on the first Sunday night of spring break instead of the Friday towards the end of spring break. i still crashed in the living room of our family friends during the first night so i could enjoy waking up to see Amanda's long legs, developing thickness in her thighs and ass, and her long, beautiful, braided, red hair. Her breasts are currently at the awkward stage of being too big for me but too small for other people, but i already know and appreciate how her body develops in the future.

The first few days i only got to spend time with her after school, and we didn't get any time alone until we went with her friend on Friday night. After we returned, i took advantage of our time alone to be intimate. That started a problem since even in this second life, my passion for her exceeded the capability of one girl to contain. After giving her the plan b (placebo), i explained that both my religious views and business needs expect me to have many children with many women.

This situation took her aback, but knowing that she was reasonable, i described my future company as being too profitable for me to marry and my sex drive already being too much for one girl to manage. Then i talked about the benefits of not dating anyone, and leaving all of my loved ones (especially her) free to date and be with other people. Then i talked about having 3 girls pregnant right now, and hopefully at least 2 more pregnant by the end of the year, and my intentions of having many heirs (preferably female) to take over the many branches of my companies. i then spoke explicitly about wanting at least 2 children with her after she graduates.

The rest of our weekend, we still talked with each other every time other people were around. Hanging out with her little sister, she teased us to just get together already (not knowing we were sleeping together every chance we got). By this point, it stopped being a secret to my mom and her friend that i was sleeping with her friend's niece.

When Amanda's aunt talked to me about my intentions with her, i talked about wanting Amanda to have a couple of babies with me after her graduation to potentially be heirs to my company. She expressed disapproval about me wanting to turn her niece into a single mother, but i had to tell her that men of my generation will do that to almost every girl. Engaged, married, or single; most women in my generation become single mothers.

The real issues are whether the girls will be able to collect child support (not a problem from me), and how much the deadbeat fathers want to interfere in their parenting (not an issue with me either). Then she questioned how much involvement i wanted with my children. i stated, "None when they're babies, limited when they're toddlers, and annual visits with them if their mother wants to participate in summer retreats that double as visitation with "Aunt Adam". That brought up gender and sexually fluid topics, but mostly my dislike of masculine attributes in my description. i'm sure that confuses many, but by 2020, the number of people who refuse to be defined in traditional ways will start to feel more commonplace. i then expressed the desire to have Amanda visit me, my children, and their mothers during the summers from now to let her decide in the future if she wanted children with me too (and so my uncontrollable passion for Amanda can be released as well).

Amanda altered my viewpoint in many other ways as well. Since my love never ended in my original life, i had to adjust my relationships with people that accepted that i was polyamorous (many loves). They had to get that my love never ends, even if lust with my exes stopped being expressed. For me, lust is finite and requires a lot of maintenance; but love never ends or requires anything from each other. That may reverse other people's reality, but it's mine.

Soon after this, we had a dance at school. Originally when i went in a dress, i got suspended for doing so. In this life, they couldn't discriminate against me in this way. For this life, i chose to get a duplicate of my favorite skirt recreated. It has a red layer behind a sheer black layer, with a lacy fringe at the bottom. i paired that with one of my favorite women's shirts; it was a smooth, slinky material (probably some polyester blend) in my favorite color, red. Originally a young girl asked me out just to have a boyfriend at the dance. i told her that i wouldn't date her, but i still danced with her most of the night and gave her and her friends their first kiss and a little mild groping when they invited me into the girl's bathroom. They were still too young for me to let things escalate as much as they wanted.

During April, we had a band contest and i ran into a cute, blond girl with whom i had instant chemistry in my original life. In my original life, she was wearing an excessively tight Calvin Klein shirt on her B-cup breasts. In this life, she seems to be showing cleavage with a sexy shirt from my Labelless clothesline. Since i knew this was a 1-time event, i didn't bother to get her name before leaving her the "plan b" placebo and Ms. Lee's card if she wanted to keep a baby for me.

During this time in both lives, i helped the neighbor's husband (she got me kicked out of school) build his dream welding shop. He had to give me much direction and supervision since i am mechanically inept. He had welded a large metal pole frame during the previous winter and poured the concrete floor shortly before i helped him rivet in the metal sheeting. 

Before the end of the school year, i also had to deal with my mom's boyfriend, Matthew, getting jealous about a skinny, big-breasted blond that was too old for me, flirting with me (behind her boyfriend's back, but in front of Matthew). My mom was in Dallas with my grandmother Eva at the time. Then he blew up when he found out about me (touching in the previous life) fucking his oldest daughter in this life. This time, i responded that he was hypocritical because no regular guy will shoot down a girl if she desires more intimate connections. He also wouldn't have to worry about us being together because i gave her plan b (placebos), and i would be moving to Dallas as soon as i finished taking Driver's Ed.

At this point in my original life, a lot of my friends were being sent to schools for troublemakers due to being present when drugs were used (whether they were used or not). Originally, i got kicked out of school for admitting that i used to use drugs (before spring break) because a parent got involved. Some of my closest friends got kicked out with me. In this life, i also took driver's ed since i didn't face the same suicidal impulses that kept me from driving in my original life.

In both lives, i went with my neighbor's family to Edgefest on May 17, featuring Creed, Fuel, Crystal Method, Everclear, Mighty Mighty Bosstones, Brother Cane, God Lives Underwater, Econoline Crush, Bobgoblin, Days of the New, Our Lady Peace, K's Choice. i enjoyed Fuel, Everclear, the Bosstones, Days of the New, Our Lady Peace, and the Crystal Method.

Towards the end of the school year, Rebekah tricked herself into bearing a (Pisces) child for me. She directed me to come on her sexy ass instead of inside her pussy, and believed the fiction about coming outside not leading to pregnancy. Rebekah wanted to save the placebo i gave her so that her boyfriend could give her a creampie with no consequences instead. Rebekah came to confront me about the placebo not working after she missed her period. i then corrected her misunderstanding and let her know that she was carrying my baby instead of his if she didn't take the "plan b" pill after we had sex. He couldn't get her pregnant if i already have (unless she ends up with fraternal twins). i told her to use Ms. Lee's card to get the paternity test when she delivers.

My goddess wanted to watch a big orgy for my final sex scene with all the girls from the Panther area. i knew i could provide the alcohol to convince even the "straight" girls to participate, but that still left how unrealistic it was for me to come quick enough and recover fast enough to creampie more than 6 of them. i told her i would need a couple of cheats to make that happen.

She petulantly responded with, "What now?" i requested that if multiple partners (more than 2) were involved in an orgy, i would creampie the girls as soon as they came, as long it wasn't sooner than 10 minutes of fucking. i didn't want to come quicker than 10 minutes, and from 45 minutes to 10 minutes per girl should work for that. Then, i requested a quick recovery if more partners were waiting. My goddess accepted the first cheat with no problems since a lot of guys are better at quickies than i am. The second cheat she tied to me licking pussy to recover, but as that is still my favorite sexual activity, i was happy to have the excuse to do it more.

i can't be sure if i managed to convince Sarah that she would be able to have a baby or two with me, and keep raising horses; or if she just forgot to take the "plan b" placebo after our drunken orgy. She is going to give me another Pisces baby. Since she was drunk when i impregnated her, i was worried about our baby being autistic, like my cousin Michael. My goddess assured me that my babies and their mothers wouldn't have issues since that would be less entertaining for her.

Right before the school year ended, i invited a bubbly redhead that is my age, Ava Y., to my fuck house. She had long orange hair, a body and face covered with freckles, and slight curves. She was a cheerleader and played the trumpet. i had considered inviting her earlier, but she was also a horrible gossip. i didn't want her to let all the guys know that i was fucking the sexiest girls that were still approachable. However, once i was ready to move away, and i was publicly fathering multiple children, it wouldn't matter that she knew my slutty sex life. In my original life, she was one of the girls that i assumed may have been too straight to be interested in me. However, in this life, i think she was just waiting for me to make an offer to fuck.

Also, at this time, Riley C. wanted to be intimate with her best friend, Stella, who introduced us in both lives. She couldn't interest her in a direct lesbian situation, so she wanted me to bridge the gap to her desire. i didn't object since she and Pete had already broken up. If i had been looking for a girlfriend, she would have been high on my list. She was a sweet, modestly pretty brunette with a slightly curvier lower body and a pleasantly plump stomach. All things that i tend to prefer.

During the summer, i moved to Dallas to mostly live at my grandmother Eva's house. Keily and Luna had to be adopted to keep our babies, so they moved into my mansion for girls that are devoted to my babies. Leanna had already graduated and moved in with them while taking college classes. Sarah and Rebekah came with us to get used to our annual shared vacation, and i spent the standard month sharing most of my time with them. i visited Kinsley frequently and alternated visits with all my local partners for the rest of the summer. Amanda T. also visited right before Keily was due to deliver my first baby.

i started the school year at the Rainbow School. The building was completed much sooner, with a better budget, and including the building expansions in the initial construction. This allowed all the music-related facilities to be even better separated from the classrooms. Most of my future sexual targets were in band with me, but it took a while to develop their trust in my sexual offers. The only partner that i accepted in the first half of this school year was a busty, thick, Hispanic girl named Chanel V. i remembered her perpetually offering me blowjobs in my original life because i wasn't secretive about my dislike for them. i challenged her to either make me cum with one or accept my cum if she could not. i can't be sure if she wanted to win. Still, she enjoyed taking my cum enough to keep visiting until she graduated in 2000.

Since i knew who the better friends were, i immediately sparked a friendship with Matthew T. and his sister, Ava T., during the first day in the band. His sister disliked how weird i was at first but got used to it enough to develop a crush that would never find fruit since she believes in marriage.

Originally, i got KoRn's autographs on their 4th best CD (follow the Leader). Still, i later gave it away to an ex because it wasn't in my top 3 albums from them (KoRn, Issues, Life is Peachy). i'll abuse my connections to hang out with them after Issues to get my favorite albums signed instead.

The events that i attended were: Radiohead at Music Hall at Fair Park on Sunday, March 29; Pearl Jam at Reunion Arena on July 5; Metallica and Days of the New at Starplex Amphitheater on July 31; the Lilith Fair for Missy Elliott, Natalie Merchant, and Idina Menzel at Starplex Amphitheater on August 1; the Warped Tour for 311, Blink 182, Deftones, Godsmack, Incubus, and Staind at Astro Arena in Houston on August 8; AnimeFest at Omni Dallas on September 4–7; Hanson at Reunion Arena on September 30; Garbage's Version 2.0 at the Bronco Bowl on October 15; Family Values at Fairgrounds Arena in Oklahoma City on October 20; Stabbing Westward and Depeche Mode at Reunion Arena on November 19.