1996 Daily Life and Impacts in Panther 2

After informing my mom about my AdminAll connections, i forced our spring break trip to go back to Oklahoma to take Amtrak from Panther to Fort Worth, then to Indian, Oklahoma, to spend time with my family there and sleep with Sloan and Lyanna one last time. This trip was canceled originally because Matthew's tire fell off the axle on our way there, so i avoided that whole incident.

When my mom tried to make a money grab, i had to shut that down with me "not having direct access to ANY of the company's funds". i told her that i just have access to an expense account that has to be justified and the ability to hire people at compatible companies. She then tried to get her boyfriend a better job, but i shot that down with me not having a compatible business for a mechanic. i did state that i have access to Buick Le Sabres if my sisters can handle driving free "old man" cars, but she had to not tell them that i had control over stuff at the company. Instead, we told them Bill had cars they could use (and replace yearly).

They both accepted it, but my sister Corina bitched about how ugly it was every time she got ready to drive it. i also got her a job at Kitsune's, which she could transfer when she moves in with Aunt Diana (Liam's ex-wife and Robby and Jocelyn's mom) during the summer. She is still a spoiled gold digger, even in this life.

With the legalization of weed, my mom stocked my house with liquor and weed so i could host parties during the weekends. At these parties, i only occasionally allowed Ben, Levi, and a guy named Sloan K. The girls were always allowed when i was there, but typically the girls weren't trying to be outed as being my fuck buddies to my friends. In particular, Melody avoided her brother Levi but was okay with Ben and Sloan K seeing her smoking and drinking at my house.

Most of these "parties" were just hanging out and listening to my YouTube music playlist filled with K-pop, rock, and metal (country, rap, and American pop are rare on the list since i couldn't listen to most of that in public). Ben called out that i had songs he had never heard from bands he knew. i explained that i have access to many pre-release materials due to my friendship with AdminAll's founder. Since Sloan K was there, that "secret" about being an heir was then exposed, so magically, everyone i wasn't friends with was now fake-friendly.

During the band's fundraising season, i refused to do the regular fundraisers. Instead, i offered to fund an orchestra until 2001 (including the teacher's salary and instruments). i also arranged sponsorship (pay to play) to any musician's family if they passed auditions to improve our band. This made the K-pop songs sound better when we played them live. The girls i was sleeping with knew the songs to sing along to some of the songs when people practiced them between games.

During that summer, i originally met three girls at the pool for my sister Juliana's apartment, and they gave me their phone numbers. This time, i approached them. My height in this life was already at the 5'7" (170 cm) i originally capped out at. The blond and redhead gave me their numbers, but the Hispanic girl wasn't interested in me. Originally, i teased the redhead, Kinsley, for her high-pitched voice, but in this life, i asked if she had an interest in working in anime since her voice could be used that way. i focused on her since she was more my type, but her friend, Winona, is interested now. After talking to Winona on the phone for a few days, i met up with her when her family was gone. After a few times together, she convinced Kinsley to meet with me.

As usual, i spent time with Paisleigh during the summer, and she was finally comfortable just enjoying our time together. During this summer, i also worked with my family's painting and drywall business. i helped them sand the wood surfaces. i was terrible at it because i worked too slowly, and i tended to go too far with my perfectionist and OCD tendencies.

By this point, i knew a lot of pretty girls had moved in during my final year here, so i was as slutty as i could be with the girls that i knew. i also invited Leanna, a tall, adorable girl with curly red hair, to visit me at the house by the school. She became a junior this year. i also approached another pretty sophomore girl named Rebekah, who had curly dark brown hair. i also took the chance to satisfy the lust of my "step-sister" Amanda every time we were required to go camping. i also continued being available to vent sexual desire from last year's f*ck buddies that didn't graduate.

During school, even my increased height and weight were still too low to carry the traditional marching drums, but i'm now the section lead for the drums; since i know some trombone as well, i take over the lowest chair when there is no drum part for me to play. During this year, i joined Theatre Arts with my previous favorite English teacher from last year. During this class and lunch, i was able to hang out with 2/3 of my best friends from this time. Ben and Melody's brother, Levi. i also spent weekends with Ben after football games during the next two years. We played a lot of video games and Battle Masters, but in this life, i had the premium version that i had created. Levi is a masculine guy with a haircut like Phil from Pantera. We spent time hanging out at other people's houses, especially when he got a small motorcycle (i can't identify vehicles at all)

During this year, my sister Juliana got engaged. Our uncle Liam also got married this year to a nice, young, and serious girl who was a waitress. They then moved closer to her family in Iowa, and Robby moved with them. i had Ms. Lee transfer him into maintenance in our buildings there and his wife into working at Kitsune's while training her to become a manager. They adopted a teenage girl who had an abusive mom, but eventually, Liam started cheating on his wife with her.

Originally, this was the darkest year in my life. After killing a bird, i realized that i didn't feel anything from it. i also struggled to connect to my feelings, other than my continued suicidal urges. i was lashing out and destructive towards people i cared about, possibly because feeling other people's feelings was more accessible than finding my own. At this point in my original life, i asked to be committed, but my mom refused because of the cost. Suicide attempts were still ineffective, mostly because i wasn't creative enough. Luckily, i was too self-focused to think about routes that could assist a suicide-by-cop situation. My belief in destiny helped my original path toward ending the attempts. In this life, i know that the death i wanted wouldn't exist anyway. Both have the same result of just making the most of the situation i'm in either way.

Due to my reading addiction in my original life, i finally finished reading the bible, and that caused me to also lose faith in that religion. Eventually, i read Kurt Vonnegut Jr.'s Cat's Cradle and decided that religion needed to cater to my needs. i couldn't stay in a religion that gave a person who has little to no moral compass an excuse to be as bad as they want. For the next year, i was an agnostic, leaning towards atheism while researching other religions. Eventually, i decided that following a religion's moral compass is more important than believing in it. This led to me cobbling together a belief system of generally accepted morals with some of the matriarchal components of polytheistic religions.

In this life, the concerts i didn't want to miss this year were: The Smashing Pumpkins/Garbage in Reunion Arena on Sunday, July 24th. i had to skip school the following day to see Tool at the Bronco Bowl on November 7th. On Saturday, November 23rd, i went to see KoRn and Limp Bizkit. i also pushed to attend most of Animefest in Dallas, TX, from Friday through Sunday, November 1st through 3rd.

(author's note: the songs will be chosen later and slotted into the relevant chapters, but you can read the outline of edits in the auxiliary chapters)