RE-INCARNATION

Ella, your words and your actions are divergent, and no, not like the book. I mean they pull in opposite directions as if your brain's narrator and navigator have entirely different ideas about the world. You talk the talk of the valiant protector, yet when push comes to shove, I'm on my own. Over and over, I'm left to my tormentors before they have their fill. My parents are no better, giving me life but keeping me back. It’s like they know something I don’t and when I try to inquire, I am kicked back to the curb. They love me with words, resent me with actions, just like you Ella - actions that slip from them more easily than leaves from the fall trees. So why can't they just let me go? Is it pride? Guilt? Are they confused too? Or do they not see their actions for what they are? Either way I've given up trying to figure them out. I'm just a ball bouncing, appearing free to the casual glancer yet always restrained by a pretty rope. I am confused because I need to gain greater perspective, to take a step back and see the wide-angle version. There is definitely a lot more to see, I need to figure things out I need to get my life together.   My name is Jayden, born in the United States of America but I spent first thirteen years in Antarctica before going back to the states. I've always had several questions in my heart and I went in search for answers. This quest gave me more than I asked, it gave me more answers that brought about more questions. It brought me to reincarnation. I'm pretty sure you're inquisitive too, I plan to share with you but then we have to start from where it all began.   Wondering who Ella is? She's my girlfriend, scratch that, she's my ex who left me because...