Her Name - 5
Once her message popped from the window, time finally resumed again. My breathing somehow became ragged, as if I held my breath for a long time.
Did I really held my breath as I waited?
LittleHunter [tell me yours too]
LittleHunter [my name is Esyllt]
Me [sure]
LittleHunter [strange name right?]
Me [call me 'Ezzie']
LittleHunter [you probably hate it]
Me [nope]
Me [@_@]
LittleHunter [Ezzie...]
Me [to me, it's unique]
LittleHunter [I...]
LittleHunter [like it...]
LittleHunter [Ezzie...]
Me [we even have the same first letter]
Me [I also like ur name]
Me [Esyllt]
Double 'L' it is. Don't mistake it, it's double 'L!'
Esyllt. Double L.
Esyllt. Don't forget!
LittleHunter [Ezzie?]
LittleHunter [I love you, Ezzie.]
Me [yes, it's me Ezzie.]
LittleHunter [<3]
LittleHunter [>__<]
Just as I expected, she also logged out after telling me those words.
Man... I wish I could tell her that I love her too.
I'd mail her my message but it's better if I tell her in personal.
With that, my night's already done since we weren't going to be together for now, so I slept early. Talking of exams, we also have our masteries exam this weekend, how could I forget about that?
"No need to review, I'll pass anyway." With that I cleaned up the food mess on my desk, washed the dishes and slept.
...
The next day.
"You WHAT!?"
Aiden's reaction got a lot of our classmates' reaction but it only lasted for a few seconds. No one's interested in us anyway.
"Yep, I did it. The mood was so good in that place, so I asked her to marry me."
I'm not even sure if it's just because of the music that made her agree to me, but whenever I listen to the BGM at that place and the scenery where the sky islands were connected to each other by a thin line, clouds moved in below us, the never ending blue skies which refuse to become dark... The place she found was really romantic.
I can't help but propose as if I really love her already.
Of course...only in game. Yet these feelings of mine are no joke. Why could I make these poems that could even make my friend here nod in approval?
"Hey. Hey. Hey." Aiden kept snapping in front of me and I was brought back to reality.
"She agreed, then at that same night, I bought us silver rings, a tuxedo for my char, and a wedding gown for hers. Not bad as a requirement, and it felt really epic. The whole server even announced our wedding which was surprising, and the BGM that flooded the whole town almost made my ears hurt but seeing us together walk out of the church on the main town deafened everything else."
"Man. I can't say anything."
"After that, there was also a separate place for a honeymoon which they made a friendly 'Jeju Island' copy."
"Pfft... if that was a real Jeju Island then I can't imagine how the characters would be built. And then?"
"That's it. We took screenshots of that place as we walked and chatted with each other. I..."
"You, what? Don't leave me hangin'!"
"I told her if she really wants to meet me, and she said yes."
"What's with the sad face?"
"Thing is, she's on a country overseas. Near us but still can't. If it was within our country then wherever city she's in, I'll save up the money for travel."
Aiden tapped my shoulder as I munched on my food with great dread.
"If she still likes me over the years, then after I find work... first thing I'll do is buy a two-way plane ticket to their place."
"Which country is she anyway?"
"Secret!"
"Ugh. Fine. Just invite me to the real wedding if you ever meet."
"By the way man, we have masteries exams on the weekend, right?"
With that I changed the topic and we discussed about our lessons before the bell ended break time.
With my usual ninja run towards home, I took a bath this time before I prepared food and the PC.
Grabbing my throne, I noticed it got stuck on the bed sheet and it was followed by the sound of something ripping.
"Crap."
There was a small hole that formed on the bed sheet. Was it that fragile?
Oh well. I made my notes earlier at school so I didn't have to study more tonight for the incoming masteries.
"It's time... to game-----! But not with this loading speed."
...
I was a bit later than usual, and I instead found her already online.
"Shit. Was I too late?"
My hands shivered as I readied them by the keyboard, but I can't type in anything.
"Shit..."
LittleHunter [Ezzie?]
LittleHunter [^__^]
Me [wow]
Me [ur early today]
My hands keep shaking and I'm trying to calm down, but my heart is still beating fast.
LittleHunter [actually, I have a bad news]
LittleHunter [I'm going to US next week]
Me [what's the bad news?]
LittleHunter [forget about me]
Me [we could still talk, right?]
Me [we have email]
Message failed to send.
What the fuck?
Why did she told me to forget about her?
Were all of my efforts gone to waste?
What about my feelings? Our feelings?
Why?
Why do you always log out before I can send a reply?
Does my body know that something bad was going to happen? The quivering of my hands, the cold sweat on my back, my heart slowed down on beating, my chest that felt a heavy pain...
"WHY!?"
I smashed my hands on the desk, and my bottle of milk tumbled sideways. I picked it up and placed it standing once more. Good thing I drink from the cartons directly and not a drop spilled.
*sigh*
"Why?..."
I could only crouch on my seat and hold my legs as I kept refreshing the friend list window.
"Fuck. Why?"
I can't think of anything else, my mind is blank. I even prepared another poem for her, but since she's suddenly decided to part away like this, I could only let this particular work sit without an audience.
"I just knew your name. How could you do this to me!?"
My vision was starting to blur, and it wasn't long before tears finally broke out and my mouth let out small and short cries.