Chapter hundred and fifty four: things we want but can't have.

"Why are you standing so far away from me?" Jamie asked him.

"I am trying to think" Alexander murmured. He was still panting.

"I want you, sweetheart" Jamie was calm but in turmoil.

"I know that, too" He answered in a hoarse voice.

It was unbearable. He hated this. He hated everything.

"Kiss me, Alexander" she demanded with conviction.

"No"

"No? I am…am…I need you" Jamie couldn't believe the height of selfishness the man before her was displaying. It made her furious.

"I am sorry but I can't make love to you before going off to war. It's against the rules and it might get me killed" He lied again.

"Can you…can you put back your clothes on, please?" He asked her.

Jamie reluctantly wore her clothes.

Alexander looked at her, he could see the hurt, the sadness and the terror in her eyes. She was terrified of dying.

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