The Beast's messed mind

I decided to be alone that's why I left them there. I said I need to go somewhere else, that's true but I really don't know where but I remembered my Mom, so I decided to head inside the small garden. Maybe you are wondering why we called it Benevolent Burgeon short for Berngeon? It only symbolizes the generosity that develops so quickly, and she wants me to remember that, to be kind, so she always brought me here when I was a little. She really wants me to be kind every time and to everyone, even others do something bad to me. Mom and her best friend usually staying here when this is still a vacant garden. So when Mom married Dad, he decided to buy this place and build a school and improve this small garden. So I really treasured this garden so much than the bigger one. But after Mom died, he decided to build a garden bigger than Mom's garden for her new slutty bride. Bullshit! Then the big garden which is the Garden of Roses became a gardening club, bigger, more beautiful and lots of students want to stay there than here.

Well, that's a good thing because I can solo Berngeon on my own.

I walk through the hallway, I saw some girls admiring me, and I don't give any fuck about that. Dhazzire Apollo is not a typical guy who falls in love with just some girl. And besides, I don't know how to love anymore, heh I don't know what love is for me since she went away, what's the meaning of it and I don't give any fucking care about it anymore. Those girls just want your attention, not you, they just want to improve their social life and became famous that is what I really hate the most, using someone as a tool. But that thing happened on the rooftop when Sapphire looked at me... I felt the pain I was carrying before.

Tss! Just forget about that.

I'm inside the Berngeon. Finally, some alone time. But then I heard some laughed when I went inside to look who's in here. I saw three girls chatting sitting on the grass.

"Who said you are allowed to go in here, " I asked.

"Oh, you must be Dhazzire Apollo? The famous bad boy in school!" said that woman in the middle, with long dark brown hair. I really hate that when I'm planning something to be alone, unexpected things will come up.

"And you must be Irashelyn Moon?"

"Oh my god! You know me, you remember me!? Or you're stalking me?!" she joked then laughed. I tilted my head and gritted my teeth because of her action.

"I have no time for jokes. And why should I waste my time for a damn fucking slut like you?!" I replied to her while looking into her eyes furiously. These kinds of girls what I really like to push through the walls, it just reminds me of my old man's slutty bride.

"Oh, don't be so harsh. I'm just joking" she laughed and also her bitches, like she did not even get scared at me.

"Why are you so harsh in women? But still..." she stopped and move closer to me "... I love feisty men, like you" she added while holding my tie. I moved her hand out of my tie and looked into her eyes, I moved my eyes down to see her fucking face.

"Women here in Raeve are all bitches and slut"

"Including, Sapphire and her friends?" she asked with a teasing look.

" I don't give any fuck about it, and it's not your concern, just fucking get out of here! Or you want me to throw you away!!" I yelled and looked at them intimately. Two of her friends forced Irashelyn to leave, maybe because those two have brains than this fucking RASHES. Irashelyn smiled at me before they walk away.

Tss! What a slut!

I sat down and lean my back to the fountain. I don't want to remember how I first met her. But lately, when I'm sleeping peacefully before that white lady wakes me up, I had a dream about my mom...

Flashback

"Am I dreaming?" I asked myself. I am in the middle of nowhere. Full of clouds, all white, and huge fog everywhere.

"I'm not dead, right?"

"No son."

I looked at my back and saw mom, standing there far from me. She smiled at me and opened her arms. Without hesitation I ran towards her, wanting to hug her tight.

"Mom? Mom!"I yelled but every time I take a step she's getting farther from me. I run as fast as I can to reach her.

"MOM! WAIT!" I yelled. I just don't understand she did not even move but why is she getting farther and farther from me? I just want to embrace her...

"MOM! PLEASE!! STAY WITH ME!!!" I continued. She began to stop, when I blink she suddenly popped in front of me, I can finally touch her and hugged her but she opened her mouth a little, I smiled because after long years I can finally hear her voice again, I smiled and wait for her to speak in a small mouth she says...

"WHITE LADY!"

"FUCK!? WHE—!?"

I opened my eyes once I heard the word WHITE LADY. The first face I saw, is the face of Sapphire looking at me straight into my eyes. I can't look away, our eyes like glued together. I examined her face, her brown eyes have no emotions at all.

You really reminded me of that girl...

Then I looked down to her lips, like..... No! .... No! Zire! Shut the fuck up! She just looks like her.. nothing more...

"What are you doing?" I asked her while frowning.

"Brian told me that it is the best way to wake you up." She replied and totally with a blank face. I don't have some words to say, though I want to be mad at her but I just can't, I just looked at her. I think her eyes captured me. AND WHAT THE FUCK! ZIRE!?

"Hey! Are you done looking at each other? Or you want to melt, both?" finally Brian spoke and my attention turns to her.

"What!?.. Never mind!" then shakes my head. But... Geez. To not let anyone know that I'm being crazy, I grabbed my bag, placed it on my left shoulder, and head out but this monkey stopped me.

"Hey! Hey! Not so fast! Join us on the rooftop, since your Ire's friend let's lunch together, okay?" offered the monkey, I rolled my eyes and looked back at her.

"What? Why woul—?" I stopped when I saw her fist clenched and it's ready to punch any minute if she heard a wrong answer and gave me the ugliest and creepy smile. Well, the most and very creepiest smile I've ever seen is in my sister. I might be a bad boy like what other people said, but I'm not an asshole to hurt women physically.

"Fine!" I actually don't want to do this, I just want to make it done. Maybe this is my Karma about being harsh to women, huh? Or in my sister? Tss, I looked away to ignore this monkey, but my eyes caught Sapphire and when we made eye contact I looked away.

End of Flashback.

Now thinking of what happened earlier, gives me a puzzle. Like what the hell?! First, there's two-person I am afraid of the most, second, there's a woman who just looks like her and I can't stop thinking about it. I shuffle my hair because of frustration and yells...

FUCK! WHAT IS HAPPENING TO YOU DHAZZIRE APOLLO!?

{Meanwhile at Sapphire's POV}

Now that we are inside our room and it is so noisy, every student here in this room is chatting endlessly. Shakira who is in front of me, moved her head to looked at me.

"Do you think, I'm fit in the music club?" she asked with a worried face.

"Of course! Are you having a doubt?" I asked. She nods nervously.

"Why?"

"Maybe I'm not good enough.."

"Don't say that" I said and put my hand above her left shoulder. Maybe I don't understand why she's worried about it even though her voice sounds like an angel to me.

"You may not notice it in my face, but I'm serious about this. This club is not all about perfectionism and how you are good at it, it's about learning and train yourself to become the best, so don't be afraid to try, if you fall, then get up, if you can't, call us, we always have your back. Besides, you have an angelic voice" I replied and I saw Shakira widened her eyes after hearing what I've said, then after that, she smiled.

"Thank you, Sapphire. I'm glad you're my friend" then smiles even wider.

"You guys look like a kid" I looked to my right and saw Zire wearing his earphones while looking at us in a boring look.

"Wanna join?" offered Shakira while grinning. I just rest my cheeks above my hand watching these two.

"No thanks, I don't wanna be a kid" he replied and turn his face on the whiteboard. Then they continue teasing each other again, and I think they are the one who looks like a kid. After that, Mr. Piasco went in.

"This afternoon you'll be given a time about your chosen club, and I know you already knew about it. So it means no classes this afternoon but you have to go to your chosen club. Now go!" commanded Mr. Piasco and the other students are obviously happy because there's no quiz in his subject but it moves on Monday, and also because there are no classes in two subjects this afternoon especially in Math. Then when we're outside we saw Brian then waved at us then together we head to our chosen club

"By the way, Brian what club did you choose?" asked Shakira.

"Cooking club!" she replied happily while clapping both hands.

"Really!? Maybe you chose that club to eat every time you want?" said Zire, I just realized that he's in our back. Brian looked at him.

"Shut up Zire!" said Brian who looks irritated at Zire.

The Music Club and Cooking club are next to each other so Shakira and Brian are the ones who first saw their clubs. Zire and I walk together to find our club. Silence entered our souls. He didn't talk so and I. What should I say? YES, we're friends but we are still not so close.. and I don't have a topic to say...

"Wait is that thea— I mean drama club?" I said and point those students wearing some costumes inside the room.

"Maybe.." he said bored. As I said, it's the Drama Club and the Karate club is just next to it.

"So, our club is just next to each other, huh?"

"Yeah, I guess I should probably move on. Well, see you later." I said while looking at him, he's tall but not quite but to see his face I need to lift my head. And I'm not that short, but for him to look at me, he needs to bow down a little bit. My height is only in his chin, I guess.

"Wait.." with that said it made me stop when I am going to enter the room. I looked at him and asked What? He's just looked at me with a confused look.

"... Nothing"

What?

{Meanwhile at Zire's POV}

I entered my room instantly then shuffles my hair.

What the fuck Zire!

You need to control your heart! Burry it to your mind, she's not her!! So don't ever.. think she's her.. cause if that's happened...

It's gonna be hard for you to not fall in love with her...