Mental suffering
Hello everyone.
I'll say right away that I have cleverly tricked this chapter too much and not everyone will like it. Please do not throw sticks.
In this chapter, there is drama sucked from the thumb and curves of psychological suffering and hints of romance. In general ... a complete mess.
This is so I looked Heaven and Earth, there is too much suffering in the lore of this story, and in the end, it influenced me while I was writing.
And ... In the end, everything is bad. Not many will like it, maybe no one. But I took a chance to lay out.
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The smell of freedom without trouble, beautiful.
Having escaped from the ill-fated Nangokuren school, whose name I read on the signboard in order to bypass this place a kilometer away, I am happy.
After running through a small forest, I left the property of the school and reached the city, and breathed a sigh of relief.
All I have to do now is to go to the other side of town to come to Tenby School. It will take about an hour if I run at an average pace.
Actually, I can get to school in 10 minutes at my own speed, but I don't want to attract the attention of troubles.
This city is just teeming with crazy people.
If I behave like an ordinary person, then troubles will not come close to me.
"Hey, guy. How are you?"
... Or I thought that troubles would leave me.
While I was running past a school, a little girl with silver hair stood in front of me, jumped over the wall, and in her hands she was holding a wooden sword.
"Why do you want to talk to me?"
Although she is a little girl in appearance, I feel maturity from her.
Therefore, without answering her question, I asked mine.
"It's not polite to answer a question with a question."
"I do not intend to answer the question of a stranger, whom I do not know and see for the second time in my life."
Without a minimum of trust, you can't build a business relationship, as Artoni always taught me. Even if you want to betray someone, you must have minimal trust in that person.
"Are we seeing each other a second time?"
The girl was surprised.
"The first time was when you watched me from the roof. I felt your gaze. "
"Oh-oh. I was discovered. Haha. Excuse me for that time, I looked after my sister then. "
Her turquoise eyes widened in surprise, but she quickly regained her composure and laughed as she excused herself like a small child, scratching the back of her head.
"Certainly. I am not angry, I did not feel any evil intentions from you then. "
She didn't mean to hurt me, so I don't care about her attention.
"Then let's get acquainted. My name is Maya Natsume. Thank you for helping my sister then. "
"My help wouldn't be needed, she could cope on her own, if her strength is like yours. And I am also pleased to meet you. My name is Zeinhard Tamioki, you can just Zein. "
Introducing herself, Maya held out her small hand for a handshake, and I accepted that by introducing myself in return.
It was only when he heard my name, Maya's eyes widened.
"... Tamioki? ... Lord over the sky?..."
Now it was my turn to be surprised. Continuing the handshake, we looked into each other's eyes, expecting action from each other.
A tense atmosphere reigned between us.
Slowly relaxing the handshake, we didn't look away.
"..."
"..."
As a man, I decided to take the first step, breaking the silence:
"Knowing who I am, what do you intend to do? And it was impolite of you to scan my body. "
"Sorry for my manners ... I'm just surprised to see a member of such a clan here."
I don't feel any lies or bad intentions from her, although it's unpleasant that my body was checked.
*Sigh*
[I don't care anymore.]
Today there were so many problems that I have already resigned and I do not care what will happen next.
Looking at a little girl who has two hairs sticking out like antennas twitching. I dropped my hand and stroked her head. It was a shock to her.
"Uh?"
"Be obedient and don't say anything about my clan and me."
Continuing to stroke the surprised girl on the head, I could only ask her to keep everything secret.
I am not a homeless wild animal that would harm an innocent to hide my identity. I am a trained war beast for battle only in a cage.
Having stopped stroking the girl, I decided to leave, but I was abruptly stopped when this little girl jumped onto my shoulders and grabbed my head.
"What???"
"Where did you go? Although I am surprised that you are from that clan, it is impolite to pat a girl on the head so unceremoniously. "
The situation turned sharply, now I am the one who acted impolitely.
"I checked your body to make sure you belong to this clan and it turned out to be true."
"Then ... What do you want?"
Looking each other in the eyes, when she lifted my head, we seemed to hypnotize each other.
"... Nothing ... I was just interested in the guy who won my sister's heart."
Stopping looking into my eyes, Maya jumped off my shoulders.
Even though she said "Nothing," I felt that she was restless and even frightened, but she hides it.
She hides everything in herself and carries a heavy burden on her shoulders.
Once upon a time, I was like that, I understand her. But I will not get into her problems if fate does not want it.
Looking at this fragile little body, on which the weight of grief and responsibility lies like a mountain, people would have a desire to protect and help her. But she will reject help and will continue to carry this mountain with her will.
*Sigh*
"Zeinhard-sama!!!"
"Kkh."
While I was looking at the brooding Maya, I relaxed my guard and something jumped over the fence and grabbed me, hugging me tightly.
"Zeinhard-sama we met again, this is fate."
With my arms and legs wrapped around me, I couldn't breathe because this girl squeezed my face in her chest.
"Aya, you're being rude now."
"Ouch. Sorry, Zeinhard-sama. Hee-hee. "
Letting go of me, the girl stepped aside and hugged my hand, holding it to her.
This girl who showed up so unexpectedly is Aya Natsume whom I met yesterday. But her behavior has changed radically since yesterday when she was shy. (Aya could not sort out her feelings then, as, in the anime, she made a decision after a while.)
"Eh. This girl. "
"Please stop sticking to me."
While Maya sighed, looking at her sister's actions, I wanted to push away the happy girl who sticks to me.
Grabbing the girl by the shoulders, I tried to push her away, but ...
"What's happening?..."
A guy with brown hair ran out of the school gates.
"Let her go! What are you doing?"
Seeing me touching the girl's shoulders, the guy was annoyed and attacked me.
But I dodged his blow and jumped back.
"Masaka, stop. Moron!"
Seeing that the guy was about to attack again, I was no longer going to just stand and watch.
When I was about to beat the idiot, Maya grabbed the guy by the leg and he fell.
"You are acting too unreasonably, he is someone you are not yet able to defeat."
Maya stood in front of the guy and began to knock him on the head with a wooden sword.
"But Maya, he touched your sister."
"She climbs towards him herself. You would have figured out the situation, to begin with. Can't you feel his aura? I saved you, fool. "
As soon as Maya scolded the guy, expressing what she thought, he looked at me and froze.
I'm so annoyed today that this guy almost became a punching bag for me.
A wild desire to beat him escapes from me, putting pressure on him. I chaotically release the combat aura I copied from Kyouki.
(An aura is a volitional manifestation of intent that puts pressure on an enemy and intimidates him.
Not to be confused with the lust for killing, which aims to absorb the enemy into fear and the desire to tear him to pieces.)
*Sigh*
"What a bad day, first problems in Tenby, then I was sent on a flight to Nangokuren School, where I was right in the middle of the battle ... And now, just trying to get to my school, more problems came to me. Do you know how annoying it is? "
It makes me so angry that I forgot about manners.
While I was expressing my displeasure, the three listened to me without taking a step, they were surrounded by my aura pressure and some part of the desire to kill.
Realizing that it is not very right to vent my anger on others, I calmed down and removed the pressure.
"I am very tired today, so I could not keep my emotions under control, sorry. Also, Maya, I ask you to keep the leash tighter... Now, I should leave. "
Having regained my peace of mind, I apologized for showing such a terrible personality trait.
It is unnecessary to be angry with stupid children who have not had time to see life, they are young and stupid. Moreover, this guy acted out of a desire to protect Ayu, he foolishly did not understand the state of affairs, but he acted bravely and boldly, which is worthy of respect.
In a normal state, I would not notice all this at all, but now, it is difficult for me to control myself, because of the melancholy that I saw deep in Maya's eyes.
I remembered the sad times of my life, from which the restrictions of my wild side weakened, in addition, the accumulated stress for today added its share to these events.
In short, I am currently unstable. Any wrong action in my direction can provoke me.
I can feel Cold-Blooded Patience chilling my mind, calming me down, but this is only a small part of the skill. Most of the skill crushes my precepts that want to get out of my control, which is why the effect on me is so small.
"Hey. What kind of fun is going on here? "
Just as I was about to leave, two more people came.
One was a dark-skinned, tall, skinny guy with long dreadlocks, and the other was a guy with tousled yellow hair that stuck out like horns.
Approaching our group, the guy with yellow hair immediately looked at me and came up to me with a smile.
"Souichiro don't do anything stupid."
Maya said when he came up to me.
"Heh. You are not from this school ... I feel you are strong. "
The guy ignored the girl's words. And when he finished speaking, the guy immediately attacked me in the stomach with his fist.
And that was the trigger for me.
I did not shy away, I took a blow to the side of my stomach.
Looking at his fist and the guy's smile ... one limitation inside me broke.
* Bam *
"Kha ..."
One movement of the hand and the guy is stamped into the wall.
"Heh… Ha-ha…. Congratulations. You, cocky bastard, managed to piss me off. "
The thirst for murder began to spread in all directions from me, while I was smiling cheerfully at the guy, and my Ki came out of my body and made my hair move randomly.
I also notice how others on the side shuddered a little, feeling my desire to kill.
Taking a step, I found myself in front of a guy who is holding on to his chest with a face full of pain, but surprisingly, he stubbornly resists my thirst for murder.
"You are strong in spirit. If you don't lose consciousness further, you can be proud of yourself. "
Making my thirst for killing thicker, I raised my left arm and flexed my muscles, flexing my fingers like the paw of a beast.
"Path of Total Destruction: Paw of the Apocalypse."
I decided to apply one of the strongest styles I know of, one of the seven paths, the path of destruction.
""STOP ...""
A tall African-Japanese man and a brown-haired guy shouted in unison.
* Bam *
When I hit, my hand went about a centimeter from the guy's head and made a hole in the wall.
Surprisingly, the guy just closed his eyes and shrank, but did not lose consciousness.
* Bam *
Moving my hand and demolishing another three meters of the wall, I did not notice any changes in the guy's behavior, so I lost interest.
Having removed my lust to kill, I began to dust off my shirt and noticed that I was not wearing a jacket.
[Heck. I forgot to take it from Ayane.]
I'll have to put on a spare jacket.
"I ... I ... Alive?"
"Of course alive, idiot ..."
While I was dusting my shirt, Maya chastised the yellow-haired guy.
"... If he wanted to kill you, you would die from the first blow."
It's true, if I wanted to kill him, I wouldn't play with him. Now I just made it clear to this guy what to think before attacking someone.
"I couldn't contain my irritation, sorry. But it came as a surprise to me that he withstood my compressed lust for murder. Although he hits weakly, his spirit is strong. "
Of course, it would be possible not to apologize, but my fault is that I broke loose and let the wild part rule me.
While there are some positives, I am completely stress-free and completely stable.
"Who are you?"
Looking at me, asked the Afro-Japanese.
"OU. Where are my manners. Let me introduce myself. My name is Zeinhard Tamioki, 1 year of Tenby Academy, but please just call me Zein. "
Once I got rid of the annoyance and stress, it became so easy for me.
"Tenby Academy? Only girls study there. "
Looking at me, said the African-Japanese.
"Nope. This year the academy has become common. "
Stopping hitting the yellow-haired guy, Maya got into our dialogue. And I just nodded at her words and asked her:
"Why didn't you stop me when I scared him? He could lose his will from fear. "
"He's special, he wouldn't have lost anything."
Maya spoke confidently with her arms folded.
From the battle with him, I noticed that he does not have any skills at all, he is like a blank slate with potential, but it will take a long time to grow this potential.
"I see ... Anyway ... Take my phone number ..."
"Hmm ... why?"
"If you need help."
"…Okay…"
After thinking a little, Maya still took my phone number.
For some reason, the melancholy deep in the girl's eyes is unpleasant to me. I would not want her sadness to grow further, I do not want her to become like me in the past and finally "cracked", having lost all the meaning of life, as I once did.
For this reason, now, after thinking a little, I decided to get into her problems. I don't want to see my copy.
Looking at the clock on the phone, I discovered that the time was already 11:37, so I hurried to leave without being distracted by anything else.
"It was nice to meet you. See you."
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"Zein-sama wai..."
But before Aya could finish, the black-haired guy disappeared.
"No ... I didn't have time to tell him about my feelings."
Their meeting flew by fleetingly, she only managed to hug him in a fit of joy.
But as much as she wanted to meet him again, she understood that it was unnecessary to pester him when he was angry. For this reason, she patiently waited for her chance to speak to him ... but he disappeared.
"Maya, who is this guy?"
Masataki Takayanagi had a serious expression as he looked at the destructions Zein had shown.
"He introduced himself and you heard his last name."
Hearing Maya's calm words, Masataki widened his eyes and froze in shock.
"Just ... don't tell me that he is from that clan ... is he the same monster as that person?"
"No ... Zein is much weaker ... He doesn't even have a tenth of that guy's strength."
With a little thought, Maya could only draw such conclusions from the scan of the guy's body.
"Even so ... he's still abnormally strong."
"His body allows him, but in terms of Ki, he is only a martial arts student."
"Zein-sama is not weak."
While Maya and Masataki were discussing their new acquaintance, Aya intervened in their conversation.
"Did you see something?"
Maya cannot see what Aya sees, so she consults with her sister, but she can understand the strength of a person by touching him.
"Yes. There are two things inside it. The first is something creepy that has grown like a spider web and it beats like a heart. And the second thing is strange and unusual, something is enclosed in him, as if in a chain, but it recently escaped when he got angry, and then it was again planted in a cage... I also saw a cloud in it. "
"Well, the cloud is their family trait... But the other two things are really strange. "
Maya pondered what her sister said, that person had only the golden Ki element and a cloud along with the awakened meridian star of his clan. But Zein is strange for her.
"If he's from that clan, then why didn't he use family techniques like that guy?"
This question from Masataki made Maya think harder.
"I don't understand what you are saying, but from what I can see, he is a monster. How and how long will it take for us to defeat him? "
While the trio was brooding, Bob Makihara helped his friend up and asked earnestly.
"Yeah ... Kh ... Damn it ... I'll beat him."
Holding his chest, Souichiro Nagi said.
"Useless. You can't unless you take it seriously and put your lives on the line. "
Masataki was straightforward in his response, he personally knew that he could not handle this guy now.
"After a year of continuous training, you can do it."
Maya teased Souichiro cheerfully as always.
"I wouldn't be so sure. Something strong grows in him, ready to destroy at any moment. "
Unlike her sister, Aya was serious and her skin turned pale.
"Aya ... Aya ... Stop. Stupid."
"Aya-san!"
Taking an adult form, using the body-changing technique, Maya punched her sister in the head, bringing Ayu out of her trance while Masataka screamed in panic.
"Have you seen anything else?"
"Hah… Nothing special, I just saw the tattoo and thought. Apart from the black tattoo, I have not seen anything else. "
While supporting her weakened sister, the girl was curious to know what she could not see.
"Tattoo? How did she look?"
"Like an intertwining of sharp lines."
Leaning over, Aya started trying to draw the tattoo, but for some reason, she couldn't get it right and the drawing turned into chaos.
"I can not."
"Then don't give a damn, better get some rest."
As much as Maya was interested in Zein's abilities, she would not risk her sister.
Pressing Ayu to her, Maya began stroking her head, but then stopped abruptly. She remembered recent events ... how Zein stroked her head with warmth and tenderness. From these memories, a current went through her body.
And his sad eyes, with which he sometimes looked at her, were reflected in her soul. She had a little desire to rely on this guy, and this desire grew stronger the longer she thought.
'…. Okay… I'll try to trust again… for the last time…'
It was a difficult choice for her, but she seemed to be pushed to such a conclusion by a gentle hand.
Her heart was pounding quickly, and the warmth that she felt in her soul seemed to take off her oppressive burden.
A small ray of light appeared in her dark, cracking soul.
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Using movement techniques, I quickly ran and jumped across rooftops, pausing for a moment to create momentum and accelerate myself. Also, using qigong techniques, I controlled my center of gravity and "reduced" my body weight.
From the outside, it may seem that I am just a shadow that appears for a moment and then disappears.
It seems to me ... that ... I seem to be running from problems, and they are unable to catch me.
[Worldly things are short-lived, everything material can be destroyed. Only beauty is eternal and unique. Beauty is the engine of life and soul. As long as there is something beautiful, it makes sense to live ... The rest ... is just an insignificant phenomenon. Craving for beauty is the only important thing in life. ]
Jumping over the rooftops, I recited my mantra, which calms my mind and removes any connection with the outside world.
Now I don't care at all about the troubles in the neighborhood or their attention to me. I just want to get rid of the memories of melancholy and sadness in Maya's eyes that are imprinted on my mind.
At such moments, photographic memory and the ability to remember everything are enemies, not friends.
Just remembering everything that you see, it can affect you in different ways, which is why I rejected all emotions because they cannot be trusted.
When I realized the uselessness of emotions, I copied Artoni's business mask and put it on, I remembered and reproduced his emotions and habits exactly. As long as the mask reproduces the emotions that I copied, I can continue to be empty, this is my salvation.
Always living under the false mask of another person's emotions, just playing a role, this is what I want and what helps me.
But when I came into this world, my mask began to crack and split from the unusual events taking place and therefore I panic. My emotionless essence cannot understand what is happening, and in Artoni's emotions, there is no answer to the feelings that are pressing on me now.
A weapon should not possess emotions, it should only be able to destroy ... and wear a good mask so as not to frighten people.
Therefore, reading the mantra, I restore the mask and hide everything new in the far corner of my consciousness, returning my former self.
Artoni's business mask for appearance, an emotionless inner essence that wants calmness, and a sealed wild essence of a killing machine that wants to destroy, it the components of which I am made.
Recovering the mask, I cleared my mind of everything that affected it.
Jumping over the rooftops, I reached the end of town and arrived at the park in front of Tenby Academy. The cherry blossoms were still blooming here, and the pink leaves danced with the wind, whirling in an exhilarating dance.
This is a beautiful picture that I immediately remembered.
[Only ... The only value in life ... is ... beauty.]
(Zein's mask has been cracking all the time since the beginning of the story, but the meeting with Maya, inside which Zein saw his former self, seriously hurt him and shattered part of the mask. His long-blocked true emotions awakened, but he again abandoned them and hid himself behind a mask.)
Walking slowly through the park, enjoying the peace, tranquility, and beauty of nature, I reached the gates of Tenby School.
Looking at the gates, there was a struggle in me.
Is it worth going back there?
Maybe it's better to leave?
Dissolve from the human world.
Such decisions fill my mind, but along with them, the figure of a miniature blonde appears in my mind, making it all the more difficult.
*Sigh*
"Escape ... it is no longer a desire for calmness. This is cowardice. Inres Fonreid, you have never been a coward,... the weapon is not afraid,... it just goes into battle ... "
Taking a step, I approached the school gates.
"... Zeinhard Tamioki, as the will of the weapon of the past, must also only go forward. Not having the right to swerve anywhere. "
Jumping over the gate, I took out my phone and looked at the time. It was now 12:26 pm and the medical examination was probably over, so now it is my turn to undergo this examination.
But where does this medical examination take place?
[Would he really get used to wandering all over the school?]
"ZEIN ... KU ... N."
While I was solving such a difficult dilemma, I heard a voice that sent a chill through my body.
"D-Director ... Are you in a bad mood?"
The one to whom the voice belonged turned out to be Rokujo Minori. As she walked with a smile, flexing her fists, dark miasma emanated from her.
"Ha-ha. How did you guess? Now guess who I'm so angry about. "
"Um ... Because of me?"
"What a smart boy ..."
Approaching me, the directress grabbed me by the collar and dragged me along.
"Do you know how many problems you caused? ... I have already been informed that you visited the Nangokuren Academy and destroyed the school property. It's good that they did not demand compensation, otherwise, I would have beat you ... "
[Heck! I was revealed.]
But Minori didn't stop there and, quickening her pace, continued:
"... Then my heart almost stopped ... And now, they called me from the Todo Academy and said that you destroyed half of their fence ... But this time you were also lucky, they also did not demand compensation ... You are so lucky to escape from -under my fist ... "
Listening to her speeches, I directly felt her anger, from which I got a cold sweat down my spine.
I am not afraid of death, but this woman is terrible in anger.
"... Boy ... Can you imagine what headache I had to go through hearing about your antics? ..."
"I have no idea…"
"Then I'll explain to you ... I was reprimanded and ... in general ... it's good that they only called to find out why our student destroys their property and walks around the territory of their school ... But don't give a damn about it ... More, I was worried about you so that you would not be crippled, idiot ... What would I do if my student got hurt? ... "
[So this woman was originally concerned about my safety? And she gets angry for that reason.]
It is unusual for someone to be worried about me, especially unusual on the part of a person I only got to know yesterday.
"... Do not do this anymore ... As a principal, I cannot let my students get into trouble."
"Of course ... I'll try."
Looking at Rokujo Minori's back, I smiled, I felt her sincere concern.
My mask cracked a little again, but the heat coming through the cracks was nice.
Expressing all her displeasure, Minori dragged me in silence until we got to some office.
Opening the door, the directress threw me inside the office.
"When you have passed the medical examination, come into my office."
* Bam *
After saying a little sentence, Minori closed the door and I was left lying on the floor.
"What a hot-tempered but caring woman."
Having said the words in silence, I had no intention of getting up off the floor.
"Ara ~ Ara ~. She really is so ... "
Hearing a gentle voice and an exciting phrase, I froze, not believing my ears.
"... Get up ... If you lie on the floor for a long time, you will get sick."
The gentle female voice was caring, it gave warmth.
I became interested in the owner of the voice and lifted my upper body, and when I turned around ... I froze.
A beautiful woman was sitting in front of me on a chair with a mug of tea in her hands.
She is a tall mature woman with a perfect slim body and huge breasts ... she is curvy in all the right places. She has long azure hair and light brown eyes. Her skin is soft and white, I can even see the illusion of the glittering stars around her. She was dressed candidly, she had a short black tight skirt, a pink T-shirt with a large neckline, and a white robe.
This is a lovely and charming woman.
... Just looking at her, my heart stopped. I was amazed at her beauty.
"Are you okay?"
While I was sitting with a stopped heart, a beautiful girl came up to me and squatted and brushed her azure hair behind her ear.
This simple yet elegant act ... was perfect.
* Tu-dun ... *
Looking at the girl up close, my stopped heart made a loud thump that spread across the room.
* Tu-dun Tu-dun Tu-dun Tu-dun Tu-dun Tu-dun Tu-dun Tu-dun *
Immediately after the first beat, my heart beat faster and harder, ringing throughout the room.
Very quickly, my heartbeat reached 70 beats per minute, and then it reached 90 beats and was not going to stop:
100 beats per minute;
200 beats per minute;
300 beats per minute;
350 beats per minute.
* Tu-dun Tu-dun Tu-dun Tu-dun Tu-dun Tu-dun Tu-dun Tu-dun *
In the room, you could only hear the sound of my pounding heart, which was about to burst from my chest.
An ordinary person would have died long ago, but not me ... But I also cannot stop it, I cannot control this muscle.
I don't understand… I don't know why… but looking at this woman… several unexpected words for me are spinning in my head, and my mouth… as if my mouth itself wants to say these words.
Looking into the eyes of the surprised girl in front of me, stopping the beating of my heart, I said loudly:
"Marry me."
I don't know the reason ... but only these words filled my head.
* Crackle *
I felt my mask crack again ... Now, it is 9% cracked. This was due to the fact that I showed my true feelings and showed dormant emotions.
In silence, the girl and I looked into each other's eyes.
... And suddenly she quickly blushed and dropped her mug of tea.
"You ... you ... what are you talking about?"
Cutely covering her face with her hands in embarrassment, the girl panicked and turned away.
"I am completely serious, you have won my heart."
I do not know what love is, but I am driven by hormones, instinct, and a craving for beauty.
I don't want to let go, such a perfect woman. Although she is not perfect like a goddess who chose her appearance, adjusting to my tastes, but she makes my heart flutter. This woman is perfect, I am drawn to support and protect her, she is like a delicate flower that I want to take care of.
"Yo… You can't make decisions so quickly… and… and propose a w-wedding… when we first met."
The girl seemed to have steam coming out of her head as her eyes darted about the room. She didn't understand what was happening at all.
Seeing her reaction, I know that I must take the first step.
Getting down on one knee and stretching out my hand to the girl, I smiled gently.
"Then let me introduce myself to bring us closer, my name is Zeinhard Tamioki ... will you accept my marriage proposal?"
Looking into her eyes, I spoke as seriously as possible.
Seeing my determination and attitude, the girl calmed down, although she was still a little flushed.
She took my hand and said embarrassedly:
"I am Aki Nijou, the school nurse ... And about your proposal ... I ... I will think ..."
After quietly finishing her sentence, she shyly looked away.
Helping her to get up, I was glad even this outcome.
Sooner or later I will have to marry, I do not know when the goddess will come out of captivity, but I need to continue the race.
Maybe in the process, I will understand what love is, but for now, I am dependent on its ideal beauty.
Having calmed down, Aki sat down at her desk, and I began to take off my outerwear, shirt, and pants.
After undressing, I went through the usual procedures, examinations of vision, weight, height, nerve reactions, and finally heart rate pressure.
Now my pulse is back to normal. But if I want to, I can again speed up my heart.
It's not difficult for me, a martial artist must be able to control every muscle.
Finally, Aki looked at my body and her brow furrowed.
"Where are there so many scars and muscle tearing marks?"
Touching my athletic body, she gently stroked my small scars.
"The consequences of a simple workout."
"This is not good…"
There was sadness on her face as she touched my scars.
There are quite a few scars on this body, but the precepts are unable to remove them and they will always be. Although the precepts are capable of healing wounds, they remember the structure of the host's body after birth, they repair wounds focusing on the state of the body when they were born. The precepts will try to normalize the work of the body, relying on the feelings of the owner, but they will not remove external damage in the form of scars, because they do not interfere with the owner.
Therefore, these scars are with me for life.
Continuing to run her fingers over my body, Aki settled on my abs.
"Tighten your muscles, I need to test their performance."
The formerly embarrassed girl was now serious.
"Are you sure?"
"..."
She looked into my eyes, not intending to retreat.
"Got it ... Sensei."
When I tensed my muscles, my athletic body changed dramatically, the muscles usually hidden under the skin showed themselves, embossing my body.
"Oh god…"
Looking at my body in surprise, Aki exclaimed, covering her mouth with her hand.
"... What have you done to yourself? ... What have you been through?"
As a doctor, she understands very well that such muscles cannot be easily obtained.
To get such muscles, you need to go through hell ... No ... Not even that ... From the memories of the guy and my own, I can confidently say that the training was worse than hell.
Battles with bears to train your reaction, battle with a wolf to train agility, stance under a waterfall to train your will, spine, and premonition by shortening from objects falling from the waterfall. And this is only the beginning, it only gets worse.
Of course, some of my workouts and the guy were different, but the general essence is the same ... suffering.
These are unpleasant memories.
Turning my attention to Aki, who was looking sadly at my body, I heard a crackling sound. My mask cracked again.
"As I assume, the medical examination is over, in which case I ask for the opportunity to leave."
Although I am interested in this woman, I do not want to completely lose my mask. I noticed that the cracks are no longer able to heal.
It scares me.
Taking my clothes, I began to dress.
"Stop ..."
As she watched me dress, Aki could only say one word.
"If you are worried about my condition, then you should not, although I am pleased with your attention. But I feel great. Better instead ... think. I am still waiting for your consent ... sweet lady. "
Smiling tenderly at the embarrassed girl, I left the medical room.
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Watching the guy's departure, Aki could only look at him sadly.
She was sad that he had brought himself to such a state. As a doctor, she understands that he went through constant pain. Constantly tearing and repairing muscles is terrible.
Being very kind, Aki does not want anyone to suffer, so she became a doctor, and for this character trait, her Maken was chosen.
[I have to stop him ... Accept the offer ...]
Such a thought appeared in her head and from this, she blushed.
"What am I thinking ... he is only a student."
Grasping her hot cheeks, the girl tried to calm her thoughts.
"Such an unexpected wedding proposal ... too quick ... we need to get to know each other first ..."
She contradicts herself, her thoughts now in chaos.
Aki has long dreamed of getting into a relationship and getting married, but put off it all the time and is ultimately still single.
And now the new student told her with confidence what she wanted for so long, so the girl does not know how to react. Her thoughts are confused.
"W-what ... to do? How can I answer? "
There's a fight going on in her, on the one hand, this is her chance for family life, on the other hand, the fact that the one who proposed to her is a 16-year-old boy and her student.
"..It needs time ... we need to get to know each other better ... And need to ask Minori for advice."
In the end, Aki was able to come only to such a way out of her problem, and advice from a friend will put an end to her solution.
Determined to act this way, Aki lifted her mug off the floor, but suddenly froze as she stared at the chair Zein had been sitting on recently.
Remembering how she touched his body, the very sight of his body, and his appearance, the girl blushed, it seemed that steam was coming from her head.
"... Maybe ... he's not a bad option ... he's calm and quiet ... Wait ... No, no ... he's younger than you Aki."
The struggle within the girl began again.
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(I would be a sinner if I did not add a romantic line with Aki Nijou. You need to act directly with this girl, she does not understand the hints at all. Only by telling her directly about your true feelings, she will begin to think about what to do and how to act.)
After leaving the medical room, I went to the director's office and recited a mantra. But it didn't help this time and the mask was still cracked.
I am not clear why my mask cannot recover now. It's like an invisible force is preventing my mask from patching up the cracks. Through the cracks, other people's feelings make their way deep into my soul and my sealed feelings and emotions are awakened, not allowing them to be sealed again. I do not understand what's going on. (At the end, I will explain in detail what this "Artoni Mask" is and why I did not talk about it before but decided to add it just now.)
Today is driving me insane.
I'm sure I need urgent psychological help and the only being who knows me best is the goddess. I have to ask her what to do with this.
Only she can I trust completely.
When I got to the director's office, I opened the door and immediately said:
"Sorry for bothering."
"O. And here you are, a splinter in one place. Now all the problems are assembled. "
Hearing Rokujo Minori's rude greeting, I could only smile politely.
[... But her words about other problems.]
Besides Minori, who was standing at her desk, there were 4 other people in the room. Here is a middle-aged man with stubble on his face, orange hair, and gray eyes, whom I do not know, Inaho, Haruko, and Takeru.
[The last three, really a problem.]
"Don't stand in the doorway. Sit down already. "
Minori hurried me to sit down while I scanned the room. Taking an empty seat on the couch, I began to wait for an explanation of why I was here.
"Long-haired guy. Do you see a piece of iron on the table? Put your hand in it so that we can determine the type of your Maken. Actually, this should happen in the medical room, but we didn't have time to wait for you, we already had several other problems. "
When she finished speaking, the directress looked at Takeru, which made the guy shrink a little.
"How rude this is not a piece of the iron, but my ingenious invention."
"I am truly a brilliant creation."
When Minori finished speaking, the man began to refute her words and he was supported by an iron cube on the table, speaking in the rude voice of a robot.
"Anyway, stick your hand in this identifier."
Without further ado, I did as Minori said and I stick my hand inside the cube.
"Beep Beep. Identification error. Mistake ... WHY THE FUCK I CAN'T FIND A SUITABLE MAKEN AGAIN? "
"See, Gen, your device is again unable to understand anything."
"Instead of making fun of me, you better think about what's going on. We got another person for whom we could not identify a suitable Maken. "
While the iron cube, with great self-importance, was in anger, Minori and the man argued.
"Ehh. We now have three problems the problem is squared.. "
Minori looked at me with displeasure.
Boy, you too will have to wait a month until I make a suitable Maken for you, as well as this guy with glasses.
A man named Gen pointed to Takeru.
"O? Takeru, you too? "
"Yeah."
"I too!"
As I spoke to Tucker, Inaho raised her hand cheerfully.
"A month ... Yes? Well, okay, I'll wait. "
"Boy, you're an idiot? You do realize that you will have problems with self-defense? You have recently done the problems in the schools of martial arts and miraculously remained intact. "
Grabbing my ear, directress began berating me.
"I have? The problem with self-defense? You are the very wrong director. "
Releasing my Ki and aura, forcing air currents to rise, I have demonstrated my strength.
Feeling my aura, which puts pressure on everyone in the room, Minori was surprised.
"What!? You are a user of martial arts? ... Although this explains why you are intact after impact Himegami and your normal state when you returned from an adventure ... That's just without Makena you will not be able to take part in the battles. "
"It's even good."
I'm glad that I will not fight ... but it's only for a month.
"Hah. Okay, go, you are free. "
Sitting on the table, Minori covered her face with her hand and gestured for us to leave as soon as possible.
As soon as we left the office, we did not utter a word and went out into the street where sat on benches.
Free sitting on the bench, I spread my arms and legs to completely relax the body. This is the long-awaited rest.
Today I managed to: spy on the girls, fly a few kilometers away, join the faction battle, make new friends, meet a possible copy of the past self, still find acquaintances, suffer psychologically, to make a marriage proposal, become a problem squared.
Today I have made so many achievements, so I demand rest.
"Zein."
"A?"
While I was lying, Tucker sitting on a nearby bench started talking to me.
"The director said that you were a user of martial arts. The martial arts are different from Maken? "
"I have no idea. I enrolled in this school, not knowing that she was abnormal. I do not know what Maken. But martial arts is all the same as what is written in books. You use fighting techniques and to increase their destructive power are using Ki. "
Looking at the blue sky, I was answering the guy's question.
"That overwhelming feeling that appeared in the cabinet is it because of Ki?"
"Not. It was an aura, a manifestation of combat intent. But Ki raised the wind in the room and made my hair move. "
"I see ... Then how strong are you?"
"I …"
"Zein is very strong, able to punch through a stone wall with his bare hands."
As I was about to reply to Tucker, Inaho merrily got into our conversation.
She probably faked a blow, but I didn't see it, I'm still looking at the sky.
Although she only described the time when this body was 13 years old.
"Well, something like that ... If you, Takeru, want to become stronger with the help of martial arts, then drop this idea, you do not have the necessary will and talent ..."
"Zein is cruel!"
"Calm down Inaho ... He's telling the truth."
Looks like I pissed off Inaho, but Takeru calmed her down, there was self-irony in his voice.
"… You didn't let me finish. Although Takeru is not suitable for studying martial arts, he has a different power that he must awaken himself ... I'm serious, you have power, find an approach to it. And forget about the martial arts ... it is full of suffering, pain ... and death. "
"He said it right, martial arts are no joke ... Just wait for your Maken."
When I finished speaking, I heard Haruko's voice supporting my point of view.
* Knock *
"Ay."
"Takeru-sama."
Hearing the sound of the blow and the cry of pain from Takeru, I looked away from the sky and watched what was happening. It looks like the girls playing nearby kicked the ball hard, and it flew into the face of the guy.
"Ah, just not again. And what's that? Are the clubs recruiting new members? "
While Inaho was returning the ball to the girls, a flyer also flew into the guy's face.
His face is like a magnet.
"Everyone at Tenby Academy must be in a club."
While eating the cookies, Inaho said.
"Even if there is complete freedom, do they still force you to go to clubs?"
[What I hear sounds unpleasant.]
"Inaho, which one did you choose?"
"I want to go to the same club as Takeru."
The guy was thrilled by the girl's answer, and a romantic atmosphere spread around them.
I didn't want to listen to them, so I turned off my hearing and continued to look at the sky further.
Silence is much nicer.
Sitting in silence for several minutes, I suddenly felt my name is pronounced, so I returned my hearing.
"Zein ... Zein are you coming with us to watch the clubs?"
As it turned out, it was Inaho calling me.
"Not. Go without me ... I don't want to interfere with your date. "
"D-date?"
Haruko reacted too emotionally as always, blushing. But this does not bother me much, I began to look at the sky again.
"Good. I'll see you Zein then. "
"Yeah. Good luck to you."
When they left, I was left alone. And there was only one thought in my head.
[Goddess, come back soon.]
I don't want this mental suffering, worries, and worries anymore. I want to continue to be a quiet person in the shadows, speaking only when necessary. I want to continue to drag out an imperceptible existence.
I don't want to feel these incomprehensible feelings and emotions, I don't need someone else's care, I don't want to feel warm.
Why is fate making me suffer again?
Didn't she have enough of my mental suffering?
[... I feel that I'm going to go crazy like when I was 10 years old.]
From so many questions, my mind is in chaos. I need a rest.
Closing my eyes, I fell asleep, suppressing all my thoughts and dividing them to the far corners of my consciousness, waiting for the arrival of my salvation.
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A few words of the author:
I think many people have a question: "What's going on here?"
This is my unexpected ... maybe idiotic .... the idea of the development and growth of the hero.
Let's start from the beginning of the story, the protagonist from childhood was raised as a thing and a weapon. But he is a genius and understands everything, for this reason, he "crack" psychologically. (I'll talk about this in the next chapter)
He hides his true feelings under the mask, the mask of Artoni, the man whose slave he was.
To put it simply, Artoni's Mask is a psychological barrier that protects the protagonist from external influences and suppresses his true feelings. Artoni's mask is based on Artoni himself, the protagonist remembered his emotions and put on himself as a mask.
Under the mask is a wounded creature that does not want to get close to people.
He lived in the past world of the same type and quietly - school, fights, murders, and sleep, that was his schedule, and now, finding himself in a new world, so many unusual things fell on his psyche which he never felt, that he became unstable.
The weapon is trying to understand itself.
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In the end, it's terrible, right?
I tried to do a lot of events in one day and here's the bottom line.
If you made it to the end: Thanks for reading.
In the next chapter, I will try to reveal the state of the hero.