POEM #1

Poetry #1: Reason

You are the reason why I'm happy,

You are reason why I feel complete,

You are the reason behind those sweet smiles,

the reason behind those eyes.

You are the reason why i'm feel complete,

yet, you are also the reason behind those tears.

Behind those tears that gives me shit.

Behind those fake smile whenever you're around.

Yeah, maybe I'm strong in front of others.

But you don't know how I felt incomplete those days.

How I felt miserable those days,

How I felt pained those days.

Yes, maybe you see me smiling,

But, deep inside of those smiles is sadness.

Behind those eyes is sadness.

Behind those act is just a lie.

Maybe I can call myself as the "Great Pretender of the Year"

I keep pretending that i'm okay,

I keep pretending that it's alright.

I keep pretending that it's just part of my past.

But f*ck it's almost 6 months when you left me clueless.

6 months of hoping that someday you will be mine... again.

6 months of hoping,

6 months of hiding,

6 months of acting.

And 6 months of pretending.

Yet, after 6 months. No words or explanation... WHY?

After 6 months, No communication.

After 6 months, No confirmation.

Not until now, now that reality slap me.

And I believe this is what we called "REALITY"

August 15, 2017

4:08pm