5 Angles

I was in the corner of my room.

It was dark and warm, but for some reason, I felt cold.

Time was not prominent or persevering around me.

Hope seemed to do little, and joy seemed even more lost.

A pentagon that kept me locked yet protected me from what it defined as « harm. »

A world that was made from love, harvesting from deception

Five walls that keep me surrounded from the truth

14, 9, 14, 5 runs and spins across my mind; never a day or night have I awake with anything but white clean 149145

To be buried alive is pain that can't be categorized as pain or suffering.

The same as

To be forced to shut up when knowing so much

You are tolerating something that you can but won't explain.

Or maybe to lay low and accept so that you can pass another day not just physically but mentally "fine."

That pain is also hard to explain cause later on, you are numb to all the effects, yet your heart still pierces with the same agony that seemed to have led you there.

One of the five I have failed to scrutinize gravely, but not by mistake.

Five walls that keep me from the truth, a pentagon, as I explained

The only birds that I'm allowed see I can only see are ravens.

They have black wings, feathers, and eyes but have yet to see the color of their tiny, petite hearts.

In my dream, I walked on a rope and landed on the floor with scattered numbers of… 1176…1716…6711…1617…1167…

Completing the puzzle,149145, yet again.

To not look at the surface, but the message they have sent 057

We are all committed to fear in any form or shape possible; it is essential to fear to live.

I can't help but imagine If I had the power…

The power to change, not adopt

The power to speak, not hide

The power to not fall back but strive.

Could I, if I had the capability

Yet can't

All my voices do nothing but jeer against me,

The very few that are left of my existence and worth as a human being,

Depleting. every. Moment.

"To rid a monster takes another to chase out."

2 of the five that I have yet to complete

Can I keep going…?

That is neither my decision as it is yours if you have not yet caught on

But theirs

"When you live in a world full of hate, lies, perpetrators…

Then it's only fitting to expect the very things it can offer…

MISCHIEF"

"I am the victim."

It is only then do you realize that the monster is the reflection you stare upon no matter how many mirrors, walls, or waters you gaze upon…you

Three of the five are not yet defined as "official."

I would be lying if I said I was okay, which I am, but not in that way.

I can not complete each side of the Pentagon because I still do not fully understand the "truth."

I would be lying if I said that I was a part of the Pentagon because the Pentagon is now me.

My consciousness is protecting me from what it defines as harm.

My morals are no longer wavering or strong.

That part of me is now gone.

I cannot explain why I cannot complete this Pentagon

I cannot complete it because I don't know the ending.

Neither the cause

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