78《Drop these feet/lies!》

I got ready and went to the bathroom.

The feeling of the water running down my head reminded me of something.

Oh water always relaxes my body.

While a few memories were attacking my brain, I stood frozen under the water.

"What do you know?! I've got nothing left now!"

Before, I paid attention to the voice echoing in my brain.

"I have no mother! I have no father! I have no one!"

Ah...

I laughed lightly.

What if it does, what if it doesn't?

"I looked for the love I couldn't get from my family in others!"

I chuckled when I heard that voice. I whispered to the voice in my brain.

"Oh little girl, what have you achieved with someone else's love?"

There was a brief moment of silence in my mind.

"I…I need it," he said hesitantly. I smiled even more and said, "Tch tch tch, love can't get enough, little girl. It doesn't meet your need for shelter, it won't take care of you. It just consoles you with a vicious circle in your corner," I said with a sarcastic smile that I couldn't wipe from my lips.

The voice in my head shook with sobs and he began to cry. He shouted "You wouldn't understand! What do you know?!"

"I saw violence. However, all I wanted was attention. I was seen as a lab rat! I was not as valuable as an animal! I wanted happiness, but fate did not give me! Why, why did I experience all this when everyone was happy?!"

"Shut up!" Shura could not listen to the complaints that were buzzing in her head like flies. He cried out, his eyebrows completely furrowed. "Shut up and drop those feet!"

The voices in his head stopped.

But after a while it became even more severe.

"How would you know?"

"I took these..."

"...but..."

"I've been through..."

Shura covered her ears and shouted again, "Shut up! Stop making excuses!"

He shouted again, eyes burning with anger. "A little bit of magic! Be mature! Are you unhappy?! You sit lazily and wait for happiness, as always!"

"Did you experience violence? Didn't you have as much value as an animal? Did you want attention?"

"Pure!"

"You're just a naivete sitting around waiting for everything to be okay! No, you're an idiot!"

"You are responsible for the violence and unworthiness you see! Your weakness is your own fault, because you always expected it from others! You said, "Pear pear fall into my mouth without taking a step forward! Now, are you looking at those who eat the pear and complaining? Enough! Take those excuses and get the fuck out of my head!"

"But!"

"What the hell?!" The voice spoke in an accusatory tone to Shura, who was getting angry.

"You and I are the same! You must understand my trouble!"

"Let go of these feet, I can't mess with you." Shura spoke with a slight calm. "Are we the same? Sorry little girl, but I didn't need anyone's love. I'm self-sufficient, I don't need anyone's attention!"

"I've never complained little girl. I've always been strong and I destroyed those who tried to crush me. We can never be the same. There is a world of difference between us"

"Pain? I'm not attached to anything or desire anything to the point of suffering"

"Hahaha, I said. We're the same"

"We are both of those who lied to him..."

"Shura"

Shura was shaken.

Of those who lied to him...

"Be open, you're attached to them. That so-called family, your lover, and your pathetic feelings. Ah Shura, don't you notice? You're out of a miserable situation. You don't have that old life. You're not doomed to loneliness anymore. It's you, stop the lies..."

-To be continued-