32《The thought of being 'good' ?》

After my mother took care of the bruise, she spoke to me with a serious look.

"Shura, no matter what happened in the past and what will happen in the future, you are my child."

"I do not deal with your past, but I will not allow you to live your future so recklessly. If you are wrong, you will take responsibility"

"You can be naughty, or active." He caressed my face "but care about your life baby" then patted my head "You are not alone, your actions worry us"

I felt weird as he spoke.

"I'm not a parent who likes to restrict their movements, but I have to think about my child's future too," she spoke gently.

My heart...

I think today's dose of emotion was enough!

Ah, these words are like magic.

It influences me.

I, the one who doesn't understand words, the one who goes to the nose of the one who is told not to do it, I was sitting there meekly.

Hey, would I see these days too?

I looked at the woman.

Strange.

It is strange that in this thing called emotion, it also affects me and I do not avoid it.

I noticed something now.

I let my guard down from the start today.

I'm shocked, have I unconsciously started to trust this family thing so much?

So much so that I forget to protect my life around them?

Strange.

Strange.

Very very strange.

"Shura" I unconsciously looked at my mother.

"Forget it," he told me with a slight smile.

"Forget your past and start your future with a new page."

His words echoed in my head as the words struck me as if I had been struck by lightning.

Forget your past and start your future with a new page.

I always forgot my past.

But I lived under its influence.

With selfishness, betrayal, arrogance and fraud.

If I tell you about the scumbags I have done, they will not fit here, this will not be based on logic.

(I will not give an example so that you do not hate the main character too much._.)

I just stayed away from innocent people. From innocents and children.

Other than that, my body was polluted with everyone's blood.

I have no regrets whatsoever.

But would my life always pass in such a vicious circle?

How fun, how beautiful could this life be?

Maybe...

I could try to be 'good' slowly?

For example, could I share something?

Emm, what should I share?

-Hell?

No, it's mine.

-Heaven?

Nah I will.

-I could cook for that person?

No, I can't handle it.

-Can I give you some money?

am i a sucker?

Don't let the person who made this thing called sharing come out in front of me. I'll burn and wash the place.

I could think of something else.

Doing good?

For example, someone fell to the ground.

Normally I also react, but I can remove that person? Maybeiii.

-For those who don't have food?

LAT.

-Erm, I can't think of any favors.

Okay, I won't do any favours.

"It's enough that you don't have any malice to anyone," whispered my long-lost demons.

"Well that's hard" I muttered.

-No stealing.

I can't stop.

-No tattoos.

My hand itches.

-I can't do the scabies that comes to my mind.

I can't sleep at night.

-I can not lie.

I can't tear it from my mother without getting beaten up. Besides, lying means avoiding the easy way out.

-No tricks.

My life is based on cheats.

Wait a minute, I'm the devil. These are normal. No, even though I want to be a "Ghost" now, what if I'm back as a demon?

After all, a person cannot change himself.

OK, I was going to start small.

daaaa...

maybe.

Never mind, honesty is too expensive. Will I deal with it?

If I'm characterless, I'm characterless, who cares? Do I interfere with anyone about how to behave?

He does not give up his good nature and watery water. Especially if this person is me, I will not give up on either of them.

Everyone in their own way!

"That's impossible," I said, looking solemnly at my mother.

"I didn't ask you that far," said my mother, smiling as if she could read my mind.

I was shocked.

"How do you know, mom? Did I think out loud?"

Or is this wife reading my mind?

"Your face turned green first, then red, then blue and purple. Finally it went dark. You were having a hard time and as a mother it's okay to guess what your child is thinking," she said with mild amusement.

"Mom, by God, don't expect that much from me. I'm even constricted in thinking, if I do it, I won't be able to sleep that night"

True.

If I donated money to a charity, I'd sit still the next day and rob that charity. It was best not to start this business at all.

After all, I wasn't the type of person to cause much trouble as long as that job didn't start, that is, no one came and looked for trouble from me.

If I am threatened with something and someone, for example, is telling me not to do that thing. I would have done it.

I have it in my water, after all.

"Leave it, Leina, so was your mother," said Vain at that moment with a slight smile.

my grandma?

My mother softened when she heard her mother, sighing with relief said, "Okay, live as you want."

"But never forget that you have a family!" she said.

-To be continued-